I’ve been alone pretty much my whole life. My family never really cared, I was always pushed last. I never had a friend. Everyone in school always picked on me because I was different. Whenever I thought I made a friend, they always found someone better and pushed me away.
It hurts feeling alone. No one gives you a chance and no one cares unless you’re pretty or dying.
I just want someone to care, to be a friend, to be lame and play video games with me.
I’m a nice girl, I always have been. But no one gives me a chance.
I will hang myself, next time I’m home alone, the soonest chance I get I will attemp, but I’m worried I’ll fail. also, I don’t know, maybe not quite %100 ready to die yet? %99.9? and that extra %0.1 is instint to survive? I will have a go. I have other, more lethal options if this does not work.
~Jaspar
i can’t get over the fact that my girlfriend now , lost her virginity to my arch enemy… it should be a whatever thing , like oh you can’t expect a girl to be a virgin kinda thing. But my not being able to get over it comes from the reason that she lost it to someone she chose over me . It’s like you hate someone and then your now girlfriend has you and him on the line and she chooses to date him instead.2 months pass and you already feel like secound best but now that guy you hate has something over you […]
I have no idea now, how I should kill myself, thats the only thing I think about anymore. I know we are not meant to discuss suicidal methods, but can someone help me?
Is it not enough to be just me? I’m trying to be the person that you need.. :c
It’s our time to shine through the down
Glorified by what is ours
We’ve fallen in love
We’ve fallen in love
It was the best idea I ever had
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Today I fell and felt better
Just knowing this matters
I just feel stronger and sharper
Found a box of sharp objects what a beautiful thing
Do you want […]
Hi guys, this is my first time on here and I need to just spill so…here goes. I have Bipolar Disorder and have been in and out of therapists and psychiatrists since I was 12. I’ve been through cutting and numerous suicide attempts, all of which involved overdosing. It’s been probably 3 years since I have actually attempted (I’m19 now) and within those 3 years, I actually had a fairly happy–and medicated–period. No suicide attempts, nothing. However, I can feel myself sliding back to that horrible, dark place that I spent so much of my early teenage years in. That place where everything is dark […]
I have lost so much in my lifetime… sometimes it seems crazy how much one person can lose. i have lost the small relationships i had with my dad and my sister who i haven’t talked to in three years. i have lost a mother that can do everything i need her to do for me… she can only do so much now. i have lost my happiness and motivation. i have lost friends and so many other people i have cared about. i lost my trust and care about my physical well being. i have lost my will to eat… but most of all […]
I havn’t posted on here for a couple of months now. Things weren’t improving, but they weren’t getting worse either. But now, I feel so sick, sick with pain. I can feel every vein in my body, pumping tar into my heart. everyday I feel a bit worse. I havn’t been going to school. I don’t even see the point of school anymore. it’s a fucking waste of time. maybe I wont even have to kill myself, but my surrounding family will, through stress. I don’t know how I would kill myself, helium method?
I just, I thought I had help, but now it just feels […]
Hi everyone.
First of, I want to share a little about myself, so that you have a little insight about who I am. I’m a 21 year old guy. No health problems. Great supporting family that has always been there for me. General good looking, tall, slim and dark hair and eyes. Have a job making decent cash. Live for myself, have my own car, doing rather good hence to the general things in life.
But, even in a seemingly good and fine life as mine, even I have my problems. I have very few friends, I can count them on one hand, and even […]
I am planning to use the helium method as an exit plan. The tank will come from walmart, tubing from a hardware store, large oven bag from the grocery store, and I’ve got the tape and drawstring. I am an unemployed teacher of 26 years experience and have been reduced to food stamps and community handouts since my unemployment stopped. Tried meds and antidepressants along with counseling – both group and individual and feel I have run out of time, money, patience, and will to want to see the next day. I stay locked inside my home unless I go to forced events such as getting food, […]
Listen to “When I’m gone – Eminem”
{Chorus}
And when I’m gone,just carry on, don’t mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I’m looking down on you smiling
And I didn’t feel a thing So baby don’t feel no pain
Just smile back
I can’t help but think, that could be me saying those final words …
something i wrote today. i tried to give it some sense, cuz i wrote it in portuguese. stay safe everyone.
the past echoes in the present, like a blade, that gives meaning to the wounds of a lifetime. the same life that has been lost in time, in the vividness of the moment, reliving stories of sweat, passion and blood. covered in dust and musty smell. the reality, tinged with darkness and despair, which tends, not wanting to exist, suffocated by tears and heart panting. the lack of words, that erodes the essence of knowledge, and the longing that shatters every moment and becomes suffering. yes […]
Hello my fellows, you lovely miserable wretches! Let me take this opportunity to tell you something about myself.
I’m a writer with a volatile past of drinking and episodes of severe depression. I’ve recently been sober for nearly a week, and have begun a regimen of anti-depressant medication which seemingly succeeds only in making it difficult to  attain a lasting erection. It’s all pretty fun.
The reason I’m writing here, is because I’ve sworn not to drink, and yet its absence makes me think of quite literally blowing my brains out with a pistol. I’ve always expected an early and likely violent death. It’s a choice now between drinking myself to […]
The only real relationship I’ve had is with the depression I’ve found myself entangled in for the past 7 years, and in those years have arisen many suicide tales.
The most resent addition was set in the earlier hours of todays Tuesday morning, after a clockwork argument with a family member about my self-absorption (expressed in a lack of a smile).
I fall into a routine of thinking maliceful thoughts directed at others and then towards yours truly, only this time, rather than reaching for the first sharpest instrument I could find to whittle my flesh with, I instead came to a conclusion that had left me […]
My job is so stressful that i am seriously always thinking about suicide. I cant leave my job because i have applied EVERYWHERE and no where is hiring so i have to get money to pay for gas somehow so i have to keep my job and its killing me. when i even think about my job even right now as i am typing this i want to break down in tears, throw up, and kill myself all at the same time. I just want to let out a long loud scream and ball my eyes out. I hate my job and it makes me […]
I want to die, but I honestly don’t know why. I have an average life, I guess. My father left our family when I was just a baby, and I never got to know him. Since then, my mom has been through a long trail of boyfriends.
One of her first boyfriends did something horrible to me. I don’t remember exactly how old I was. I went to counseling when it happened, and now, at age 14, i’m in counseling again. When I was 11 or 12, I went through this big phase where I never wanted to go to school. I hated school, and I […]
Let me just tell you, I’ve had a hard past. But, I’m not going into major detail right now. Let’s just say, my whole family were drug addicts, and alchoholics. I’ve been sexually abused many times. I’ve been also physically abused.
I’m diagnosed with so much bull crap that it makes my life completely difficult to go on.
Examples?
Hypothyroidism? I’m fat as hell. It also made me borderline diabetic. I’ve also been diagnosed with bipolar, schizophrenia, anxiety, depression, psychosis, and that’s really all I can remember. So much medication, doctors, counselors..I’m tired of it.
I’m in constant physical, and emotional pain. And I’ve tried this three other times, […]
Hey guys!(:
How has everything been with all u. Everyone else should come first.
Just want to let u guys know I have been helping young people like me fight suicide self injury and anything else they need me for!(: wow I just hope you all doing amazing
Now my turn to share I have been very suicidal but im fighting it!(: one day at a time. U just feel like if I tell all my problems I wont be able to help u guys
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And will you stop the hurt?
I have been feeling so Suicidal for a long time now. It’s been on and off for years now and I always believe that may fate is die by killing myself. My suicidal thoughts have been so intense lately and all I can think about is jumping off a bridge near me. I feel so lost and the world around just doesn’t feel the same any more. I just need to escape and feel at peace.