I plan to kill myself. Say what you please, everything will just strengthen my point.

For the past year all I can think about is dying and killing myself. I have no confidence, I have social anxiety, everyone thinks I’m weird and annoying, I don’t think I’m pretty at all, no one likes me at home and I barely have any friends. I just wanna die and I’m always thinking to myself “maybe I should jump in front a car” and I’m always wishing for someone to just kill me already with a gun, knife, car, or anything cause I’m afraid to kill myself cause I don’t want people to think I’m selfish and stupid because what if I fail? […]

Dear Friends ,

How have you all been ? I , myself , have been feeling quite good although very worried lately. I’ve recently discovered that I also suffer from a bi-polar disorder. Its like I’m excited to see you one minute and the next I hate you and I just don’t want anything to do with you. It’s horrible because I’ve been treating many people with attitude and they all think I’m crazy , stupid and all sorts of things. School is also beginning in […]

I was born to a 16 year old mother. She neglected to tell the father, for whatever reason. This left me in a situation where I spent most of my time with my physically abusive grandmother, while my mom was off at college or work. Sometimes, my grandmother wouldn’t speak to me for days if I misbehaved.

In school, I did well up until grade 5 or so, at which point I started slipping, as more was expected from me, and I didn’t yet see the point of what they were teaching me. By grade 7 I was a straight F student, squeaking by to high […]

They’re coming.  I see it every night.  At risk of sounding like a 2012 buffoon I truly believe the End Times will arrive in our lifetimes.  The foundations of society are eroding beneath us.  Even in America the chaos is getting harder to ignore.  Every other week we hear about another man going on a shooting spree.  Violence is ramping up everywhere.  Racism and hatred have turned the human heart into rotten mush.  The truly good people are quickly being outnumbered by the fast breeding emtpyheads.  A world with only emptyheads is not a world at all, but a timebomb.

So why am I telling you […]

Is it a nice, warm fuzzy feeling?  Or an annoyance?

It’s warm out this evening. There’s a slightly warm breeze that brings with it the smell of over-ripened peppers from the field across the street. As I’m sitting on the top stair in the entryway to our house, I realize that it’s the last evening of August. As expected, I become melancholy that Summer is coming to a close. Suddenly I feel a surge of panic. How did the days pass me by so quickly? What did I do? I can’t remember doing much of anything. Another Summer gone by; wasted away. I stand up and walk to the end of our driveway, looking towards […]

I’m not really sure how these things are usually written and shared with others, and by that I mean how one starts off by sharing one’s problems with strangers. Hell, I am not even sure if this is even going to help at all… I suppose letting it out is better then keeping it in, which I tend to do a lot.

It’s 2:04 am and I am starting to get pretty drowsy and tired now ( took three benadryl to knock myself to sleep, which I lately do every night), so forgive me if I commit writing mistakes or whatever…
I have been struggling with […]

I’ve made a terrible mistake staying up this late. I’ve no distractions to keep my mind from wandering. It keeps going back to some words that were never ever meant to be viewed as bad. ‘I’ve just had no motivation to get on here, I’ve no one to talk to.’ Aren’t I someone?? don’t i matter at all?? i thought we helped each other, that we promised that if anything went wrong that was too much to handle ourselves, we would reach out to each other for that help we need. Am i not enough? is it because we’re thousands of miles away? Is it […]

I BREATH ..

I CRY ..

I LOSE MYSELF FOR A SECOUND ..

I HURT MYSELF ..

I GET SOMETHING SHARP ..

I STOP …

I THINK …

AND I WRITE ..

I STOPE TO THINK & I REMEMBER ‘ OTHER PEOPLE HAVE IT WORST ‘ SO I SHOULDINT LEAVE THIS WORLD WITHOUT KNOWING THAT AM NOT ALONE </3

hi..I…I don’t know how to write this without dying inside. I’m a complete ass. and I hate myself..a lot. no one seems to like me anymore and it’s getting harder and harder to deal with. I feel like i can’t go on anymore. I’ve been cutting myself since i was 11 ish and i just..i can’t take it anymore. i’ve tried killing myself so many times but im a baby. im too scared. i wanna just be able to do it, cuz i wan’t to end it so badly. i just, i need to leave. i wan’t to be gone forever. forever in a deep […]

GAHH!! I LEAVE MY ACCOUNT BECAUSE MY DSI FUCKING BROKE AND I GET FALSE REPORTED 5 TIMES!!! i cant tryst anyone…ANYONE. im gonna go cry and throw another tantrum cause im a little baby like that…i worked so hard to get so far and some little ***** wants to come along and report my flip because of some fucking blood. Ooh so scary…would this even fit on thiswebsite? Oh whatever if you dont think it does idgaf. Its put under rants. I think this is a rant.

Once upon a time, there was a girl.

When she was a little girl, nobody could wipe that smile off her face. She was happy. Then she grew up.

At 12 years old, her father was dying and had a heart attack. He was in the hospital for 2 months and she didn’t understand. That year, Her best friend (Amanda) committed suicide because of her parents’ divorce. She blamed herself and thought that they were separated because of her so if she killed herself, they’d get back together and everything would be amazing again. They can’t even look each other in the eye without bawling their eyes […]

today was the ending of my relationship .. 2years & 4months ended in 2secounds .. i broke up with him thinking he didint love me anymore that he never did ‘ i cried and i cried .. my ” bestfriend ” griselda said i was retarded for leting him go .. insead of cheering me up she put me down :'( i started thinking i waz stupid for leting go the lve of my lie .. so i asked hes bestfriend if he seemed sad the day i left him ? hes bestfriend said that he wasint ‘ that he waz happy tht he said […]