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I strangled myself today.  I made the mistake of doing this whilst standing up. When I got unsteady on my feet, I let go. I didn’t get as far as to make it to unconciousness, but I did feel a little dizzy for a few minutes afterwards.
Next time I’ll try and get myself to unconciousness. Perhaps I’ll sit down. Or maybe I’ll tie the other end of the cord up on something that won’t move, thus freeing up both hands to operate the other side thus increasing my strangulation strength.   The main reason I want to get to unconsciousness is that I want to […]
i wanna take them and stab them in me and just bleed out…i cant take this much more stress my family is so mean i wanna leave but hate saying “need to die NOW’ ..then never do i want out i wanna be free.. knives i love u..u wont leave me. u will be there for me when i know u r…i dont get this post just pissed
i feel like i’m falling apart… my whole world is crashing down around me.
Everyday is a struggle
I have no past
No history at all
Why should I
No one can ever go back
Only forward
Time will never stop
It will only rush
Though only a non stopped path
No breaks included.
Terrified about what i’m going to dream up tonight…. I don’t wanna sleep anymore….
I take back all my SPÂ thoughts, Yes, right now my life sucks, but I gotta make it thru. I have friends that love me very much and a family that is part of every single moment of my life, I need to bring the love and the hope back, I want to be with them and I won’t if I don’t fight for my life… So, all the unfairness of this system, all the faceless mofos on the government can go and fck themselves to death! I’m not gonna kill myself … at least not now! (who knows? maybe tomorrow I will fall on despair […]
When I saw the words ‘someday, all this pain will be worthwhile’ one time, then many other times on countless blogs, I would just shake my head, and silently disagree that my sadness would come to nothing, except perhaps recovery, then more nothing. But I recently realised that my pain has helped one aspect of my life: I am writing again. And what I am writing is good. Sure, it’s just a few very short and broken stories with loose plots and screwed up people, but that’s okay. Because what I’ve written is good. It’s not happy, but it is real and I’m pleased with […]
People toss around words like “hate” and “love” pretty often and yet they don’t know what either truly feels like. I thought I knew what hate was at one point, but I got over it and let it go. Then I met someone who caused me the most pain I’ve ever felt in my life. There hasn’t been a day in all these years I haven’t thought of that person, I dream about them, I think about them often enough when I wake up, during the day, and especially at night. Sometimes I picture resolving things with them but that’s extremely rare and not possible […]
I’ve been thinking deeply about this for s long time and what I’ve come to: I will not be missed here… My time is done… Snd this moment… Is the last. I leave you with this: falling inside the black -skillet My favorite song… One of them. Goodnight snd goodbye sp…
Isn’t that what the world is built on? Isn’t that what life is all about? The pain of existing. The suffering we succumb to, day after day.
I’ve been asked why I don’t want children. It’s a simple concept. I’m not a cruel, unjust person. I care too much. I love too much. And I simply will not bring another being into this world, so I can watch them suffer as I suffered. Hurt, as I hurt. I will not bring life into this world and watch it die. Watch it be eaten alive by society. By the media. By the government.
I will not sit back […]
I wanna get high as fuck.
Fuck myself over before I, well… Fuck myself over.
Don’t want to hear about how drugs are bad, I just want this all to stop. I want to kill myself. It’s nobody’s fault? Just my own. I have no future, no present and my past is as fucked as my head.
Thanks Daniel, Seriously. You have helped me with this decision. Well done, I know that’s what you wanted. I’m not a paranoid schizophrenic, well at leastI hope i’m not…. I didn’t expect it to come to this when I researched it.
Did I make this up? Fuck knows.
Please don’t leave, Silentblue. I […]
Trying to be friends with an ex
Difficult
Distances a bit better
But in most cases
Difficult
That is why no one believes in being friends with an ex.
I thought my friendship with this one certain ex was different
but i realized we were distanced.
Person lived in another area while I was in another.
Thought our friendship was different.
But I guess I was wrong
Friendship was nothing but a great disaster
Once I heard what was really going on.
I flipped out. Thought there was a great trust. But now I guess not. I believe that in the past they were all lies. Nothing but lies. If that person really trusted me, person would have […]
Losing a great friendship for after so many years
is like you never have met them.
Strangers at the beginning with no history.
Friendship in the middle
Thought friendship was supposed to last forever
A great friendship at least.
Thought it was supposed to be
So many history together
So many memories
Just became forgotten.
So much doubts
So much distance
But it was worth it.
Now Strangers at the end
There’s no tomorrow
Only cuz there was yesterday
Change is difficult.
And at the end,
Strangers once again.
Once you told them you loved them
It just goes downhill
No hope
No light
No faith
No trust
No anything
Just nothing
But dead memories
Its true
People change
Even if they don’t want too
People will eventually change
And all you have too do is..
is move on.
Accept […]
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If you need someone to talk to. I’ll do everything in my power to help you. I’ve been there and it does get better when you trust someone. Anyone email me at kirrawashere@live.co.uk if you need some support.
Feeling the choking effect of too much stress today!! Not good for my anxiety issues at all!!! Broox dad is suddenly wanting visitation rights with him after 2 years!! He’s hasn’t held him since the day he was born and suddenly he deserves every other weeked? My answer to that is fuck you!! Why should he be allowed to walk back into his life whenever he wants?? It wasn’t fair to Broox when he walked out on im and it’s fair to Broox to let him walk in and out like that all the time!! I’m terrified that his family will try and take take […]
He’s really pushed me down, he makes me feel worse, and I really hate myself. I’m done with everything, I can no longer do this, he didn’t sign the papers and he’s making my life terrible. Goodbye everyone. I don’t think I can do this anymore.
I swear to god, there is something very unnatural about capitalism; it is dehumanizing. I know I was not put on this earth to be a pawn in the system, and neither were you. I think that the industrialization of society was more of a curse than a blessing–sure, things are more convenient than they were 200 years ago, we live longer, have antibiotics, (is that really a good thing?….) but I would trade every convenience of modern society to be free from this system.
I am currently unemployed. Again. Do I want to go out and sell myself into wage slavery, again? NO. That’s right, NO. For some […]