Ive lost/about to lose everything that is important to me. I let some outside factors take over and rule my life. Making my relationship suffer and eventually costing me the only person who really matters. It all started when my dad was tricked into accepting stolen property. My dad is an old sick gentle man who has survived cancer. He still needs a lot of medical attention but now he has two felony accounts on him. During the same time my band i have been with for 5+years breaks up and one of best friends goes to jail for something he didnt even do. So […]
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My whole life has been me slipping in and out of depression, so I know what it’s like finally feel renewed and pull out of depression. That said, I’ve never felt this bad before about myself… it’s unprecedented for me to feel THIS bad. You know how people say they’ve hit rock bottom? Well, to give you perspective, I feel like rock bottom was the thing that hit me on the head, that’s how low I am.
So what happened to get me this low? It’s a list of things that have piled on me. 1) I only have $30 […]
things will come together and we can all be happy and celebrate the fact that we are strong enough to pull thru all the shit each one of us go thruXD
Why not stand up for yourself?
Obviously we are all on this site for a reason.
Why not stand up to our problems?
brush it all off.
Stand tall.
Smile.
Be happy.
No matter how hard your problems may be.
You can still stand tall and show people what your made of!
People don’t control your emotions.
You do.
Don’t let people bring you down.
Just stand up for yourself.
So… My main problem in life isn’t that of feeling left out, not that I don’t fit in although both of those are very much good reasons to be depressed. Anyways, my problem lies in my relationship, not with it but about it. I have kept a sort of diary or blog type thin on my phone over the nearly 3 years and as you read them from start to finish you see it go from sweet and cute to doom and gloom. Now I am a 16 Year Old male and I am extremely unhappy in which I sometimes result into self – harming. […]
I’ve read many posts on this site, and the many responses that went with them. I realized that it was the same thing over and over again, someone is hurting and they reach out to anyone who might listen. Then those compassionate few who happens to stumble on the post responds. It’s like an endless cycle, you know? To all those people who are suffering, I just want to say I’m sorry that I can’t help you much. I honestly don’t know what to say to you, “Just stay in the game, it’ll work out…don’t give up”? It’s  not the most convincing advise. So, I just want […]
I have been doing research for over a week on the best way to kill one self. Amf there just doesn’t seem to be an actual way to do it without serious planning. Pills apparently don’t work. I can’t afford a gun. And te drugs that are supposed to work are impossible to obtain  so seriously what is a girl supposed to do!!!!
Rapidly losing reasons to live, shit hits the fan and i have nowhere left to go
I need a plan. something to do. about to leave highschool and hit… nothing. forever.
I need some help…
I used to be depressed. I cut, and hurt myself, even thought of suicide because I thought there was no other way out. I know a lot of you will dismiss this post as garbage, it may even get taken down, but I want to help. I would know more than most that sometimes you just need to have someone reach out to you, let them make the first move. Now that I’m healing, I’ve made it my life goal to help at least one other person through what I experienced. If you want someone to talk to, let me know. I’m not offering professional […]
I thought I was finally okay…
I had found the guy of my dreams…
He loves me scares and all…
He loves me for me…
He helps me up when I fall
And holds me close when cry
But i’ve slipped to far this time…
Farthest I’ve ever fallen….
I know I’m loved by at least one.
But each and everyday I feel
Self hate building stronger.
I’ve attempted to change myself…
Hateing the result each and every time…
I’ve tried to end it well over a hundred times….
But yet I’m still sitting here crying in pain…
The blood from my cuts seep down my wrist climbing over each scar…
He begs for me to not give up….
But this is […]
The ONLY person who actually made me forget about eveerything that made depressed. The only person who could actually make me feel good. The only person who I enjoyed talking to. The only person who I looked forward to talking to, is now “taken away from me”. Our only way of communication was through texting. My mother, who I now despise deeply, decided to take my phone. I feel like I am at my breaking point. I feel like I won’t know how to deal with this on my own. Yes, it’s sad I relied on this person for my happiness, but that’s just how […]
I woke up today already feeling depressed.
I didn’t want to do anything at all today, so I decided to take some sleeping pills to make me sleep all day, hoping I’ll feel better. I slept for 7 hours and I feel terrible and my emotions are all over the place.
The suicidal thoughts are back.
-A.C
I hate my life so much! I’ve been in and out of the hospital for trying to kill myself for years now! Things were good for awhile but then it all got taken away! I’m tired of now being the ugly,fat, single girl that no one really likes and will be alone forever! Everyone my age is getting married and having babies and I’m just sitting here on my fat ass living at my mom’s house!!! And I’m 27! I’ve tried but just can’t ever seem to survive this world! Even when I am skinny and my depression is doing better it all just falls […]
i dont wanna sleep……soooooo who wants to talk?
I’m just going to put up a question from time to time for all of you. Answer it however you want.
If there was one thing you could change about yourself, what would it be?
How do you benefit from others?
What are you most proud of?
Im out of my meds, and havent taken them for a couple of days, and im freaking the hell out. I need my fucking zolft . I feel like im trying to swollow a fucking knife right now, I want to cry , can you belive that? Im a guy im not supposed to cry, im supposed to just lock that shit away but with out drugs im fucked. I feel like ripping of my face or throwing everything on the floor and re-organize for hours(last time I arranged the house for 2 fucking days) Fuck OCD and Fuck depression and Fuck anxiety. I am […]
Life goes on. When you’re dead or aren’t. Death only causes pain. So why do i want to die so badly?
Right now, I feel like the only reason that I’m able to enjoy my life and my days is knowing that I can end my life soon. Maybe I won’t be depressed enough anymore then to have the will to do it, but I strongly feel that if 2 months from today I’m as depressed as I was 2 months ago I will probably end my life swiftly and sober and, I hope, somewhat detached.
It’s ironic that accepting this and seeing it as a goal in the future to get me out of the situation I’m in is helping to allow me to really enjoy […]
The day embarked with a feeling of happiness. One of those days where you just wake up and you know *i’m happy*. It’s continuous but seems to last for seconds when it lasts about a day. You’re the quintessence of happiness. When your busy day of running around and trying to stay away from your house ends, you must go “home”. Their your parents scream and yell, no silence but in your own thoughts. However your thoughts tend to be pessimistic, annoyingly so. Because you grew up without a sense self-worthiness. But life goes on and you walk to school everyday, plodding around, for […]