You promised me you would always be here for me. You promised you’ll never leave. I’m happy you accidentally showed me the wrong side of you. You made me realizeI’m not in love with anyone, never was. And I’m glad your dumb ass self showed me it. So now, Don’t fucking call or text me now!.
my life seemed perfect up untill i was three.some things you cant forget but the fear and hurt always comes back to visit me. the shit i would do to remember what it feels like to have my mom love me and be dadies little princess, till i started watching her beat my older sisters, she would beeat my oldest sister everyday after school stomp on her in the corner of the bathroom like a bug, pull her pants down and make her shit in a bucket sometimes shed say she was gonna beat the living shit out her just for having her period,when moma started […]
I’m new here so I guess I’ll start with some history. I have three half-blood brothers, and one full-blood brother. I have one half-blood sister and a woman I consider to be my sister, but really isn’t. My parents passed away. My mother when I was two. My dad when I was eight. I was molested when I was nine. I lived with a very sadistic and controlling woman for about four years. I then moved in with my brother, when I was twelve. He taught me how to live, how to love, and how to be a good person. I’m now in college. I’m […]
I hate this, I’m depressed and I k ow it, I talks to my doctor and just because I haven’t wanted to kill myself she doesn’t take it seriously, I’m an outsider, I’m a socially awkward gamer who nobody gives the time of day… I just wish somebody would listen
The woods are lovely, dark and deep
but i have promises to keep
and miles to go before i sleep
and miles to go before i sleep…..                Robert Frost
its getting harder and harder day by day. I just want to go away from this place and live alone with no one to judge me or hurt me. The only person i told about my depression is my boyfriend and it has been over 4 months since when i have told him. But not a single question, not a single flinch in his feelingless heart. He did not even wonder why i am sad sometimes for no apparant reason. […]
People have told me, “Don’t do it, Emma” and “You can talk to me about anything”. But I can’t. I know I’m not alone in this but it always feels like I am. I’ve had people call the Suicide Hotlines on me and I’ve helped other people get through their own depressions but I can never seem to shake the pain, loneliness, jealousy, or depression. I have problems I know I need to fix but I just can’t.
Im 14. My name is Emma and I live in Colorado. When I was three, my mom and dad divorced after my mom knowingly broke my younger brother’s […]
In short, my brother killed himself april of 2011. He was my only brother and he will always be my closest and best friend, a hero of sorts for a little brother if you understand the relationships between siblings. anyway, he was 29 married no children and i was 21. few months after he passed away i was going to shoot myself in the heart with a 12-guage slug to ensure death and hopefully immidietly death would follow. to this day i don’t know what changed my mind, not fear of death but i guess fear for my family’s wellbeing.. but anyway.. i think about him everyday. shortly after his death i became deeply addicted […]
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my best friend justin had gone through a hard time. his parents got divorced then his mom remarried . his stepdad and justin never saw eye to eye justin told me he wasnt even invited to the wedding. im the only person he ever trusted…he also struglled with his gender… he had very poor grades and got in trouble every day . he has a kid like innocence .he had told me how depressed he was. but at 15 everyone thinks there depressed so i supported him and loved him.. he took prescription pills and one day at school had a tick tack bottle filled […]
I’m living a very good life.
I have an amazing wife who is also my very best friend and we explore many things together.
I have a great job that is rock-solid even in a bad economy and I bring home a paycheck that puts me in the 30th percentile of the country.
I have two great kids that I have a positive and sharing relationship with, and I’m very proud of them. They are active in sports, the local Historical Society, are both honor students in AP and Honors classes, and much more.
I have no debt (credit cards, etc), I live in a nice house in a […]
a year ago from today i was actually immensely happy. work was going well for me, had a great girl in my life who i had the best bond in the world with.
months later, all of that would be gone. the girl still comes and goes but she’s made it clear she’s moved on and that i need to accept it or go away.
i just want to find somebody to bond with. just one and i promise to god i won’t ask for anything ever again. i always hear “things get better”.. ok when? i’m already in my mid 30s.. still waiting for […]
i’m tired of a lot.
i feel as if i have no life and no space. my father left us 3 years ago and he hasn’t been there much. he calls rude things and lies just about every day. i told him i dont see him as a father figure.. and he doesn’t really do much to change it.
my baby brother turned 5 yesterday but he has down syndrome. his test this year came out showing that he is in a mind of a 2 year old. and of coarse he still wears diapers, he doesn’t talk yet. exactly like a 1 year you could say. […]
im going to fukin kill myself. i cant do dis shit anymore. im 32, livin wit my sick grandma. n behind in 5 months in rent. i pop pills like candy n do blow liek ders no tomorrew n ther mite not b. ima loser mannn.. death is pretty fuckin cool if yo ask mhe.
I’m so done with life. No one really cares, they just tell me to stop being stupid. My friends found out I was cutting and pretty much shrugged it off. Every year that goes by and I just see a bleak future where I know I’ll never get anything I desire because at ever turn so far I’ve been denied it. I work in a chemistry lab and can easily get cyanide solution of 1mg/ml. I figure 3 ml of this will kill me cold. Think this would work?
I just moved in to a place where I can’t cut or physically harm myself in anyway. As dysfunctional as it seems, I moved in with my ex gf, her boyfriend, and their 4 kids. So on the plus side while i will still think about it, at least now I am in a place where I can’t talk about it, injure myself, or attempt suicide for now at least. Guess there is a silver lining in every cloud.
I really can’t go on like this anymore.
if I could Live for a million days
I’d count up all the ways I could have loved a girl
who’d passed away at day twenty-eight thousand and ten.
with ninety-one generations of grandchildren
I’d remember ninety-one times
of simpler times when
fifteen minutes would pass with the eternity of an hour
when memories were new
and I had nothing
to reflect about.
I just turned 20, I’m a freshman in college studying what I love, I’ve met the girl that I’m pretty sure I’m going to marry, and I want to kill myself. With another year of age comes another year of new responsibilities, and I feel like real life has finally shown itself to me. The last few weeks have been nothing but emotional torture for my girlfriend and I, with issues beyond our control. I’ve let my studies slack (just my general ed’s, I’m fine with my Major studies) and now I’m looking at an F in a mandatory freshman class. Normally this wouldn’t be […]
Love Never Dies…
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Dream within a Dream
Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow–
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All […]