All of my life I was happy. Everything was perfect. Oh sure, people thought I was stupid and weird, but as a kid it never phased me. When I turned twelve, I realized things were changing. Still, I didn’t let it bother me. When I turned 13 my life fell apart. Everything was wrong. I started cutting myself, but I never bled. I was too scared to let it get that far. I was okay for a while. Now I’m 14 and have thought about suicide constantly. I never thought about until recently though. The only person I trusted, I teacher, told me to stop […]

My dad is a sadistic bastard. There are no two ways about it. While I was younger it was always sexual and physical abuse, but now he has taken joy in fucking up my future as well. He always goes through my backpack to throw out my homework and never lets me on the computer to do any research or type up essays. And to make things worse, I’ve been getting sick so I’m already behind on my work, making it nearly impossible to catch up. Now my dad lets me use the wi-fi, but that’s because he already knows it’s too late for me […]

My best friend and I always had a complex yet close intellectual relationship since we met when I was around 4 years old. It’s been almost 20 years since, so you could say that he’s like my brother…much more than any of my actual siblings.

When one fast mind meets another fast mind, things often spiral to unusual heights that aren’t typically seen in one person; in this instance, I am speaking of the abstract. For some time, he was somewhat intellectually dominating…being what seemed like a much more stoic type during my teenage years, while I was a complete mess, screwed up by depression and […]

I am not sure why the CSB report and video about ******** asphyxiation was deleted by moderators.  It was simply general information about the dangers of ******** rich environments.  It (the CSB bulletin) pointed out that unconsciousness can be reached in as little as one to two breaths and a state of coma in about forty seconds.  The video recounted an incident where two people lost there lives in an accident at a plant that had been purged with ********.  It, the video, through the use of recreation, showed just how quickly one succumbs to a ******** rich environment.  General information is all it was. […]

I sat and thought:

*job sucks..nobody cares.

*family sucks.. they don’t understand my job.

*money sucks..never enough.

*love sucks..distance.

*weather sucks..cold&dark.

so i just bought tickets and will go to travel to world for a 3 weeks !i will spend all my money,but i will be happy finally :]]]

Travels brings new brief !

Don’t give up guys :]

Only we are our masters of destiny.

Hello,

For some time now I have been clinically depressed. Just an endless stream of doctors & pills (NO HELP). The only time I am happy I am thinking of ending it all. But I cannot because I have dependents, I am frightened that one day these feeling are going to get the better of me.

Really need to talk to someone in the same boat,  are these feelings a common symptom of depression.

I am a 14 year old girl. I have Bipolar, Depression, and Insomnia. I have wanted to die for years now. Welcome to my life.

The first time I can remember thinking about it was about third grade. I was 8. I wasn’t the popular kid, I wasn’t even close to that. I probably had one or two friends. I am a Wiccan, and when I tell people, I instantly become a target for rude comments. People have told me I am a freak Satan worshiper for that, but thing is, I don’t believe in Satan.
A few years ago, my aunt killed herself. She tried to […]

I’m 12 years old & this is my story.. I don’t care if you read its just ive been waiting for the chance to do this, so here it goes.
I dont know what it is but everything I see , every sound I hear reminds me off you, makes me remember firstly the memory,  I smile for a few seconds then I remember. My mind goes into shock from the overload of I don’t know what to even call it anymore. It goes into shock because it remembers. It remembers the confusion firstly of those times before it had happened where you had said […]

I got into a car accident today, driving through the city on the expressway and a semi truck rear ended my tiny car twice, before driving away.
I’ve been so depressed lately, not to mention I’ve been depressed my whole life. I’m just not sure how much stress I can take. I’m just so tired. I’m tired of everything.
Now I can’t go to sleep without seeing the truck hitting me.
Physically, I’m not injured. But I can’t go to bed without beginning to scream and cry.
This is just another thing on top of all the other boring shit I have to put up […]

First, let me say that I don’t need, want, or give a damn about anything involving religion, hotlines, or life in general. PLEASE just go away if you have nothing better to do than “help” me.

The following is nothing but a rant. Skip to “/rant” if you value your time at all.

I am probably not the most miserable person in the world. I’ve never met the degree of physical torture that many people endure, but does that make me any less entitled to a choice? My life was completely average for the first ten years of my life. I was a kid, I had friends, […]

save me. im trapped inside my own mind. i am constantly being scared into cotastrophizing every givin situation until i trick myself into beliveing that everyone is out to get me. i cant think strat. i get lost. help…

Fuck it then

Someone please help me! I need help please!

I half want to write this – and half, don’t give a darn.

I am an old hag – 45 – married for the second time and sometime in the past few years, “something” has happened and he is now so distant I am gobsmacked.

I have no family or friends and I take antidepressants and all that – doesn’t seem to help.

I had 2 lots of brain surgery a year ago, and he even managed to pick a fight with me on the day I came home. He has no concept of what I went through, and he doesn’t want to know. He doesn’t want to […]

Why am I still here? I want to be dead, but I procrastinate on everything.. I haven’t gotten any of the things I need to commit suicide. I don’t want to live anymore.

All I can dream about is the night I was raped. I was doing fine on anti depressants till they had to take me off of it. It was causing heart problems. Now I’m alone with nothing to help. And my body knows it and reminds me in every way. Possible. I can barely support myslef and son. I’m so distracted and my son gets the effect of it. I lose my temper so easy. I just don’t know how much longer I can hang on… my world keeps getting worse. Not better. I just want to say good bye my son. You deserve better. […]

im 16, as u proly guessed from the title. 6 months ago i tried commiting suicide. i felt so alone, i had several “friends” and only one even realized anything was wrong. she was amazng, and i confided everything in her, the only problem is she now lives on the other side of the world. she is very popular n her new home, plus the giant time dfference, so it is very hard to talk to her anymore. the rest of my friends only use me. i am athiest in a very catholic family and nobody knows, nobody knows about my suicide atempt or my sadness […]

I am 30 yo male. I had probably only one suicide attempt that really counts, since that was when I ended up in a hospital. The other times I just sat home or something, noose around my neck, but never actually did anything. I am getting therapy and was on antidepressants for a long time, but I simply do not think that there is any help out there for me. Even though I believe that life is basically about attitude I just can’t bring myself round to looking at the bright side. I feel broken. Broken beyond repair. Or maybe even misshapen, malformed… I feel […]

Crona’s Poem.

By Crona.

A poem…

It’ll be dim…

All I’ve known is the dark,

It swallows me like a shark.

Am I the predator or the prey,

I’ll never find out with each passing day.

I wish I was never born,

My heart is torn.

I’ve never known love,

So what’s the point of a dove?

They try to be my friends,

But I seem to scatter them like hens.

They cant understand my pain,

I might as well be slain.

I have never known happiness,

Because of my sappiness.

I’ve been treated so wrong,

For so very long.

I’m a slow dying flower,

In the frost killing hour.

I’m in the darkness,

Being swallowed by the sadness and weakness.

The others can’t reach me,

The blackness is an […]

These days seem to go faster and faster. As if it is on fast-forward. sick of people, sick of life, sick of everything! When i commit suicide, i want my song to play. It’s special and has meaning. has been my favorite since i was little. If only these people who think their lives are perfect and have time for no one else could just see what helping someone in pain is. So they could be my favorite too…