trying. honestly im more then bloody hell serious im going to off myself soon. i just wish i can leave without someone caring..my best friend makes it so hard….like guilting me into living…im not mad, just upset i hurt him that much when i wanna leave so badly. i need a fool proof way to die. idk when im going..i just know im serious..nobody can get me to stay..im here..but within the rest of the year im gone. im sorry, but i let go off my cliff im falling now…

i was so blind so stupid… i didnt really deserve him in the first place..but now hes gone and i want to go too but we have a little boy…he needs me…i cant really escape the pain though and this dark thought wont go away

This all I am now..But I’m recovering and I’m getting better<3
Scars show that the wounds have healed and that things do get better:) stay strong.
Feel free to add my Facebook page-I am here to help you all.
www.facebook.com/dinayobamashatakaynay.finaynaquaeeta
Don’t ever be afraid or worried about telling me things.
I do not judge and I am a good listener, and maybe we could share stories?:)

i was right. i really am all alone in this world. ive officially been cut off by the last person i thought i could call my friend. what is wrong with me? am i just that worthless im not even worth the time to talk to anymore? am i not supposed to have any friends? am i not supposed to get what i want in this life? its all too much for me. i just want to curl up, fall asleep and never wake up again. 

everyday is a struggle. the shit i pull just to get through the day makes me want to cry. i […]

Since there doesn’t appear to be a way to cancel my account, what do I have to do to get permanently banned?  I don’t want this account just sitting open on the internet.  I should have never signed up here.

I put everyone down. When I am with people (which is hardly ever) I can see the look in their eyes. I can see them waiting for me to go. Because nobody likes me. I have nobody to talk to and nobody to relate to. From the outside, people see a girl with a happy life who is happy. But once you get to know me I am so different to the mask I put on. I wish I had the guts to kill myself.

Every second week I have a practical lesson with my camera acting class. They are beautiful, I love them so much. They care about each other. They don’t judge. They think, ‘the weirder, the better’. They are all amazing actors and I feel like I belong. Why must it be two weeks? I don’t know if I can survive.

Oh, and why I hate it? Performing arts school- I love my drama, but the people there do the opposite they do at my screen class. Leave? No. Have precious friends and I wouldn’t be able to make anywhere else.

And I will never be a successful (I don’t […]

Does anyone else feel sick all the time like their body and brain are just shutting down ?

It feels like I’m just dying.

I’ve been battling depression for as long as I can remember. Dr trials, pill trials, I couldn’t take it. They finally stuck me on Pristiq and dismissed all of my issues. It’s teen angst, he has nothing to be sad about. 

Who in the world is entitled to decide how I should feel? Everybody is just ‘fine’ all the time. Here’s a shocking fact: I’m not fine. I’m on the opposite end of the spectrum. I’ve relapsed into this state of self loathing and loneliness I thought I conquered years ago. Some how, after everything I’ve been through, it decides to rear its head NOW. I […]

Always find this an interesting intro to the show “Cheers”

http://youtu.be/xvRGh2NEjSU

of course M.A.S.H.’s theme is lovely too…

(Sorry for video spam)

Sunrise is in 3 hours and 38 minutes.  Someone give me one good reason why I should live long enough to watch it happen.

Please, none of this touchy-feely “you have people who care about you” shit.  Frankly, I don’t care how my death will affect anyone I know.

Give me a reason to live for me.

I feel like I am strangling on my own self-loathing.

Hello, I’m a new member here on this website. I first came here last night when I was looking for a painless way to die and stumbled along the Helium Hood Method. I then began to research it and stumbled along the ENORMOUS thread about it, reading everyone of it last night while deeply considering doing it. I read about Jabawabba and everyone else and the Dignitas paper and it was like Wow. I kept reading and that calmed me down so I fell asleep. 

Anyways a little about me. Yeah born blah, blah. I move to the States with my mother seeking a better life […]

I have been battling depression for over 6 years now.  I was bullied really bad during the first 13 years of my life by people my age and adults alike, and I have no self confidence because of it.  I get stressed easily and do different things to relieve the pain I feel.  I also have panic attacks very often.  I first tried to commit suicide four years ago, after that failed attempt, I have been dreaming about the day I will be able to just do it and be gone.  I have tried three times since then, but I always fail miserably.  My counselor […]

Hi everyone,

My name is Tony and I’m a 29yo white male from FL. I’ve been dealing with depression for a good part of my life now along with ADHD and anxiety. I’ve always been the loner type and found it hard to make friends, when I did make some it wouldn’t last long for reasons beyond my understanding. I’ve always wanted to have a normal life like everyone around me seems to be having, but I know deep down that will never happen. The thought of suicide is always in my head no matter where I am or who I’m with. I have no one […]

I’ve been contemplating suicide, but I’m afraid what awaits me or what doesn’t await me on the other side. Where does my mind go? Surely there’s a place for it? I’m scared of how I’ll feel or won’t feel… I want to be able to see what happens after I off myself and keep living somehow as a ghost… Wishful thinking, I know. But seriously, is anyone else scared of the unknown?

i hate it when someone tries to take advantage of me… trying to get me to do things i can’t and don’t want to do… i’m so tired of it… it makes me feel worthless and unwanted… this time was so much worse… i can’t believe i trusted him…

Laid off from job. Applied for numerous other jobs and never heard back. Finally got a new job, absolutely hate it. I want to quit, but I have a fear that I won’t be happy in any job I find with the career I’ve chosen… though it can certainly be better than where I”m currently at.

Nearly 30 years old. Never had a girlfriend. Never kissed a girl. Longest “relationship” is 3 dates with a girl that was rather mean.

Socially awkward. I have no friends and don’t know how to connect with other human beings in the world. When talking with people I simply can’t understand […]

Im not gonna kill myself after all 🙂 Maybe im just having a moment of bipolar weirdness, but i just cant see why i ever considered suicide as an option earlier. I no longer give a shit about that girl from my other post, so now ive been able to clearly think about what i want. I want to live 😀

not tonight. im going to plan this very well. so i wont fail, 13th time goin to be a charmXD i hope. i wanna try everyday..but i can defend myself with my sister…i can…if i dont want internet for 2 years…then yeah id stand up for myself but shes a black mailer…she will tell on me for sexting (more reasons but thats the main one) again. she is still abusive either way but having secrets makes her worse…she only knows cuz i was takin pics when she walked in on me. her abuse is killin me. i cant live anymore. she tells me all the […]