i cant do away with my feelings wanna die

im scared about what happens wen you die, but we all die eventually anyways,everyone i know has different beliefs,so who knows untill it happens,the more people tell me things get better or not to do it, i want to just do it more,i am gonna drug my self so i dont get the adrenalin and become scared in the middle of ending my shit,i wait till night 3 oclock in the morning is dead perfect

I just feel I’m not worthy of living.

People who live should want to live. They should be happy and should want to accomplish things.

Ive posted about my lists before, that was not really a success. (understatement)

Since Im very chaotic, sigh, I lost my original lists. Which lead to a panic attack caus I cant stand losing things. So I made new ones. And it bothers me really much that I dont know what exactly was on the original lists.. but anyway I’ll just add the things I forgot now later.

I thought I could maybe share the lists this time.

Reasons to die:

I am selfish;
I am ugly. […]

Any boys/men who cuts themselfes.

I’m one of them, and it is a very awkward topic for me to discuss because it is mostly girls who do it.

Thnx for your time

So i just got out of the hospital for overdose about two days ago. Actually it wasnt the hospital it was the er. I spent most of my time there in four point restraints since i kept trying to leave. The only reason i wanted to leave was because i hate being in the crazy section of the er cause thats were the gaurds are and there not so nice. Then they put moved me next to a baby getting a spinal tap in case you dont know what that is its a needle in your spine i still hear the screaming in my […]

Pain…its not the sharp or intense pain that is experienced when first separating the skin. No, it’s the dull, deep, and gnawing pain after cutting  too deep and you’re waiting for the incision to heal. It’s the long week(s) of paranoia and wearing long sleeves in the summer hoping no one will notice or if they do, praying that they don’t call you out. That’s what it has felt like for me this past month…and i am not quite sure what to think about it all….

Ahh… the bitter sweet recognition of failure. Realizing that all you ever were was in reality, nothing at all… Seeing […]

I’ve probably had depression my whole life. It runs in my family, and I was diagnosed at age 13. I am now 18. When I was 13 years old and in the eighth grade, my mom passed away unexpectedly on the morning of Christmas Eve. I began seeing therapists, but it was too soon and I got frustrated and was not getting the help I needed. The very same day I lost my mom, I was forced out of my house by the police. My father, brother, and I had to find somewhere else to live. We moved 5 times between Christmas 2006 and May […]

Do any of us take the advice we give others?

Is the answer in view only from the outside?

My name is Daniel aka Xeeno. I do have an past with “Suicide” and it’s painful to live through. I tried many times to jump off an bright, I tried many times to cut my self, I tried many times to shoot myself, but for some odd reason something in my life through me off. Something wouldn’t let me jump, something wouldn’t let me cut myself, something wouldn’t let me shoot myself. But for some reason now I feel that I shouldn’t live life anymore, I should let life pass by me like the wind, I should let life go, I mean I have no […]

I hate my life. I hate my school. I hate everything that’s been going on. I cut everyday because I hate myself. Nothing helps. I hope I get shot. I hate life. I’m tired of my depression and anxiety. I constantly think about suicide. I need seriouse help. I really want to die

I dont usually cut my wrist cause its hard to hide. Its usually my tummy, legs, or privateish area, sometimes the top of my arms. Whatever its called. Anyway i just had the urge to slice Up. My wrist. So I did. And i never thought about this but this semester I have art. We are making paper machae masks out of chicken wire.. So basically tomorrow im starting the paper machae and Im gonna have to pull up my sleeves. Please help me hide the cuts. Asap!

So…I’m 20 year old girl who is feeling like a loser for her whole life.

I fail at college which my parents and I pay a lot of money for. I just don’t feel like studying. Even when I find the will to do that, it disappears quickly and rarely returns.  I find studying boring and unefficient. I fail at being a college student.

This is just what was been worrying me recently. My whole life is some kind of a sick joke someone got me into and I have the feeling that everyone around me laugh at me behind my back. I’m just miserable.

So I think […]

Im saving money, running away, then killing myself. I’m hoping i get this job first, then save up to at lease 800 and hopefully that’ll be by the end of march. and if i dont have a job by then end of march 31st which is a Saturday and a little bit of money (at lease to get me to a plane ticket) then im still leaving. far away. When i  get there, ill get a hotel and kill myself. Why do all this? Well, I just cant take it here no more, i just want to leave everything and everyone. and When i do […]

hey guys! this is my first post (and hopefully first of many)! if you need any help at all, no matter what your story, i’d love to help! talk to me!!! my ears are open!!! don’t give up! talk to someone first! i’m not a counselor, i’m just an 18 year old kid who found hope! email me!!! PLEASE!!! don’t give up!!

nic2053574@maricopa.edu

PEACE!

HOPE FOR THE HOPELESS

I haven’t been here in a while.
People think im getting better.. Im not.. Its just the same.
If not worse.

I have pills
Pills to take me away.

Who knew Aspirin was so fantastic?

I’m not sure if I don’t want to kill myself because I finally have a better life, for right now, or if I’m just to numb to feel sorry for myself.

For my art class I had to paint something with emotion… It took me about two days to think of something to paint since I’m almost completely emotionless.

In every painting I have it has a heart somewhere incorporated in it. I’m not sure why but I always paint hearts. I guess it’s because I’m always looking for love. I don’t know, I just always feel empty, like I’m missing something. I’ve never had this feeling before, not […]

I’ve been reading articles from this website for a few weeks now and thought i should right something for people to read. I found out about this site when i was researching ways i could kill myself and found an article about exit bags. I suffer from major depression and i don’t wish to live any longer at least in my current situation. Its not that i always feel sad most of time i don’t feel much almost like i’m not here kinda of a lifeless feeling. I’m never really happy and I don’t see the point of living. I kept myself going by thinking when i’m 18 i can move somewhere else where i can be […]

I can’t do this. Why is it so hard to live? I hate living so much but I’m so afraid of what happens after death. I want to die so bad.

I have no clue what I’m doing or how i found this webpage… I just attempted suicide today and I didn’t even realize it… I’m just gunna vent and rant about my life story now…Keep scrolling if you don’t care…which you probably don’t…

Ok…so I’ve been cutting myself for two years. On December 8th, 2011 I cut myself at school and got caught (I know I’m stupid for doing that but I really had to…) And in 2 hours…I was ripped away from everything I knew and put in a mental institute 2 hours away from where I live. I attempted suicide while I was there. […]

Hey there, how are you? I’m new here.  I’m Soulless-dawnkeeper, an 18-year-old girl.

I’m so sorry if I will bore you with my story, I just got to vent. I have read a lot of stories for I think half a year now, but I didn’t have the guts. If you have any comments and/or advise; you are more then welcome.

I’ll start at the age of 7. I had this huge crush on a boy, but he rejected me, over and over. That made a huge scar. I was the dumb-fuck. I was/am terrible at maths and everybody thought I was stupid. When I was 8 […]