I’ve been thinking deeply about this for s long time and what I’ve come to: I will not be missed here… My time is done… Snd this moment… Is the last. I leave you with this: falling inside the black -skillet My favorite song… One of them. Goodnight snd goodbye sp…

Isn’t that what the world is built on? Isn’t that what life is all about? The pain of existing. The suffering we succumb to, day after day.

I’ve been asked why I don’t want children. It’s a simple concept. I’m not a cruel, unjust person. I care too much. I love too much. And I simply will not bring another being into this world, so I can watch them suffer as I suffered. Hurt, as I hurt. I will not bring life into this world and watch it die. Watch it be eaten alive by society. By the media. By the government.

I will not sit back […]

I wanna get high as fuck.

Fuck myself over before I, well… Fuck myself over.

Don’t want to hear about how drugs are bad, I just want this all to stop. I want to kill myself. It’s nobody’s fault? Just my own. I have no future, no present and my past is as fucked as my head.

Thanks Daniel, Seriously. You have helped me with this decision. Well done, I know that’s what you wanted. I’m not a paranoid schizophrenic, well at leastI hope i’m not…. I didn’t expect it to come to this when I researched it.

Did I make this up? Fuck knows.

Please don’t leave, Silentblue. I […]

Trying to be friends with an ex

Difficult

Distances a bit better

But in most cases

Difficult

That is why no one believes in being friends with an ex.

I thought my friendship with this one certain ex was different

but i realized we were distanced.

Person lived in another area while I was in another.

Thought our friendship was different.

But I guess I was wrong

Friendship was nothing but a great disaster

Once I heard what was really going on.

I flipped out. Thought there was a great trust. But now I guess not. I believe that in the past they were all lies. Nothing but lies. If that person really trusted me, person would have […]

Losing a great friendship for after so many years

is like you never have met them.

Strangers at the beginning with no history.

Friendship in the middle

Thought friendship was supposed to last forever

A great friendship at least.

Thought it was supposed to be

So many history together

So many memories

Just became forgotten.

So much doubts

So much distance

But it was worth it.

Now Strangers at the end

There’s no tomorrow

Only cuz there was yesterday

Change is difficult.

And at the end,

Strangers once again.

Once you told them you loved them

It just goes downhill

No hope

No light

No faith

No trust

No anything

Just nothing

But dead memories

Its true

People change

Even if they don’t want too

People will eventually change

And all you have too do is..

is move on.

Accept […]

I feel like i am worthless and lonely i just need someone to talk to and relate to.  pm me.

or email me at andrewparkerhampton@gmail.com

If you need someone to talk to. I’ll do everything in my power to help you. I’ve been there and it does get better when you trust someone. Anyone email me at kirrawashere@live.co.uk if you need some support.

Feeling the choking effect of too much stress today!! Not good for my anxiety issues at all!!! Broox dad is suddenly wanting visitation rights with him after 2 years!! He’s hasn’t held him since the day he was born and suddenly he deserves every other weeked? My answer to that is fuck you!! Why should he be allowed to walk back into his life whenever he wants?? It wasn’t fair to Broox when he walked out on im and it’s fair to Broox to let him walk in and out like that all the time!! I’m terrified that his family will try and take take […]

He’s really pushed me down, he makes me feel worse, and I really hate myself. I’m done with everything, I can no longer do this, he didn’t sign the papers and he’s making my life terrible. Goodbye everyone. I don’t think I can do this anymore.

I swear to god, there is something very unnatural about capitalism; it is dehumanizing. I know I was not put on this earth to be a pawn in the system, and neither were you. I think that the industrialization of society was more of a curse than a blessing–sure, things are more convenient than they were 200 years ago, we live longer, have antibiotics, (is that really a good thing?….) but I would trade every convenience of modern society to be free from this system.

I am currently unemployed. Again. Do I want to go out and sell myself into wage slavery, again? NO. That’s right, NO. For some […]

‘Well, I know the feeling,
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge,
And there ain’t no healing,
From cutting yourself with the jagged edge,
I’m telling you that, it’s never that bad,
Take it from someone who’s been where you’re at.’

Damn, I love Nickelback.

Anyways. Feeling depressed :I and obviously suicidal.

Did i tell you guys about the day before my birthday? Well, I didn’t really know much about Daniel then, I just knew that I had a voice in my head that was driving me crazy. For some reason I thought I could release the voice inside my head by scratching at my hand until […]

Hello all,
I joined this site because I wanted to find an anonymous way of writing down what I felt over the last few years without causing anyone I know (especially myself) any more issues. The last thing I need is my mother committing me, she already thinks I’m in some real trouble psychologically.

I have more to be happy about now as opposed to when I was 25, but it seems as though things are worse than ever. I have a real job, and Iagave some hobbies I’m active in. I worked hard to accomplish that. But I’m consistently crushingly lonely. I can’t […]

Funny how trivial everything becomes when you know you’re going to die. All these things that were once so important… job interviews, finances, hell even wars and famine and disease… are growing so distant, like a tv in the next room. Lately my own voice doesn’t even sound like me anymore. It sounds like the voice of some actor reading my lines. The other day I was talking and suddenly stopped because I sounded so weird, like REALLY WEIRD.  I asked the other person if there was something wrong with my voice, and she said I sounded fine, politely adding, “maybe the acoustics are weird […]

I have visited this sight in the past and I am now back, not because I want to die. I have wanted to die and I have thought and tried but I will never succeed. Somewhere in my heart is the passion to go on I just dont know how to go on when I hurt so much. I could go on and on about my fucked up life and all the horrible things that have hurt me. But I have finally thought I found peace with myself and something that made me happy. Then it all crumbles down around me. I want love and […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2oQGn_msZqI i love this song i relate to it in evey way

Do you think diving off a bridge or a building is going to be pain free? What if you change your mind on the way down? There is no easy way to kill yourself. If you take anti-depressants and still want to die, maybe what you really need is a change of environment or stop therapy altogether. They will never say you are through with therapy, but will continue to reinforce everything that is wrong with you.

I’m really not seeing a reason to continue fighting my debilitating depression and anxiety. I have never had a reprieve in my 28 years, despite various medications, spiritual journeys, and self-help literature.

I have always held myself to a very high standard and have been relentless with trying to reach success from a very early age. I survived an abusive childhood with an alcoholic father.  I thought that getting married, getting a Masters degree, and starting my career would bring me the happiness I so desperately want and the outside validation to prove that I am a good person.

I loved my husband with all of my […]

so the ***** is at a friends house..YIPPEE!(: had the night to myself. the first night in weeks i gotta walk around the house not worying what my sister would do to me. normaly, i leave a room and she screams. the other day she beat me with a hanger for stepping out of her room to change a song on utube im supposed to watch her clean her room not focus on music…anyways she comes home in a few hours…DAMN but a plus side: mom outa the house today (***** is nicer when its just dad home). i wish my morning can last forever […]

I think jumping off a building is the way I want to go.. When I do go or when I have the guts.  I could run up the stair well to the top of a huge skyscraper. Then once at the top I could look down at the world of cruelty, pain and evil and for the first time since I came into this world, I can smile and truly mean it. I can stretch out my arms like a bird and jump like a child jumps happily when they are younger. Then I can fall effortlessy from this skyscraper and FLY. Then if I […]

wendy clear by blink182, dance around to it, its good. try and make yourself feel a little better today. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbHpZVCie8s