well ive been with this amazin guy for 1 year, 5 months, nd 1 week.. evryday i feel soo grateful for havin him.. nd hez fixed the problems i had wit my family.. he evn helped me thru the pain of the past 15 yrs of physical abuse ive suffered.. nd evrythin is perfect.. my grades culd use a little help.. other than dat, evrythin is perfect. but wen im alone.. all those thoughts of suicide nd alcohol nd drug abuse come rushin thru my head.. nd i feel like im abt to fall over nd jst pass out.. i get light headed nd feel a […]
i hate it when someone has the perfect insult and coincidently i have the perfect comeback but dammit i cant speak fearing whats perfect in my mind will be jacked up words when it leaves my mouth. its like i cant speak though if i wasnt weak i could probably scream it everywhere i went. such a shame when the perfect insult comes the perfect comeback becomes glued shut.
I tried thinking positively, but then I feel passionate about my cousin and guess what? I can’t see her anymore and her mom got into a big arguement with my dad with her brother telling me we might not see each other anymore forever. Freaked me out. I’m worried he’s right. If he is, then I’m done….
I have wanted to resort to suicide for a while, but I’m all talk and no do. Sadly, that means my death is not going to happen. What am I looking forward to? Getting high off weed in a week or so? Then what?
I’ll be getting high alone, trying […]
Ok so I cry every night. I feel weak, more Hurt, angry and alone and night. And I don’t really know why. Anybody have an idea? Night are just tough on me.. I can’t fall asleep without talking to someone or I just have a nightmare… I’m so alone and I feel so pathetic…!
I want to be done with this! Ugh! Why am I so sensitive? People make fun of me and it takes so much energy to hold back the tears till they leave. I can’t take this anymore!
-RawrImaTurtle…
i just cut myself now im bleeding horribly, im in a panic attack, yet i love the blood
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So I havent really thought about my suicide until now. I just feel like I cant be myself anymore because everytime I try to be myself i get judged and people talk shit about me. It always seems like I have to pretend to be this perfect little preppy girl who enjoys life and everything else. But I mean like if i cant be myself then why should i live ? It always seems the killing my self or “going to a better place” would always seem right for me because then I wont have to worry about not being my self or people judging […]
I dont have the energy to get up off the couch, let alone kill myself.
I told someone at work yesterday that I was thinking of suicide and she said why do you keep saying that? dont talk like that. she was the only person i thought i could trust to not freak out.
theres a pack of razors next to me on the couch, i wish i had energy
Why do people care about me? Why do they pay attention to me? Why don’t they just walk by with giving a look at me? Why can’t they just leave me alone to suffer? Why can’t they waste their time on something besides me? Why me? I’m a worthless, stupid person that needs to be left to suffer and die.
I suppose it all started a bit early into this school year, when i entered seventh grade. then i started to ask myself rather- in my opinion- deep questions and begun to become intrigued with the concept of suicide. it wasn’t exactly like ‘ i hate my entire life and want to die’ or ‘ oh, dying sounds fun!’ but really with a simple thought: isn’t it amazing that people can be so terrified of confronting a problem/problems in their lives that they directly face a obstacle that is so feared by society in total? that is how it started but, as my ideas […]
I have a lot of cool people in my life and I’m trying my hardest to avoid drama and stay out of trouble but omg I’m stressed out and I’m not going to kill myself I’m going to have a stroke or a heart attack from all that’s on my plate. I started working every day and now I’m getting controled by an x lover and they have me by my balls and my hands are tied. On this one. I can’t wait tell I get off probation so I can start my life over and be with real people that can’t control […]
my boyfriend dosnt know i still cut , sometimes he asks and my face goes (ºeº) an then i say ” your hot” then i make out wiith him *^ (^.^) ^ Scoreeeeee!*
but i wanna tell him but im nervous help?!
Depression can be such an awful thing. After weeks you finally pick yourself of the ground and BAM you end up in thesame spot again. Constant struggle to reach ‘ happiness’ , really hate this roller coaster ride, it’s like I just can’t be happy no matter how hard I try, every little thing can triger my depression again. Maybe if i cannot fight it, i should at least come to terms with it, accept it and stop trying to win this exausting battle.
I chose not to go out with friends to get drunk by myself… I prefer my own mind to others most of the time. Im just comfortably numb right now, alone with my own thoughts, happy with myself. I dont do this often(get drunk alone) but am enjoying it now… im enjoying the release of my true introvert, the true me. I have always been an introvert but as society demands, I must put on a fake smile now and then.
Are there any other Canadians here?
So I’m back here again… Last few months (half a year? Who keeps count…) I’ve been acting like a bad live in maid for my parents. Mom calls me “Dobby”. Considering the whole “house elf” thing, I’m not sure i appreciate it.
Got a letter from the student loan people. They want to get repaid. Not a big surprise. What do i do now… Stay in limbo, that’s what. I can’t be bothered. I hid the letter under my mattress. It’s funny how it all seems wrapped in cotton. My first reaction was i wanted to die. Then i spent some time cleaning the kitchen […]
Yesterday, I hope you all had a sad Day of Silence Day, which is what i like to call it, just to be annoying and redundant. If you do not know already, the Day of Silence (Day) is for people who were bullied and harrassed due to their homosexuality, so for the whole day, you are not to speak a word, to feel what it is like to not speak your beliefs if you do not already. i’m for gay rights- or really any type of equality- so i did -or attempted to not- to talk all day. but i feel that the Day of […]
Something tells me it’s a bad thing when the only thing that stopped me from attempting suicide the other day was that I couldn’t find the cable I intended to hang myself with. Sometimes, it pays to be too depressed to give a damn about cleaning.
Hiya, folks. ChildOfRagnarok back, still alive and kicking.
Now, you might be a little bit alarmed after the first paragraph. I don’t even remember what it was about, I think it was my friends wanting to do some fun activity normal people enjoy that puts the fear of God in me due to my social awkwardness and insecurity. Before I knew […]
I hate being bullied. I always have this swag like yeah sure what ever you words arent hurting me but they kill me everytime i hear them. Now the people who are nice to me to my face are talking smack about me to my little sister when she is over her friends house! and she wont even defend me she just sits there and nods. like seriously. who can i trust if my own sister wont stand up for me?? i hate when people use me for my smarts and then behind my back they say all these horrible things. spread all of the […]