Sometimes you’ll see one go huffing by with crap running down their legs.  That’s dedication and grit, both of which I haven’t got.  I brought a kitchen knife out deep into the woods one lonesome hike when I was 13.  Now I’m 41 and there’s still turds falling outta my jock strap.  They can “maybe” into one hand and piss into their other. What a stupid waste of  time.

I only shall his once today, i didnt go any where near the cafeteria and chilled in the liabary all morning. I took really odd and out of the way routes to all my classes to make it easier on myself, i only shall him once after school. It was the only way out of the science building and there he stood waiting for his girlfriend i bit my lip as i walked past his friend cody spotting me grabbing my arm saying something i couldnt understand. I shook his arm off quickly and ran off, looking long enough to see tanner looking at me […]

By:EmoCookie

Eyes closed

A stream prepares its self  a pound her face

She lies on her daily bed

Voices begin to spread

Like a drop of water put down on a napkin

They start to sing the scary tale of your life

(One, two freddy’s coming for you)

Can’t no longer keep my eyes closed

BOOM

I open my eyes

A forest appears

So confused and no words to understand

Everything

so green

But really I open

My eyes wider to see it

Its beauty

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Damaged Butterflies

Butterflies rise from the lake, born of it through white wings.

The night comes at them like a brigand, but unknowingly they float through the air towards the luminescent moon.

To float far away from home, shall draw blood from their wings

rippling the water; changing what once was so clear to a dark red.

The butterflies are struck by the night and blinded by their own blood, falling deep into the red, to be revived forever more.

I think I’m going to do it finally. I think I’m done.

By:EmoCookie

These shadows are my demons

These shadows are the thing that keeps me up at night

That wake me up when I am sleeping

These shadows are my demons

The shadows stop and stare at me

The  shadows always begin to talk to me

But no words come out my mouth

These shadows are my demons

The shadows want to take me

The shadows want me to talk to them

These shadows are my demons

The thing that keeps me up at night

That wake me up when I am […]

Have you ever felt like you wanted to be part of something bigger than yourself.  A place you can call yours. Somewhere no matter what you said or did it was fine, no one who give you shit. A place where no one had the same story but similar experience. A place where you actually fit in and your words were heard? Well this is it. This is the closest you will ever get. A place like that doesn’t exist, why would you even wish or think of a place like that? All there is, is this website. A place we all call Home.

This was a bad day. I feel hopeless, useless, and stuck. The choices I do have… I don’t like. The words are welling up in me but I’m tired of spitting them out… writing them out. It’s always the same. I wish I weren’t here. I wish I never ever had to be alive. This is shit.

By:EmoCookie

Please someone hold my arms for i have no control right now

My cry to you means something, it doesnt meannothing

Hold my arms so I can no longer be hurt by this tamed

People say you need to stop with this bloody game or you will never get fame

Ma its not a game

I  just want to keep tamed

Hold my arms for I have cut again a pound my arms

Hold my arms so I can be on the right path!

Please someone hold my arms!

Please

Fuck everyone! Fuck everything! I hate my life, the only reason I am still here is because I am afraid that I will hate after-life even more. I don’t care about shit! Every time I step into my car, I want to drive straight into a fucking tree or a building! Fuck this…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptzzU7jFQwo This Song really helps me.

She looks in the mirror stroking her hair

trying to cover the bruises as if they weren’t there

her locks of gold so beautiful

used to shine so bright

but her light slowly faded

into the dark sacred night

the bubble of  happiness

finally popped

she was broken beyond repair

constantly gagging needing more air

unable to survive all she does is cry

left alone in the world

who would care if  she died

By:EmoCookie

Boom

Bam

Slam

No one heard the pain that I believe I desever

Slice

Dice

That  is th price that I pay for myself

Spray

Snif

The way I can take myself from this world to be happy for just a second

Slap

Crack

Punch

Have nothing left

Get something someone can’t take from me

Safty pins

No longer come safe for me

Blade box cutters

No longer are for boxes

For my arm is now the box

And the blade […]

I don’t understand the person i have become anymore. I used to be so nice and so full of nothing but happiness. Now i just cry myself to sleep. Maybe it’s because my father died this September of a tragic accident. But i don’t think that’s it completely. I feel so pushed away i have 2 sisters and they’re so perfect they all always have straight A’s…and then there is me… with F’s and D’s. I have so much anger and hurt on the inside i just want to scream HELP ME. but of course no one is there… I’m trying so hard not to break. I […]

By:EmoCookie

Someone please jump into me

Feel my pain

Feel me

I’m dying inside

Help Me!

Help me get some air

Becasue you don’t see me

Dying on the inside

I’m almost gone

Gone from this world

Someone

Jump into me

Walk a day in my shoes

Feel my pain

And you may gain

Gain something in your mind

That’s my question..will it get better? I don’t think I ever felt so depressed in my life before and it bothers me to no end because this isnt who I am. People who met me know me to be always smiling, cheerful, and over all happy but behind closed doors I’m a complete mess and just not myself. I wish I didn’t care about people as much as I do because maybe I wouldn’t give second chances to people who didn’t desereve it, maybe I wouldnt take everything to heart but in all honesty thats my biggest issue is that I take EVERYTHING to heart. […]

By:EmoCookie

We look each other  in the eyes

you tell me you love me and that you

know me from the back of your

hands, but now that you are looking

in my eyes look more in and see

the real me. you may be scared at

first but keep looking at my eyes. My

pain may eat into your soul, but

KEEP looking into my eyes! You say

you love me, you say you know me

from the back of your hands. Well to tell

 you the truth you don’t […]

Well, i thought it was time to introduce myself. I’m a girl, sixteen years and I’m from The Netherlands (Please don’t mind my spelling and grammar) . My nickname (Engeltje) is Dutch and it means (Little) Angel. I live in the area of Amsterdam (I guess most of you know Amsterdam :P) . I live with my parents and an older sister. So that’s the general part and now a part that goes about my life. Okay, I’ll try to keep it short, so I will only tell the most important things.
I don’t know how it goes in the USA, but in The Netherlands […]

Dear word,

I know you don’t know me. And the words that I’m about to say may mean nothing to you and you just may not care. I am a female that goes by EmoCookie its an old nickname and I am 18 years old. I have depression. I see people to get help, but that doesn’t seem to be working but I will give it more time. I am an on and off cutter. I cry. I try to smile when I can. I’m failing school and I dont know what to do about that. I’m lost be on repair. My dad is […]