yup:/ just lost a great friend to it and i can never have him back:/
Hi,
I’m new here, and I wanted to share my story. Â My name’s Em, and I’m 21. Â A year ago tomorrow, I tried to kill myself by taking the biggest overdose I’ve ever taken. Â I’d lost the will to live, I believed I had nothing to carry on for and I just wanted to end it all. Â My relationship with my partner had come to an end, I’d lost most of my friends, all of my family, I had no source of income, my work training had finished and I had nothing to hold on to. Â I was depressed anyway and having nothing good to focus […]
For the first in four years, my parents smiled at me but I dont know how to take it. Because they could be happy that they can soon kick me out of the house or they just could be happy with me. I think it the first one stills because after they disown me they would never happy with me again but i have to live them stills so i am blamed for everything. But college is a year away maybe i’ll be happier then.
we try to talk to people about our problems..
but they make it hard….
as if they don’t really care…. we feel we can trust them and tell them everything yet they don’t want to know wants you tell them..
like its not their problem….
they don’t understand how hard it was to tell them…
we hide behind a mask..that nobody will ever see us take off….
Who are we who post on this site? Â We have suffered. Â That we even question our suffering is horrible. Â I appreciate everyone who posts on this site.
Noone understand. well at least from who I know. They always want something.but I don’t need hellp I can deal with it myself. just no one fuccking understands and then they think they know exactly what your going through fuck no. I just wished i was easier to open up. Like I had someone who I could trust. but I don’t cuz all of my friends are little backstabbing bitches. fuck life. fuck everything can I go away for like weeks and come back to a new start. godddddd killl mere!
I just want to drop everything and die.
This song really sums up my feelings I just want to go be done with it
Tonight I Will Retire
Oh tonight I will retire
To the arms of my lover
The sweetest kiss she will give
As I lay down beside her
What will she think
When she awakes
Just to find I have left here
Oh tonight I will retire
To these hands with revolver
And I don`t fear death
I will commit
Like an old friend I`ve known forever
So come on in, take me on
No I won`t stay here no longer
And if I should taste fire
Save me not, I deserve to die
And oh tonight […]
Does anyone know of any good suicide/depression chat rooms where there are people going through the same thing as me. Preferably one that isn’t constantly interjected by some annoying therapist. I hate life so much and no one going through the same things as me has any interest in chatting. I have anxiety too so it is hard just waiting to email people back and forth. I really need to find a chat room. Any suggestions?
I am the scum of the earth. I hear it every day from my ex. I valued her opinion more than anything and she is always right. Today she is going on a date with a man. Something I could never be for her because I wasn’t born that way. Even though I don’t want to be male, I would have become one of those manly lesbians, for her. But it wasn’t enough. I NEED to kill myself TODAY. I can not handle the pain of her going out with someone else. It hurts so fucking bad I can’t take it. This isn’t all. The […]
This site should not be full of ideas and suggestions of how someone should kill themselves. It should be about sharing stories.
Because no matter what you think. And no matter how lost you feel. There is someone, whether you know them or not, who will miss you if you ever leave.
You might think it’s never going to get better, and sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes you will need to stop hurting as much as you do everyday, or some days or all the time. But when your sitting down and you can’t take it at night. Share your story. This site, Tumblr, Facebook, Youtube, Twitter, call someone. […]
I’m Hannah. It’s my first time on this website, or any suicide forum for that matter. I found this website researching certain things about suicide. I’ve made several suicide attempts for over a year now, and I’m dead set on succeeding  it this month. I don’t see a reason for living anymore. I’m useless. I’m so depressed that I don’t have the motivation to get out of bed, or eat, or speak, or even open my fucking eyes in the morning. It just all so pointless. The hurting, and suffering, and hoping. I grew up with an alcohol dependent, abusive, work obsessed father, a narcissistic, jealous, […]
Everyone says I am not crazy. I don’t think I am but I do. Something isnt right with me. I have been through alot. No one will ever understand the pain I have been through. I got through depression, and suicide. Now I feel like it’s happening again. Like everything is going wrong. Like life isnt real and that I am not a real person. I think I am crazy. I keep having these flashbacks from when I was little. About this girl.. Everynight I saw her in the corner above my door. Not a normal girl. A weird girl. She had black hair and […]
Hi all,
I wasn’t around for a while but i am still not ok at all. My problem is that I can’t enjoy my life. I just started crying without any reason. I know, that it would be good to do something like going swimming, or jogging or something else. But I am feeling so down I can barely start anything. Today there is a really huge city-party, where thousands of people are going. But I keep telling myself, that I won’t go there alone, because everytime I went in the public alone, I started feeling even more lonely. Unfortunately I dont have someone to go […]
I know no one cares and no one wants to read this, but I want to tell the truth about myself.  I am a complete joke, I am desperately in love with someone, they mean the world to me, I would happily die for them, but I will never get to be with them, even if I only see a glimpse of their face, it has made my whole week, I would do anything just to say hello and for them to acknowledge me. Because I know I will never be with them, I have made it the sole purpose of my life to make extraordinary achievements,  so that maybe one day they […]
I’ve done it this time. Too deep. Way too deep. I actually didnt mean for it to be so deep. Wtf is wrong with me? Ugh should I try sewing it? I cannot go to the hospital. The funny thing is, I can’t feel a thing. Lol
A few years ago, my business partner stole millions of dollars from me which forced the closing of the business that I spent my life building. Â Shortly thereafter, I turned to gambling out of desperation, and what little I had left after he stole the money has been consumed by it. Â It has destroyed my life, my family’s lives, and my career. Â I have stopped gambling, but the consequences have finally pushed me past my ability to cope with them. Â While I don’t necessarily want to die, I simply can’t deal with being asked literally 20 times or more per day for money that I […]
I don’t know why I’m writing this, maybe it’s to release all my feelings somehow but I don’t think it’ll make a difference. I didn’t have a great childhood. My parents always fought and my dad was/is abusive. It hurt to see him hurt my mom and my two younger sisters. I used to care that he hit me but I got used to it and I just wanted to protect everybody else. Heck, I used to crave him abusing me because in my head that meant scars, bruises, belt marks. Evidence. I hoped that one day it would get so bad that someone would […]
Yup, some things have happened since i last came here. i think i’m in love, but i hate getting hurt so much. My best friend came into town but right now she’s not here. Thats pretty much all that has happened that is good. I still am depressed and suicidal but again, i can’t leave my best friend alone in this cruel world. Wish i could go right now. Still am addicted to cutting. I’ve burned myself but its not the same without any blood. I’ve seriously been thinking about drugs. I need something that will help relax me and maybe i’d finally get some […]
Oh man I think my depression has shifted gears into a nice clam mania! aka (manic)
NICEEE!
I’m a total freakin rockstar from mars winning, I have one gear “GO” epic winning! lmao
ARE YOU BIPOLAR? “I’M BI-WINNING!
-Charlie Sheen-my fucking idol!