I don’t really have a big sob story so I don’t know why I feel the way I do. I just want to disappear. Ease the pressure on my family, keep everyone happy. I get so tired of just being a burden. Nothing seems to help either. Not therapy, drugs, or hosptialzation. Suicide is about the only thing I think of. I make plans and just chicken out. Can’t let anyone know so I’ll just do this instead. Need to run or die. Can’t seem to do either though.

i feel empty. exhausted. so deeply sad.. & mad that nobody i know has the time to care.. despite having felt similar before & me having been there for them.
it is very fucked up.
i still miss the love of my life after 6 years.
but if i did die tomorrow.. i would feel that i had loved & been loved.
now i have ocd/anxiety/depression/phobias/ & what feels like a million more things wrong & a situation that has completely trapped me. i want to scream. i often do.
every time things get a little better.. somehow something else goes wrong & i am […]

I want a way out, simply put, no sugar coating it.
I have an average life, I know there are people worse off, call me selfish, I just want to end it all.
I am 17, 18 in October.
I hate the thoughts if waking up in the morning on weekends. I put on the fake show, pretending to be the happy popular girl in school. (Yeah call me big headed I’ve been called worse 🙂 )
I have above average grades, Honestly never opened a book in my life, pulled three A’s in Higher maths English and ordinary Irish, did transition year, passed it […]

If you are being bullied please kick their ass. My biggest regret is never standing up to a bully. I always said I didn’t because I didnt want to get in trouble at school but that is bullshit the worst that would happen is 5 day suspension oh no :0 not five days off school anything but that. Seriously though I would prefer a little trouble than years of regret

i’m at the end of this stupid fucking road. i wanna die.

I have tried 3 times to use the helium exit bag. The first time I started to hyperventilate and chickened out. Second time I had a leak and had air in the bag. Third time I hyperventilated yet again. So what am I doing wrong? All the instructions say that the body is tricked by using the helium and yet I am hyperventilating like crazy. The other thing is that the instructions say that unconsciousness is found to happen in a mere 5 seconds or so and just a few gulps of helium will do it – that’s simply not the case. So what is […]

The desire of death is always haunting me like a bad memorie . The joy of a end is a longing of my soul. The sound of silence is pleasant music to my mind that I do not own.
The peace of nothing is a craving to strong. If you have the answer I beg you to foretold. As I have tried many a road and a different end I do not hold. Just the desire of my eyes to close.

So as I see that I am proven right in what is going against me. Like in my daily life, no one on the board gives a shit either. I truly believe I don’t really physically exist anymore. I am done here.

One of the things that’s stopping me from killing myself is the fact that I’ll be a corpse which will have to be disposed of. I know it’s stupid, but I hate the thought of being buried, but I also hate the thought of being cremated. I don’t want to be a corpse at all really, I just want to literally disappear into thin air. I’m not sure why this bothers me so much, because I know that my body’s basically just a shell of who I am, but it does. I don’t want to be a corpse and I’m not sure why I care […]

Can anyone relate? Can anyone understand? Am alone?

I am 42, and have battled with success and failure all my life. I am a high school drop out, who has struggled my whole life, but have always held roles in the financial sector primarily mortgage related. A few years ago the industry was totalled with the fall of the economy, and many blame it on mortgage’s and I cannot disqualify this. However I have always walked the line, doing what is right, and what is honest, while watching those around me, become wealthy, and having no concious. Sometime I really regret, being the stand up guy. […]

I’m so sick of pretending of faking smiles crying myself to sleep and im done being alone. sick of living scared of dying. im not afraid of Death im afraid that he will make it painful.

A teenager growing up in a world where he has many friends, he gets good grades, he’s athletic, he likes girls and girls like him, it seems like nothing can go wrong in the world. He loves spending time outside. He loves snowboarding, soccer, basketball, and football. He’s finally met the girl of his dreams and he’s in a relationship with her. He’s in college and he’s loving his freedom. He studies, but not as well as he should. He’s off in his little world, populated by the students of his college, where nothing can touch him from the outside. The only things that harm […]

This song describes my life and how I feel to the exact point. It hurts to see my life in a song and to realize how screwed up my life is and how screwed up I am.

Nobody hears me when I cry, that is when I do cry. Nobody hears, and nobody cares.

When She Cries

~as always no grammar. deal with it.~

Yesterday

i told the two people who i still consider my friends that we were not going to school that afternoon, we were skipping. as usual. we left at lunch and went to the supermarket near our highschool and i bought them some lunch.

i dont eat anymore- i am more skinny than the supermodels our society for some reason looks up to. i dont grow anymore either. i am fifteen but i am about as tall as an eleven or twelve year old. yesterday i ate no breakfast or lunch, and a few mouth-fulls of pasta. this wouldn’t hurt me […]

I give myself until the end of September. If there still isn’t a meaning of this fucking life, I am going to end it! I am going to hang myslef on my bedroom door, at night, on my bag belt! I am going to end this ongoing pain! I have had enough!

Well, my story is much longer, but I don’t feel like writing it all. I have been depressed for 2 years been in mental hopsital twice, I am only 16 (17 next month). A year ago my brother’s girlfriend killed herself she had depression and they met at the hopsital. And then three months later my brother followed. I found him dead in our bathroom. We were really close and, my life was shit enough before he died. I have been in hopsital again for 3 months, been on different pills nothing makes me feel better. My life is just not getting any better. Nothing […]

One of my friends had quite the bad day.

Some ***** from our school showed everyone her tumblr which was quite personal. She had stuff about her self harm and her suicidal thoughts. Now they’re all calling her an attention seeker and she’s so upset she won’t come back to school until Monday.

I feel like I should be doing something to help. I feel like I should be yelling at these dickheads and showing them my wrists to show that people who self harm are not attention seekers as we do our best to hide our cuts.

I want to be useful to her. I want to […]

So I had this plan worked out that this would be my last year. I would take the time to work things out so I could leave on my own terms. I know it sounds dumb. Suicide is supposed to be impulsive in a way; pain building until you can’t take anymore. But I want to make myself into a person worth remembering in a good way first. I know I can’t live much longer, I just don’t want to. I have my up days and my severe depressions and I always come back to the same place – there’s no point in keeping this […]

Why I would

my happiness left me! i dont know why but i got worse i cut again and i dont even know how this happened me suddenly becoming depressed i keep spazzing out in school its scaring the fuck outa my friend he keeps having to seriously slap me to get me to become responsive to him i now just wanna give up life is fucked as ever!