I Feel So Weird, Like A Zombie Or Something, I Finally Got The Courage, And Finally Told Someone Everything, Well Mostly Everything, There Are SOme Things Im Keeping To The Grave. Im Getting The Help I Need, But I Regret It, Im Sitting Waiting For The CAMHS(Child And Adolecent Mental Health Service) Crisis Team, And All I Can Think Is What The F**k Have I Done This For, Im Never Gunna Have The Chance Again, So Im Gunna Have To Go Thorugh All Of The Councelling Again, I Guess Its A Good Thing, Because I Know That Death Isn’t Really What I Deep Down Want, But It […]
Bare with me here, I have no idea how to explain this. I have tried to explain it to close friends and family and they all think they know how to help and start giving me all this attention then I feel more like crap. I honestly think this has more to do with depresstion. I think I’m legitimately insane. This isn’t me talking out of my a** either. I one second am happy as can be then the next I’m in tears then the next, oh god, I’m at the virge of killing my self. I have these horrible horrible thoughts about how I’m […]
My father jumped to his death when he was 39. I didn’t understand it then. I mean he still had half his life to live. How could he just leave us like that?
Now I’m 39 and I still have half my life to live and I finally understand.
I got married later in life. I never felt the need to attach myself to a person. Sure I dated but I never met anyone who I could love unconditionally. Then I met my husband. I can honestly say he has the most beautiful heart I have ever known. For two years I knew happiness with him. I […]
My boyfriend became suicidal when I was dating him. He thought that without his grandfather, he would never be happy again. That one small thing, like losing his grandpa made him suicidal. But to him, it was not small. He started cutting himself. He started burning himself. He chased me down the street with a bottle and then attempted to hang himself on a tree outside his house. Of course, I couldn’t watch him do it. The next week it got worse, he blacked out and started going crazy. He had two knives and was on top of his house, looking down at me and […]
I hate highschool, can”t be around any of my friends anymore. They bother me beyond belief and they don’t understand that I’m trying to do something for myself, I’m trying to be better I don’t want these thoughts anymore and they don’t seem to understand that I’m tired of always seeing them and being left out. People make me feel terrible about myself, constantly degrading my life, what am I supposed to do? My “best friend” is honestly the worst person I know. She thinks only of herself and never considers my feelings or burdens. It sucks and I have no idea what to do along […]
I really don’t.
It just feels like life is getting too hard.
It’s too hard to please other people.
It’s too hard to please myself.
I can’t do anything right.
No one wants me here.
It’s like they hate me.
And I can’t say I blame them.
I hate me too.
I would always turn my feelings off when I hit this point.
But now that doesn’t work.
Burning doesn’t work.
Nothing does.
But I don’t want to quit.
I’m still here. Somewhere.
Right?
Okay, so I have to admit something. I talk big, I act tough, but deep down, I just want to die.
I don’t know why I feel like this. I have friends, life is good. it just feels so empty, so meaningless. I don’t understand. I’m not depressed, I’m not taking any medications, and I have plenty of sunlight. I just…. I don’t get it.
If you feel this way, or maybe know how to help, any advice would be… well, better than this.
I cant tell my parents, so dont say that.
so mothers abondoned me 2 times now dads dead grandparents treat em liek shti no fmaily that cares only like 2 close friends and what do i really have i shold jsut end it maybe i am a slefish fuck but i dont care anymore i cnat take this life ive done everything i wana o and lfie is miserable and i hate it so i should end it hell it would probaly help someone elses life
God is healing my wounds. A while back at the beginning of last month, my heart was heavy, and I felt this big burden on top of it. I felt like I was lost, and that I needed to seek relief immediately. I felt like I was trapped inside a box, and the only way out was to forfeit my life. I felt like I had to end it. I did not know where to go or who to turn.
A few years ago, a friend gave me a bible. I didn’t think much of it, and I just put it somewhere on my desk. I […]
i post on there, the police are gonna read this and my past posts and contact my parents and tell them that i think about suicide???
I use to think they were my best friends.. and no matter what they did , no matter how bad it hurt me .. they didnt mean it.. but i was stupid and they knew my weakeness .. i forgave everyone .. no matter what they did .. cause i had a big heart and i thought everyone could change.
Let me give you a run down of everything thats happened up till this point? alright . Also if you have yet to read my other post “my story” i reccomend you do so you can get a feel for my situation.
Brittany
-put me in the hospital […]
feeling out. far away.
it cant be the whole world thats upside down, it must be me.
i cant live like normal people. im beautiful outside and ugly inside;
i feel it when i get in contact with people, im ugly inside.
i dont like letting people in my life but then i wonder whats the point
of living if i cant let people in my life. And with those already in my life
i cant be genuine because i know how they want me to be;
they want me to smile, they want me to come back on earth but im floating
in the air, i cant get a grip on […]
I’ve heard this a few times from people now. “Suicide is the most selfish thing you can do.” It always comes from non-suicidal people, though. My sister popped that infamous line during my phone conversation with her last night, when I finally told her what I’d done Friday night.
I don’t see it. I see all of the miserable things here that drive people to suicide, and nobody cared when those people were being selfless or self-sacrificing, or just trying to please them. If it’s selfish, then it appears to be the one time in their existence when they thought of themselves. That’s not selfishness, that’s […]
i do not feel te need to live anymore, at the moment i have no place to go. i can stay where i am now februari and i don’t have a place to go. the only thing would be going home (im 16) but i do not want to. why the hell do people life? the whole life is shit! maybe if you would have someone to live for , but i do not. so why i can’t i just get run over by a car or something? it feels like i am living a dream, like this is all not real. i am really […]
so i came on this website looking for help.
someone to talk to
and now ive pushed him away.
ive confused him
he probably the ONLY person that knows how to make me happy and make me value my life.
nothing but compliments.
and ive ruined it once again.
i have trouble openning up.
 i dont mean to make you feel as though you cant help me or that your not making me smile or i dont want to talk to you.
you make everything s much easier and i needed that.
im sorry but if i dont have you to talk to – i will go.
leave forever.
cease existing.
i love you
I had a cuts all over my ugly body
you just stare.
I had a knife dripping with blood
you were motionless.
I lay my knife against my neck
you stare at my action.
I added more and more pressure
but you didn’t say stop.
I felt blood drip down as i stare at you
you couldn’t stop me.
You didn’t stop me.
I fell back as i look at the nothingness
all i heard was your footsteps
as you were walking away.
What is the point of life? Is it to try to get the best car, house, job, etc? If so then I want no part of it. I do not wish to have the best anything. I do not constantly want to be in competition with others in order to get something.
I’m thinking carbon monoxide poisoning is the way to go. Does a generator in a small room produce enough carbon monoxide to die quickly?
That is all I can think; sooner or later I will end up with my life. I usually have these periods of time where my life seems to be ok, where I feel capable, but that ends up being just an illusion.
I am a 23 year old transgender man. This is in fact the only part of my life that makes me feel proud: the “accomplishments I have gone through to be who I am” Yet, Life is not going well, it never has been.
I will end up with my own life sooner or later that is for sure. There are things in […]
I just want to know who else like me is out there.