So I doubt many of you remember when I first got here, there’s only one of you who is still alive. Here’s a snippet of my story, like you actually care :P. As I’ve said before I’ve been depressed for a long time but it never really hit me until the 9th grade. That’s when I found SP. That’s when it sort of started. I had googled suicide for whatever reason and ended up here. It took a few months before I actually started an account. After that I started venting, searching for good methods, and cutting/burning. See the thing is that I sorta kept […]
I am a women am 27 years old.. My fiance was 2 hot and now his 2 cold..
Our relationship was amazing.. And we had amazing time 2gzer.. Even if we don’t do sex we talk about it.. If not when his beside me he was hugging me and kissing me.. Now he changed 2 much.. I know he loves me and when i say u don’t love and i wanna brock up he become crazy and he din’t want 2.. And when i tell him that he is 2 cold he say am so angry cz my work stoped and all the problems in […]
I really do think I marry Satan. My husband for 6 years give me nothing but heartaches and pains. He calls me names, any names you can think about. Horrible, horrible names. He blames me for everything that don’t go on his way. He blames me for anything bad happens in our house, in our life. I tried to fight him back but I am always a weakling, I always lost, I always get hurts. I think he is Satan disguise as a man. I want to run but I have nowhere to go and I couldn’t leave our 2 young kids with him. […]
This will be the one and only time I visit this site, or post anything. You may comment, obviously, but I will never see your replies. This site makes me too sad to visit again.
I had a friend commit suicide two years ago yesterday, October 12th, 2009. That is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, because it is so senseless to kill yourself. Especially at such a young age, he was only 25. I know life is rough. I have thought dying would be so much easier, yet I would never commit suicide. I am happy, I am in a committed relationship, and […]
I can’t plan my death i think the only way for me to have the courage to do it , would have to be spontaneous.
The plan, the waiting….. just gives me more time, just gives me more time to psych myself out.
I have to take my chances, that jumping in front of a train ,car, hanging myself from a tree
will end me. completely.
This is where and when I say 58 years, it wasn’t worth it.
Before my mom knew that I cut,
Since I was in the bathroom or my room for so long
She thought I was taking naked pictures of myself & some other stuff
She checked my phone and my faacebook
Believe it or not mom, but I don’t send naked pictures of myself
Not like you do
here goes another pathetic rant.
blah blah blah.
I like(d) Â this guy, hes really cute.
I’ve only known him a few weeks, its like one of them little kid crushes where they just run up and say “i like you” just like what I did in Kindergarten. My friend went to talk to him and ask how he felt about me and blah blah blah, and he asked “Do you like Mary?” he said as a friend yeah, I wasn’t crushed or anything, I’ve only liked him a few weeks, it will take a lot more to crush me. He said too much has […]
it’s soon friday.. the last party ever! Iam now like taking stuff down from my walls and stuff so my mom wont have to do this. (of those of you that dont know, I really just planed the perfect suicide plan) I just cant take life anymore. Im tired of being derpessed and sad all the fucking time! so i though about saturday, but Im gonna stay at my friend house this weekend so i guess I gonna do it sunday. Wow, im really doing it. This actually feels a little like I no longer got worries, and I do everything I want. but its […]
I am old. Quite old. I need a help.
Please contact me Mocaw.W[at]gmail.com
how many of you grew up where they taught the Nazi war on life? people suffered people went through horror. how many of you grew up hearing about god. one life creating other lives. if the horror of Nazi Germany in this made life our present day horrors. how many of you grew where Hinduism and Buddhism where taught. all things have life life passes throughout forever. a made life horror and the life continuing to pass forever. 10 years of digression will conquer your curiosity to the point of questioning existence. the possibility of the worst happening followed by the question of what that […]
You guys where absolutely right about my friends depression triggering my own. There was this feeling I would get where I would be okay with going home and killing myself. I got that feeling today, I havent felt this way since June. My friend is like a sponge, he just absorbs all the happiness out of me. For example today I was having a particularly slow day, it was only my second class of the day and it felt like the last (fourth, classes are 1 hour 45minutes.) and I was complaining about it when he came up to me and suck it up and […]
Gripping the blade
Press
Press against my skin
Glide
Glide & slicing
Pain runs throug my vains, emotionally, yet physically ok
Red crimson
Dotting
Dotting out from my self inflicted incision
A smile
A smile find its way to my face
Adrenaline
My pacing heart
One of the beat feeling in this sick world
A drugged out zombie
with the chemicals
coursing through my veins
chemical smiles
and chemical laughs
the fears and pain
all chemical too
It may all be fake
but at least its not real
what are you gonna do if you have a week to switch body with a person who is the total opposite of you?
If anybody needs to talk, just loney or needs to vent. please feel free to email me at thelightinthedarknes@hotmail.com.
i am a trained crysis counciler. i was depressed for years and nearly killed myself twice. I have been where you been. there is a way back.
It took me along time to get better, but i DID get better.
So yeah, ill help anyone who wants it. email me anytime.
and if you havent signed this pettion then please do. it takes 20 seconds/ literaly. no strings or spam i swear. its for illness awareness.
http://www.gopetition.com/petitions/dysautonomia-awareness.html
if you need help email me anytime.
Peace. 🙂
Today you guys deserve to smile sad or not O: you guys deserve it. Even if you didnt do anything today i know you really need it. You are all beautiful dont you disagree its a compliment and ya need it. So today smile cause everyone on here has a beautiful one Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
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My body has been a source of my pain, but I never thought it would be the reason I’m alive.
I do not bleed. My life is out of control and in a horrible cycle. I work to get money, to pay for gas, to go to work, to not eat, to feel like I am somebody, so I can go to work and fake a smile.
Why can’t my life end easily? Apparently when other people can just look at something sharp and be bleeding, I need to drag the blade over my skin over and over and over just to get ANYTHING. I always thought […]
Okay so, does anyone here believe in 2012? if so, what do you think is gonna happen?
i think that, if there solar storm thing doesn’t happen, i think there’s gonna be a flood from the south and/or north pole
To My Sweetheart,
I know sometimes we fight a lot. Sometimes, I don’t listen as well as I should. Sometimes, I wish I just knew what you were thinking so I could know how to fix things. But, more than anything, I need you to remember just how much I love you. I fell in love with you about nine months ago, and I never thought you would be mine. And when you did, I almost converted just to thank someone for giving me the greatest creation ever imaginable. You’re so amazing, and I want you to know that you can tell me anything in the […]