I don’t usually rant but hey what’s up? Sigh, so someone texts me saying sorry. Most likely one of my “friends” apologizing for calling me whore and other names. I’m looking at it and interested who it is, but at the same time not. Knowing their apology will do shit. They’ve already did their damage. So why apologize? It makes me laugh kinda actually. Like people say ignore it be tough. But it still affects you, then when they realizing. You want to take their head and slam it against a wall shouting- You don’t know anything walk away don’t ever apologize to me ever […]
Please accuse the horrile grammer. For as long as i can remeber ive been alone. im only child and my parents just dont get me. ive alwyas had a close niche group of friends but now ive lost them all. My closest one who ive known since 6th grade no longer wants to have anything to do with me. My guy friends went and became sucessful so i got left in the dust. The girl i like deep down hates me but acts like my friend because i have money and can be occasionally usefull. I just dont want to feel alone and i gave […]
I WANT TO KILL MYSELF BUT I DON’T WANT TO DIE AND I CAN’T TELL ANYONE CUZ I DON’T WANT TO END UP IN THE HOSPITAL AGAIN
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO
So, this is going to be very long, and very jumbled. Very jumbled. Just a warning.
Listen: I was born into a big, messy house on a forested mountain with a wonderful view of the city of San Jose underneath.
This house was veritably filled with the trash of the past two generations that had lived in it. my grandmother had died in that house, and I’m fairly certain I had an uncle that was born there. I don’t really know.
There was a forest outside this house, a beautiful green thing filled with birds and […]
I just spent the past few minutes talking to a chatbot, because I no longer have any humans to talk to. My closest friend decided I was “friendzoning” him and ceased to be my friend a year ago. He was the last of my true friends. Now, I have a partner, but he has always been emotionally distant. He is also having a hard time, and I know he doesn’t want to hear from me. I have been working on ceasing to say anything without practical content at all.
So. I am 27 years old. I have no friends. I believe I will soon lose my […]
It’s been three years since i felt normal. Everything changed when i got depressed.
I thought it will be just for a week or a month but im wrong, its been long years and
im still suffering from this depression. It’s getting more painful everyday, and im
not that stong to fight with this for a long time. I dont want to die, I want to live
and do a lot of things but my depression is stopping me from doing anything. All
my dreams and goals in life fade away. I dont know what I want or who I am anymore.
Im not […]
I’m loosing hearing in my right ear due to something called Meniere’s disease. I haven’t been diagnosed yet but i have had symptoms of this disease for 2 years. I thought they where nothing and I eventually got used to it and ignored it. I treated it like if it was just normal. I would get dizzy and fall over,faint, hear ringing in my ear, get bad headaches, and a weird pressure in my ear. The dizziness was a regular kind of daily thing. The ear problems came 1 or 2 times a month. But when the ear pains would come everything else would get […]
some people doesn’t appreciate life especially me. I’ve been planning to kill myself  since December 10, 2011 but i fail. i took alot of expired paracetamol’s but i didn’t die. my grandmother sent me to a rehabilitation center because i became a paranoid. laughing without any reason and being furious sometimes. they cured me for a short time. after that i still don’t understand why they saved me. i drank those medicines to kill me. anyways im just a 13 year old teen. I’ve never expect that im still going to live. most of the time i get bullied when in class. so i realized […]
I was happy yesterday. However, it was a strange kind of happy. It was a happiness where I was really nothing like myself. The friend I was with remarked that I was being crazier than usual, and I knew that I was.It scared me, because although I felt happy, it wasn’t me in there being happy, if that makes any sense. I felt like something or someone else had taken over my body. I felt out of control and like I said, crazier than usual.
These days my emotions are dramatically heightened- when I am happy I go into this scarily different and kind of manic […]
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i am  18 and live in sri lanka…
well  the whole thing started when i 1st attend to a class,,,there was may friend and there were more then 100 pretty girls..  but the thing is  that there was one looks very special to me, i didn’t think about it at that time but with the miracle of time my mind actually went nuts..actually, i  even didn’t think  in the 1st day that i will be so crazy on her.. but the problem was that i have never ever talk with her but whatsoever she didn’t forget to smile with me every time she sow me in […]
Hey people 🙂
today is such a beautiful day. Sitting at work and waiting patients. Finally sun came to my dark country.
I’m glad by myself – finally i went out if my depression mood. Now it seems funny. It took me 1 month crying and drinking, then 1 month standing up. Its not fair, love shits and lost boyfriend made me act like a dumb. I don’t remember i was crying last time so much 😀 I guess i was missing memories and good time together. He was really great man and will always stay my soulmate.
each relationship teaches me something. This time i […]
April 14, 2012 The only one we will have in our lives. Please try to do something productive or something that makes you feel good. Even if its something very small. Please post if you will at least do something for yourself today. Tomorrow will be april 15, 2012 it will also be the only one we have in our lives so if today you can do something for yourself maybe tomorrow you can do the same. etc. etc. etc.
theyre are so many people in need to past and present people on this line i need to talk to people in need and make new friends email me at jessew1050@yahoo.com or look me up jesse wallis friend mentor big brother or friend whatever you need i will be theyre
I posted a few days ago about my death day being June 1st…well, I think it’s time now. I’m ready. No regrets. (For any of those who read my post earlier, this does not have much to do with that.)
Hopefully, this will be my last post forever. I would just like to tell everyone here “Goodbyeâ€. I know that people post way too many suicide notes here each day, and they all start to blend together after a while.
I would like someone, even if it’s only a few people, to know that this was not a decision made in haste, like so many other teen […]
My name is Dalton. I used to feel like I was dying a little more each and every day. I don’t feel like that anymore, because I’m pretty sure I am already dead. On September 21, 2011, I got tired of trying to be happy and worrying about it all the time. I left work early without saying anything to anyone. I got about a mile from where I worked at the time when I saw an 18 wheeler coming towards me in the other lane. I knew that that was it. I took my seat belt off and jerked the wheel towards the oncoming […]
Even my friends abandon me in the end
fair-weather and clear skies bring us together
Strife and storms bore us apart
When things work out they’re there for me, but
When I’m in need, they flee
I’m too much, I’m a downer, I’m lost
I’m not worth it, I’m unfixable, I’m depressed
Why try to be what I’m not, just to see anothers response
When on the inside I’m just completely done?
I see the world for what it is, my views aren’t distorted
There is no love, no care, only hatred.
And when I say it aloud I draw a crowd of lies about
What is an angel in disguise?
Is it something I am able to feel-
Or to trust for my soul-
To follow of home.
Is it a human?
With warmth as a offering-
And words like a snake-
So it poisons the brain.
Every book has writtened papers-
Of feeling free,
No more worries on my shoulders.
Oh does this angel somber alone?
Or walks in the day-
Like the rest of us.
Noboday ever seems to be home-
In the house welcoming.
So little children-
Run off to alleys,
Learning life the wrong way,.
But will there angel,
Come swoop down-
Hover around there […]
A lit cigarette-
Sits on the table-
Letting out fumes of disgust.
No there is no windows-
Or lights on the ceilings to show-
The yellow painted walls with-
Blood stains.
The air is dusty and unbreathable.
Cupboard doors hang off there hinges-
And look inside.
There is cracked plates-
With gold rims.
Lower we go to the stove-
In between the small cracks,
Is dirt and grim-
That seems to hover onto the counter tops.
The floor is slit into two-
And lies a knife and a spoon.
Closer to the door-
It is dark and tragedy,
Of people seeing the dead.
When it […]
Just need to vent here, because I vowed I’d cut this person out of my life after what happened, so I can’t actually send this to them. Also, I feel like it’d be kinda pointless anyways. Enjoy my hate mail!
*****. ****. WHORE. WHAT THE FUCK? Is this your idea of fun? Getting someone to completely trust you with their darkest secrets and then utterly and completely betray them! You are fucked-up. WHY? I don’t understand. You promised you’d never do this you fucking whore. You are weak and cowardly. You couldn’t even look me in the eye one last time. Am I the only one […]