I push people away when I’m afraid, because I don’t think they could ever handle my feelings, I’m still trying.
Have you ever had one of those days, when you just hate everything? And even dropping your pen makes you want to break down and cry?
I always feel as if I treat people right, I strive to make sure the people I love are alright, even the ones that hate me. But have you ever had someone that continues to tell you that they dont deserve you? or they just keep rejecting your love? but they still stick around. It confuses me, do you […]
ME.
underneath im: stupid, a loser, a loner, a cutter, unusual, different, shunned, hated, betrayed, embarrased, failure, sad, unloved, defeated, lonely, DEPRESSED. so strange i can make this seem untrue. i fake my way through life- “fake it til u make it” would that make me a liar? an attention seeker? i dont think so but i dont care what i think.. ha i dont even know who i am cuz i care what u think, i change all the time. just to make you happy. but that will neva happen cuz u will never be ok with me. dont feel bad its not just […]
Severe clinical depression, anxiety disorder.. Cutting, 2 failed attempts. I have felt lost, hopeless, disconnected from life and it’s surroundings. Everything and everyone I’ve ever know has left me alone. I feel so confused. I believe I don’t have purpose anymore and I don’t know how to fix it. Many thoughts of another attempt plague my mind. I’ve had terrible luck with women in my life. I found this site and I knew I needed to get this off my chest. I would like to know if anyone can relate to me .. And if you guys/ girls want to know more about my […]
If you don’t know, The Sunset Limited is a movie, about a suicidal man with two very famous actors in it. Its defiantly worth a watch.
Anyways, I feel like Tommy Lee Jones in that movie. Nobody gets me, except for the people on this site! I’m living in a constant state of agony as I have never felt in my life. As some of you know I tried to hang myself yesterday. I landed on with my feet on the floor the first time I tried due to not calculating the rope position properly after the noose was tightened it left too much space. So […]
Hi. I am unnamed. But I have a past. And a future, I have attempted suicide 4 times by over dosing. I go to two councillors and my friends are supposed to be there for me. But they aren’t. They care more about partying and drinking and I have this. Anyways, I was sexually harassed by my step father. He texted me telling me to send him pictures and that he doesn’t think of me as a step daughter, but more as a hot friend. My mother didn’t do anything about it, she is still with him and is closer than ever with him. I […]
Depression, social anxiety, idk what else. I cut, I’m lost and hopeless, living on the thought that life amuses me a little.. killing myself would mean I don’t get to be “entertained” anymore. Entertained… more like watching a miserable world do it’s thing. I don’t even feel like me, I feel like someone outside of me, watching in. I don’t care to much anymore.. but I hate attention, I hide everything, that’s all I really care about anymore, is getting away. I’ve lost hope, I don’t know about my future, which everyone pressures me on that I should know.. I don’t know, I’m done trying […]
I have OCD , anxiety , depression and partial bipolar. I have homicidal and suicidal thoughts , constantly. Im some what of misanthropy. I can’t see any reason to live anymore. Im kinda just dragging myself threw the days. Fake a smile once in awhile. I use to cutt, I crave cutting every second of the day. Its hard to talk to people, because it’s like no one cares. And I honestly don’t know what todo with myself. I wanna fall asleep tonight and not wake up.
I don’t get how god could save some one from suicide. Seems pretty negligent to let someone who you love get that depressed in the first place. An all powerful loving god would save them from themselves before he saves them from suicide. This god is not all loving. I actually wonder if there is a god, then maybe he enjoys our suffering and pain. A sadistic god would make sense considering the world he created.
I don’t know what to do anymore!! I am so lost and alone! I don’t think my husband loves me anymore, and that just makes it all much worse, than it already is! I’m so angry all the time, but I can’t stop crying! He says he loves me. but for some reason, I can’t believe it, I don’t understand why! I’ve been hurt so much,can’t take it anymore, the pain is unbearable! Somewhere deep down i know it, but I can’t trust it, I can’t trust anyone, never have been able to. He’s the only man that hasn’t given me a reason not to […]
just like always.
Let me tell you a secret,
For a secret is the same as a lie,
It hurts and destroys those who are forced to keep it,
The secret may as well be a lie, because you are ashamed to tell the truth, you hide and hide until you can hide no more.
The truth can make a whole world collapse,
Can cause unnessesary pain and suff ering but perhaps not as much pain as the secret held.
The monsters and demons that firm that make you spiral into darkness with visions thst make you believe that suicide is the only way you can break […]
Just a reminder nbarules is a mor(m)on and tries to make people here feel worse. Hey nba http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5x_-IoeSB-A&feature=related seriously!
I know why a caged bird sings
To get through the moments of pain
To drown out the ache of sorrow
I know why the caged bird smiles
Because it’s dreaming of a better day
While unaware all around it is crumbling
It’s cage is old and the latch is rusted shut
I know why the caged bird dances
To keep rhythm with the notes
To rock the cage unknowingly
To free the latch from its’ hold
I know why the caged bird is silent
The door is open
Something is waiting
A hand reaches out
Seed in the old palm
The bird goes for the bait
It coos […]
Dose anyone else feel like they have so much to say yet you always repeat the same story/feelings?
too happy, too depressed, too tired, and too hyper, so weird i can feel all of that right now. wells i guess its better than complete sadness XD :/ XD :/
Hey, I haven’t been on in awhile (you guys probably haven’t noticed) but I just wanted to say hey. What have you guys been up to? How are you doing? If you want to talk, email me at kenzie.fallenangel33@gmail.com or I have a facebook Kenzie Mack. I’m always here to listen, sometimes you just want someone to listen and try to understand. If you just want to talk, I’m here.
I’m 14 years old. I feel suicidal, but no-one knows that its this bad. They just thing I’m dark and depressing. I have been wanting to commit suicide for so long, but I can’t. Because…
I can’t leave my family behind. I love them, and I don’t even see half of them that much, so any time at all I have with them is rare. I don’t want to leave them wondering and feeling upset.
I’m being selfish, thinking about suicide, and not how my friends or family would feel if I went through with it.
And also… I’m scared. What happens when we die? […]
It’s hard to believe what have I become. There is nothing left but disgraceful rotting remains. It’s sad, I remember I was somebody not so long ago. I’d like to apologize for my presence here. I have a strong feeling I am only contamination for this site. God, I am so dead, so fucked up.
It’s funny not many people ask about my scars. But today someone i worked with saw them and asked. I actually stumbled over my words. I didnt know how to answer. Reading back over that, not funny. But you all know what i mean. Anyway I made some excuse about them being caused by me fallig off a motorbike at my cousins house. Which i do have one scar from. On my thigh. I know she didnt beleive me because of how they are positioned and some are new. And the fact that I told her it was nothing to start off with. Any suggestions […]