My problems are not as complex as they feel.
I can trust some people.
The problem is figuring out which people.
I can empathize with others.
The problem is figuring out how to express it.
I am a better person than I think I am.
The problem is believing it.
I am much like everyone else.
The problem is seeing it.

There are a subset of people with OCD who obsess over thinking they are schizophrenic.
I often wonder if there are a subset of people with OCD who obsess over thinking they’re a narcissist.
If so, I probably have both themes.
Or maybe I am […]

I was woken up last night by my boyfriend he says you where having a nightmare I remember and says yes it was about my uncle he says its almost like you want him therelike you  look for reasons to be miserable then he tells me he understands ahhhhhhh   I just cried. I hate my existence .

I feel so silly, but yet see the reflections of pain on my skin. I see my dark thought’s when I see myself in the merrier and then the sad follows when the steps of lonely come in line. I have imagined that someone could get help, but I only get numbers on a paper, and the deep thoughts mean nothing; they tell me the same, and here I am writing. I don’t want to kill myself or others, but at what point will they listen to me? I have said that I have seen bodies; and carried my friend in a bag, and they […]

I can’t do this anymore..its just not worth it..im tired of it all..tired of pretending to be happy, tired for pretending that did not hurt, tired of pretending that i mean something, tired of pretending someone anyone cares ajbot me..

Names have been removed and some details simplified to avoid a breach of my own sense of security and confidentiality of others.

Have you ever held a knife against your skin, but been too cowardly to cut? Have you ever knocked yourself out, in the hope that you don’t wake up? Depression and suicide. Two of the coldest, most clinical words I know for feelings that no amount of writing or talking can ever describe. This is my rather abbreviated story.

I was born into a Christian family, raised to believe that there was a God somewhere out there, yet everywhere at the same time, who loves […]

It hurts so bad.  I want my pain to end.  Hating the fact that I can’t get myself to end it.  Being in “limbo” (not living, not dead) is the worst.  Each agonizing day of merely drifting along, with no purpose, with no reason, with no one, and just endless loneliness and pain.  Three decades of pain- it’s enough.  How much longer will I have to suffer?  I am not strong enough to endure.  I do not want to endure.  All that awaits me is more pain and suffering.

Hey, you.

I want to let you know that you’re not alone, and what you’re feeling now is something each and every single one of us can relate to. We’ve all felt at one point or the another, that what we’re going through is something that we can’t come out of, or too painful to see through. Though, even if you don’t believe in yourself, I believe in you.

I can’t and wont promise you that everything will be better, but I can promise you that can make it through tomorrow. You’re reading this now, aren’t you? You made it through today, and I promise that tomorrow will […]

I love this song by Arcade Fire, to me it’s about a guy who’s written a suicide note and has gone through with the act somewhere out of the road. It was featured in the enigmatic series Six Feet Under, which I adored. And sorry guys but good music is one of the best tonics for how we’re all feeling…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0_4HmG2PzE

So I’m 19 years old, no job (have had a few but quit, now can’t find one) I know my family loves me very much and same with my girlfriend but things have always been rough and they all know it. Suicide has been very prominent in my life until around 16 when I turned to Christ and felt re-born. Surprisingly coming from someone who actually follows Christ to the best of his ability I have done every drug under the sun. Half the time it’s my reason to live next to the other half which is hurting people who care. I’m about at the […]

This song’s off the new Muse album, The 2nd Law.  I still dunno what I think of it yet, or the last album for that matter, but I like this song. I do find it fascinating that nearly all of my favourite music is depressing, melancholy or reflective and often a bit angsty too. Maybe sad music is just more powerful?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UTh06XOdh8E

Leaving friends & acquaintances can always be hurtful, But not today. It was a huge step I was willing to take for myself. I’ve always wanted to be that nice, easy going, funny person everyone can admire and wish they could be just like him/her. Trying to always have a smile, Not showing any emotions when being made fun of, But just giving kindness no matter what they do to you. Having to hide the real me was not only frustrating, But depressing. Trying to get away from the people who make me feel like complete shit about myself, Was and is very hard. Knowing how they hurt me, Ignoring it, Until I […]

I depressed. That’s all. Not suicidal. I need to Get the fuck over it. I need to shake it off, stop being so weak and get the fuck up.

Quit being scared, stop being so pathetic, and press on

Ok. Well I’m 14. Everyone thinks I’m so so happy and I I want is to die. Yes like get the pills and go for ever. I’m really thinking about it. Everyone thinks I’m so good. So happy. Loving my perfect life. Noone knows not my mom or dad. Not even my best friend. I can’t tell anyone or I really will be weird. My mom would think I’m joking. And I’m not close to her like that.. I have problems with how I look I’m too fat. I’m like 5’8 and 135lbs I need to be bones. I envy people that have Ana I […]

My whole life I have struggled to be “happy”. I have a “type A personality” and even though I am aware of it I can’t seem to change my outlook on things. I have friends and family that love me, but I can’t bring them down with my problems all the time. I wish I could see a therapist or something, and just talk to someone who wouldn’t be burdened by my sadness. I’m scared that I will never be happy no matter what I do. Happiness has always been such a fleeting thing in my life. I hate feeling this way. Why does this extreme […]

I am 45 years old and contemplating killing myself.I never had a girlfriend.I try to be kind and decent to others around me but, feel no true caring from others.I have been attending school part-time on and off since 1994.More off due to my crippling anxiety and lack of self-worth.My “goal” is to become a special education teacher.People arround my treat me like I am  sub-human and are only nice to me if they want something.I irritate others arround me because I am so fucked-up socially.      U nfortunately  I am        starting to develop a hatred for humankind, even though I do not want to feel this […]

Question is simple here.

I can’t believe I came upon this site 10 minutes before I went to work this morning…

Everyday is a struggle to go into work  just like everyday is a struggle to find one more reason to live another day.

I’m a 39 year old mother of 3, and their light that kept me alive in the past is slowly fading. I no longer find solace in their faces… In fact I can’t even look them in the eye anymore. I feel as though they’ve failed me, and I know damned well I have, and will fail them. I think it’s because I’m angry with them for […]

Im not just a kid, im a kid whose been torn

a kid who no one has ever come to mourn

who has been cursed since the day he was born

To people his life was not a rose but rather a thorn

Im not just a kid, im a kid whose been broken

A kid whose always been outspoken

im not just a kid, im kid who has scars

a kids whose spent his whole life behind figurative bars

im not just a kid, im a kid who never had dreams

a kid who never dreamed of heroes and laser beams

a kid from which happiness would not gleam

a kid who was a target […]

I don’t knownif anyone else has been on an anti depression drug but i recently

got taken off of my prescription and i’m not doing so well. mentally i’m feeling a little

more stable than I have been lately but I can’t keep any food down and I’m hot

and cold at the same time and my insomnia is back. Is any of this a normal reaction

when stopping a prescription like this?