So, I went out into the world today. Crazy, I know. I didn’t even give a shit if I looked like a zombie. I didn’t try to put on a happy face or smile at strangers or laugh needlessly. I was myself. I was my emotionally drained self. I felt like I wasn’t really ‘there’ today. Not like an out-of-body thing, though. Ugh, I don’t know how to explain it. One of the things I did today was return a pair of jeans that were too loose. I now have $28.00 to my name. Yay. I’m going to hold on to that 28 dollars like […]
hi all. i am 38 and i have been a carpenter all of my life. i am also not one of the thinnest men in the world. i am good at what i do, but there is no joy in me. i live in a little country, were its wrong to not be happy. i find no happynes in anything, and my girlfriend has not been touching me at all for over 4 months.. there is no work to be found. i barly can get the things to fit, and i am always outa money. i have tried to end it before, 2 times to […]
I don’t know why but recently I do want to just disappear. Recently I have so much stresss from for finding a new job. Also my wife is not helping at all. She works, but she keeps on pushing me. To a point i just want to end it. Sometimes I just want a divorse and sometime I just want to end my life because of so much stress. I don’t know what I should do. Sometimes I pray that I won’t wakeup in the morning. That my life will end in my sleep. I don’t want to kill myself, because I think its wrong. […]
Im so freaking tired of having to fake my way through life I go to work and have to pretend im fine cuz if anybody there knew the truth ( i hate myself and want to die) they would never trust me again and wouldn’t let em do my job the only thing I have in my life that actually keeps me grounded I fucking hate my life why can’t i be a better person I mean what the hell is wrong with me that when I got frustrated at work today my first thought was to strangle myself and my second was to chop […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=6fmiwujYBmY
i cheated on my boyfriend. and i’ve regretted it ever since. it’s all i think about. and it’s eating me alive.
he likes to bring it up all the time. and it makes me want to die.
the stress is building up inside. and i just want to escape.
i want to fly away. the reaper in the night.
fade. into the blackness.
Well I be feeling sad and mad all the time for no reason. I’t just pop up on me!!!! I want to go back to school but they told me I had to go to alternative school. I really don’t want to !!! I hang around all grown man and Drug dealors. A couple of them tried to have sex with me but I wasn’t shock because I’m use to men doing me like this. I’m so mature for my age that people my age follows me. Well they parents think I’m a bad influence. Well I always hanged with people older then me. […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=KuNQgln6TL0
He is an amazing guy … think of him if you think you are the ‘only one’ in the world having struggles …. and then, remember, ATTITUDE, NOT THEIRS, BUT YOURS matters most …
If you’re ever feeling down.
If you’re in need of a ‘pick me up.’
If you want to start your day right.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_profilepage&v=H8ZuKF3dxCY
Conquer what has not been conquered. That is how you find yourself.
Defeat should not be in your creed….
brb, going to fight a bear! 🙂
I turned 14 on the 3rd
I have been sexually abused around 4-5 times
I recently found out in an empath and can see/feel spirits
I am bisexual
I have a girlfriend
I have forgiven my sexual abusers
I self diagnosed myself with a chronic social anxiety disorder
I have a needle phobia,its pretty bad
My favorite color is any shade of green except normal green 🙂
I am fairly happy
I survived chronic depression without medication or a therapist
I hate my mother
I love mismatched socks
I dress emo
My favorite band at the moment is Botdf
My girlfriend is cheating on me […]
So Im wrapping up my time with the last attempt at therapy (DBT),even did extra time. My last day is in a few days,and I dont have much support afterwards. I thought maybe I had found others (IRL) who felt like me,but now its all falling apart. Everything around me is empty,and I only have one meager trip to give me some light,but then I know its time to go. My birthday is in a couple of weeks,if it werent for this trip I would end it so that I didnt turn a year older.But seriously,after that…nothing has helped,Im still miserable and nothing can make […]
….is what “many” of you are here ….
This has been my brief, but overhwelming experience. I raise my hat off to you …you’re doing well for others, but never forget to do well for yourself too ….
Resilience means to stand up to challenges, because everyone has them in life just different kinds.
If our waking day is made up of 18 hours, be careful what and where you focus the majority of your day. Do not let others poison your mind with their lesser thoughts, but also do not poison your mind (& body) with your own. You are stronger to resist then you think. […]
I just don’t understand how a depressed person could at first want to get better and eventually does start to feel better but then wants to be depressed again. Or how a person wants to be in a psychiatric hospital again, for the third time. I’m very curios as to why I feel this way. I can only come up with two explanations but I’m not sure if they make sense. Well one is I think because I only know myself best when I’m depressed and that’s my “comfort” zone. And two is because at hospitals I get attention and I feel […]
Right now in my life things are not the best. I thought i got over the bullshit and hurtfull things in my life but spending a few days with your family brings it all back [I went on vacation with them for 10 days] and still they haven’t changed i mean yes we all live in the same house but i don’t see them at all because i hate being around them my dad and i never see i to eye and he is always telling me that am a […]
Well I’m the youngest in my house. I’m 13 and everybody else like 2 , 3 , 5 , and 6 years older  then me. My 15 year old sister that was there when I was getting sexually abused keeps taunting me about the sexual abused when I was little  ! She making me feel even more bad about myself. I know I’m doing the wrong stuff like I was about to have sex with a 23 year old man. Well I need to slow down and stop everything I’m doing. Well my mom thinks I try to act like my big sister , with […]
The people at my church tell me all the time that im going to hell if i kill myself i guess thats one reason why i cant go threw with killing myself
Do you leave a suicide note beside you? A delayed email to friends and family? A delayed Tweets perhaps? Something to stop people thinking you’re so “selfish” and explain your problems..