When I was 11, my older sister was abused by my parents and police got involved. Because I witnessed it, I had to stay with foster parents for 3 months before I could talk to my family again. After the 3 months when everything had calmed down, my parents started treating my sister as a princess because of what they had done to her and they treated me and my brother harshly. I was jealous, of course, and wanted the attention my sister was getting. When I was 12, I tried to commit suicide with an overdose of sleeping pills because of two things: I […]

Has anyone heard from nat?  getting quite worried

I have an undying urge to be a part something larger.  I want to live in a city where there are so many things going on I have a choice where to put myself.  I want to be exposed to as many cultures as possible.  I want to cook good meals with an assortment of flavorings, meats, and vegetables. I want to be able to ride a bike everywhere.  I want a tiny apartment. I want to be able to go to an edgy comedy club, and go to a jazz bar, in the same night.  I need variety.

I have always seen myself moving to […]

I called the suicide hotline.

They put me on hold and a recording told me “Your total waiting time will be: 108 minutes.”

I hung up after 10 minutes.

What is wrong with this world?

So today was the worst day. I’m 14 a freshman in high school. I know I should not think about my body shape at this she but I do, its ugly, fat, stretch marls everywhere I can’t eat I get depressed after I look at the scale 124 lbs disgusting I say to myself! I look at other girls there ihalf my size with such a nice body why can’t I be that way there’s boys at my school who have skinny beautiful girlfriends my crush says he hates chubby girls I can’t even have a boyfriend cause I’m so fat! I wish I was […]

I have come to two all-purpose conclusions, one: in general, life sucks. Two, everything has a reason; thus if the gravity of our world didn’t suck, then we’d all fall off. Everyday dawns another with a hope that something will happen to counteract the misery, but then there are some who wake up without hope. In their world, they suck and are victims to the gravity of invisible encasement promising happiness of lies. If you are happy, then you are lucky, you are not trapped. You like who you are, people like you, you trust they like you. Others of us face the doom of […]

Cant fall asleep even tho lifeishorrible kept me up till 4 last night!

The only reason I am living is for others. My family, friends, and people I dont even know. I would have committed suicide by now, but ive told my friend not to tell anyone so if i end up doing it the burden will be on his shoulders. I dont know what to do. I havent told my parents or anything because i cant face them. I am a coward they would feel terrible, they would feel failure as parents if i told them. My life seems to have no meaning. Seems that nothing can make me happy. When something does make me happy it […]

Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away.

I am crying. I am screaming out, asking for help. Is anybody helping me?

No. Is anybody even TRYING to help me?

It sure doesn’t seem like it. Can anybody even hear me?

I don’t know. Maybe they’ll hear, when I’m screaming harder, louder, when my throat is raw, and it’s nearly too late. I don’t know.

I don’t even know if I’m being heard by my friends. Definitely not by my mum.

I don’t think anybody even knows I am shedding tears, even when they are visible, literally streaming down my face, and making my neck sticky.

Elle once told me I look […]

hold me

Hey Ya’ll, my name is Leah and I want to share with you my suicide story. I just want to go ahead and start off with the fact that I love you, and I am praying for you every single day.
So, where to begin…
Ever since I can remember I have been suicidal. I have had these thoughts for as long as I can remember. I knew it was not the right way to think, that children were supposed to be happy, and the fact that I was not made me feel as if I was doing something wrong. I had trouble coping with […]

I keep telling myself if it wasnt for my kids id already be gone … but over the last few weeks ive pretty much been told im not a good person im crazy im poison, i ruin every thing … so if all that is true whats the point … i know my kids need me but they still have their other parent … so seriously if all i ever do is ruin other peoples lives neway and i poison everything then whats the point of sticking around to continue to poison everything… why not just take the plunge and be down with it?

i feel like an alien today more than ever. even simple inanimate objects seem foreign. I like burning myself, it hurts for a moment but for a moment its all i can think about and i like that. I cant stop my thoughts from racing. All i want to do is smoke and chill with this girl. Shes a freak just like me:) We made out yesterday for the first time. Im lonely. I cant wait to see her again. Im 23 and have almost completely gotten over my insecurities with girls. But ive still yet to be in love. My life is shit, […]

no one honestly cares. i go to school everyday upset, wanting to cry and just sit all alone. i get pushed aways every fricken day , i get so pissed off, i get so angry i breakdown , i cry , i cant deal with it any more,im so sick of being treated like crap. my social worker makes me feel horrible about myself. and no one wants to help , all i want to do it talk , or cry, or scream or write, not be pushed away ..someone talk to me.

So… I am a 13 year old girl. I have already tried to kill myself and failed. People say that suicide is the cowards way out. But its not. I still want to so why don’t I? There is something holding me back. I can’t describe it. Its not hope its not a dream. It is just something telling me not to. My view on suicide is that you most likely shouldn’t have you considered every other option? Probably not. Think on it. That’s all I want you to do. I tried and am still scarred by it. So unless you want to carry that […]

Comedian Doug Stanhope’s skit on suicide with the best analogy I’ve ever heard before in my entire life (Theatre):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3ZA-_kWGGc

Doug Stanhope seriously describing why he wants to kill himself:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X2dCkOI6LY

Lord, I’m 44 and everything he said in this clip applies to me. That’s pretty sad.

Star Trek Voyager — Best Episode ever:  Death Wish

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0708875/

A very deep, very meaningful look at suffering. So many ignorant people in the world believe that if you aren’t feeling physical pain, then you aren’t suffering. A co-worker lost his 14 year old daughter in a car accident on the highway when some stupid idiot decided to text a friend after […]

I hate how people can know a kid has a learning disability, troubles at home, depression, no friends, is shy, autistic, etc. and still make fun of them. It’s called grow the fuck up and learn to be nice, it won’t kill you to sit with the kid that’s alone at lunch, tutor the kid that needs help. Be a friend, maybe save someone from committing suicide. If you knew how those people feel without you putting more stress on them too, you wouldn’t think of ever making fun of them again. Even if the kids completely normal doesn’t give you a reason to make […]

i first started having suicidal thoughts when i was 16 years old but i desided i was going to hang in there and try to be the best i could but it was never good enough for anybody not even my mother who is the one person that is suppose to love me unconditionally. now four years later, nothings changed im still the same scared girl staring at the bottle of oxy saying that todays the day….. i wish i had it in me to just cut myself or take those pills. if only i had someone i could count […]

I’ve been really depressed lately, and it seems like it came out of nowhere. I’m only a teen and I’ve told my mom and she suggested going to therapy and getting on medication. But for some reason I just don’t have it in me to talk to somebody about my problems. I feel like talking will only make things worse. I feel stupid for feeling like this but these feelings of loneliness and worthlessness just won’t go away. Me and my best friend keep getting into stupid fights that last for the longest time. I always feel like people are judging me about every little […]

They think I’m perfect, good grades, popular, pretty, thats what I hear about t
me. But is it true? I don’t think so…. I’m not good enough I never am. My grades aren’t good enough, yes in have straight A’s but I need more. I’m not pretty, I’m to fat, yes I am a size one but It’s not good enough. I lie each day, act like I’m okay. Because I need to be okay and if I say it enough times, I start to believe my own words, but secretly I know its all a lie. I hear the voices, I see people who […]