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Boys=Trouble

  June 30th, 2010 by TessaHurts

So me nd my bf got into a fight this afternoon nd i thought to myself someone kill me nd i tell him in every fight nd break up my lifes shit without him but i can never seem to keep him happy i nvr no what the hell to do im always hurtin him or myself nd he told me bout this place so im givin it a try but im 101% sure this thing wont help me one bit! but its for the relationship….

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im ready

  June 30th, 2010 by iAmAlOnE

Today was great and I know it will probably ne the last one of these for a long time Im debating going out with at least one good day

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So tired

  June 30th, 2010 by rollergirl1234

I’m new to this site. My name is Hannah. I’m a severe self-harmer. I cut, burn, hit, anything to feel pain. I’ve been hospitalized 3 times because of it. I’ve also been hospalized for Bulimia Nevosa, which I’ve been suffering from for 2 years. I have Bipolar-depression, GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), acrophobia, and PTSD. I’ve been having a hard time lately. Schools ou, which means nothing can distract me from my life. My addictions. My “drugs”. It seems like everything is spinning out of control. Emotions turning left and right and left again. I’m keeping secret after secret after secret. I’m lying about everything. My …

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Just one story about one girl.

  June 30th, 2010 by Kitto

Hi, I have never really been any good at expressing myself in writing so I am sorry if this passage does not make much sense.

When I was younger, around 12 years old, I was sexually abused by a man of the age of 22 at the time, I was young and naive, He was a friend of mine and sometimes I used to help out in his workplace, Due to family experiences in my childhood I had to grow up at a very very young age and look after myself, and also my body matured at a very young age, by the age of 11 my …

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No Words Describe

  June 30th, 2010 by ReachingTheEnd

Ok, so here goes, this is an understanding of myself, my ideals, my beliefs, etc.

We live in a world of Finite Energy & and Infinitely Expanding Economy.

We have surpassed peak oil resources, and are on a decline. Yet the politicians in this world think our economy can still grow…it can’t not without OIL. You can run cars on hydrogen, but they are made from OIL, the machines used to make cares need oil, the people who fix the machines, well there cars need oil. It is all connected. So how can I fix this for myself?

SELF – SUSTAINING

What is so wrong with communities locally …

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…..cant do nething right

  June 30th, 2010 by brokenanscared

ugh i cant nething right at all n im tired of ppl telling me that i wanna kill myself so bad but i love my lil girl so much n she loves me to, id miss her a lot, an id miss my bf a lot to theyre the only ppl n reason y im still her, so i think im gonna go back to cutting myself again……im tired of everything but the two ppl that matter the world to me

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Three Days

  June 30th, 2010 by Anna

Did anyone here read my very first post? I haven’t been here for many months, so some may recall. My very first post says that I have three more days to live.

But I need someone today to tell me that they have known my story for all this time, and that life is worth living. Tell me why life is worth living, because I need to make my emotion to live overwhelm the logic in dying. And don’t be general and philosophical please, I’ve had enough replies telling me that the greater good exists. Tell me why I should live, not why I should lie …

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i can’t do this anymore.

  June 30th, 2010 by tallibee

Everytime I have a moment of happiness, a moment of peace, it is taken from me.

I was in love with a friend who I only knew for a short amount of time, but above that he was someone who I let in behind the masks. Of course he broke my heart. I don’t know what I expected. No one wants a worthless screw up like me…. no one wants a girl who is ugly either.

and I dont just mean on the outside. Inside I’m ugly. I’m filled with such venom. Such hatred. for everything. for everyone, but mostly for myself. I hate when people say …

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What about those who love you?

  June 30th, 2010 by Elliem

I’m not sure where to start, I’m not very good in expressing myself in paper. I found this website today after thinking about suicide yesterday. It’s good to know that there are others out there who have similar thoughts. I don’t think I ever was serious about committing suicide, because I don’t want to hurt myself, but especially I don’t want to hurt my family: my mom, my sisters, my grandma, my nieces and a nephew, and my husband. I don’t want them to think that death is an easy way out. When I get depressed, I try to remember how much they care for …

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i hate it here. i hate that i sound cliche, i just hate myself…

  June 30th, 2010 by iAmAlOnE

i really dont know when i lost all controll of my life.. whats worse is my wife (trying to help) keeps telling me you have alot to look foward to.. or youll get through this… but im so tired of “getting through” things… i dont think i have it in me any more. whats worse is i havent really always been like this. but i am now and i cant make it stop.. the last few days i have ben extremely distant and truley contemplating giving up and just getting the task at hand done… but ill be the first to admitt im scared… but …

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The Choice

  June 30th, 2010 by Violet Blake

“It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.”

I’m DEATHLY afraid. (no pun intended)

I’ve talked about wanting to die, needing to die, trying to die, but I’m afraid to die.

It’s not the actual dying part, it’s the after that is so terrifying. I don’t know if I believe in God, I haven’t since I was 8 yrs. old, so what happens when you die? Do you go to heaven, to hell, some sort of limbo place? Or is it just blackness, just an infinite place of obscure darkness where you are bound to …

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My Thoughts

  June 29th, 2010 by sweetserenity

I posted “My Life” yesterday. Well… to be fair I posted it a few hours ago. Since then I have done nothing but think and think and think… so now I feel the urge to write again.

Today I have NO energy. I’ve never felt this numb. It is part of depression… and it is awful! I miss the days I was a hyper little thing when I was a child. I feel like I am in complete isolation. Trapped in this emotional whirlpool.. and nobody knows it but me. I’ve pretty much self-diagnosed myself with depression.

I try putting myself in a more optimistic state of …

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ugh.

  June 29th, 2010 by anonymous

I hate having to lie to everyone just so I won’t get sent away. It’s getting ridiculous and I’m tired of it. The anti depressant meds make me super suicidal but I can’t tell anyone that because if I feel suicidal then they think I’m going to do it so I have to go to mental hospitals and get locked up in a small room and be watched 24/7 so I don’t hurt myself. And I can’t stop taking the meds because my mom makes me take them each morning and watches me do it too.

I haven’t cut in a while and its getting really …

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build me up

  June 29th, 2010 by anonymous

i could sit here and say how i fake being happy to impress people, but i gave up on that. my old friends say they’re “sick” of me being depressed. well guess what so called friends…im sick of it too bitches. i dont wanna feel like this, i dont wanna feel at all. just shoot me please. the day i get a hold of a gun i promise thats what im gunna do. i have thought of becoming a police officer and lying to everyone just so i can get my hands on one. wish me luck

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  June 29th, 2010 by magp1001

It’s GOT to STOP!!

No more picking on me
No more fighting with me
No more of this where I do everything right and watch it fail anyway
No more putting me in the worst possible position
No more of this “You always LOSE!”
NO MORE!!

I don’t want your damn pity
I don’t want your sympathy
I want life to cooperate with me!
I want what most people take for granted!

It’s going to stop. If the only way to make it stop is for me to hang, then that’s how it will be. It’s no big loss to the world, because I’m never going to succeed at anything, anyway.

It’s going to stop!

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My Life

  June 29th, 2010 by sweetserenity

Okay… so. I guess all my life I’ve been unhappy. I’ve always been the quiet kid, the one who just gets on with it. I’m now 18… since I was 13 I’ve always thought to myself, in the back of my mind: ‘one day I will kill myself.’

This is because I guess I am a naturally unhappy person. I’m happy when with my best friend/boy friend (he’s both)… but only when we are in our own little world. I love him but I love him so much it hurts and he is all I have to hang on to, and the slightest thing he does …

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A deeper meaning

  June 29th, 2010 by Daniel21

I have suffered from schizophrenia for as long as i can remember. First it started off with hearing a voice scream my name so loud i thought my eardrums would burst. Then it slowly progressed to visual hallucinations, i started to see shadowy masses that were in the shape of a person. Then a few months ago i began to actually feel hallucinations touch my arm. A few weeks ago i began to see faces of people that i dont recognize. And just today i have began seeing inanimate objects move. I’m not really frightened by the hallucinations themselves, but its what they bring with …

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BPD, Isolation, Help

  June 29th, 2010 by z

Hello, all. I’m back to write again.

So I reached out and found some resources. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder earlier this year.

I had hallucinations as a child that established my black and white thinking. I never knew what the hallucinations meant, until recently. It all makes sense now. Somehow my brain got hard-wired to think in black and white. (Maybe someone gave me LSD as a child. The hallucinations were so clear and vivid and lasting that I have never been able to forget anything contained in the hallucinations.) And then

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Mrs. Hudson’s Story

  June 29th, 2010 by Violet Blake

I met Mrs. Hudson because of Jimmy. I’d seen her house a dozen times with boards covering the windows and the paint slowly but surely fading away, and I had thought that it was just some old house that no one wanted anymore.

I was wrong.

Jimmy and I were walking down the sidewalk past the high school where he’d just been attending class all day and we’d decided we were going to take a stroll for a little while and just have a nice chat alone.

“Hey Jimmy, why hasn’t anyone bought that house or at least torn it down?” I asked, gesturing up the hill to …

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*READ* Dont Do It

  June 29th, 2010 by GodsHelper

Many people have killed themselves due to depression. Depression can eat you alive, I know what its like being made fun of. Im made fun of because im Asian. What about you? Share your stories in the comment box. I know that every human has potential and can be saved in a heartbeat. Ima pray for anyone who needs it. Think about your parents, imagine the pain you’ll put on them if you kill yourself. If you dont have parents live life to its fullest and meet new people. Travel the world, beauty can change someone real quick. Of youre being bullied tell on them, …

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