How is anyone to say that suicide is wrong? At the moment (2011), I am 18 years old. I have been causing myself pain since I was four. I would bite myself until I would bleed, or do other related things. First time i tried killing myself was in the THIRD grade. That means I knew from an early age I hated life. Abusive fathers, dead brother, sadistic mother who enjoyed manipulating people including her own daughter (being me), rape victim… There are very few things I can say have honestly made me happy, and they didn’t last long. I have tried everything. Therapy, medications, opening […]
ughhh iknew he wuld try 2 mess up me n my gfz relationship..hez tryna mess it up but it wnt wrkin bcuz he a dumbass friend..itrusted him n ithought he waz my friend but wat a lie that waz..icant b hz friend no more hez jzt a player n idnt wana b friendz wit some1 that makez up liez n tryz 2 start shit 4 me n my gf.But our me n my gf ignore watevr he sayz or doez cuz at the end of the day me n her r still happy 🙂
Fuck me. I lost all of the notes on my iphone from the past 3ish months because of the stupid fucking ios5 update. I wrote a lot of things that are extremely important to me. My sister texted me asking for lyrics or poems about my dead friend because she wants to write a play for school. I thought “awesome, I have so much stuff, and I secretely really do want to share it”. But then I go to look and it’s gone and I feel lost. Jesus christ this is terrible. I don’t know what to do. I just feel so god damn stupid. […]
I tried many years ago to commit suicide and obviously it was unsuccessful. Since then, I have lived and experienced more memories. Some good, but mostly bad. In fact, recently they have been some of the worst. Now, as I wake up everyday I wonder why didn’t it work those years ago. Everyday I fantasize about it and feel a deep pain my chest and am unable to breathe. Sometimes I’m eating dinner and I avoid eye contact with my family so they can’t see the tears stream down my face. And I pray everyday that tomorrow doesn’t come. But I know it will. And […]
Hi, I am a twenty something male
I have family friends who don’t want to hang out deal with me at all.
What happens when we push our support away from us due to the constant need or dependence on them? Then what? My Wife told me today she was sick of being my support…
Maybe it’s time to go…
from the time I was 13 till 18 I wanted to die. The desire to kill myself was stronger at other times than at others. I was always lonely and hated myself. But I embraced who I was with all my quirks and eccentricities and decided not to care how others saw me. It did get better. I’m not fully happy and I occasionally do get lonely, but I am better. I like waking up in the morning. Stick around, we haven’t even begun to live yet. It will get better. And you are worth liking, […]
Believe or not,
but you’re beautiful, just the way you are â¤
If you need help going through anything, I’m here for you, I’ve got your back, and
I will be a friend to you 🙂
Believe, I know how it feels to be alone, and have no one to talk to ):
It’s a horrible feeling.
Email me @ xrawritsmelx3x@aim.com
Why why must it be so cold? Why couldnt it be that nice fall weather i enjoy so much of. I am finally alone and now what? I could be hanging myself right now. I want it to be a nice warm day when they find my body hanging from the tree. Not a cold depressing fall when it is about to rain. Mother nature has screw me once again.
Dear Love,
I know I just found you and I am enjoying every single minute. But I just have one favor to ask of you: If you ever seem to doubt our relationship and fall out of love, can you tell me? I’ve been alone my whole life and I know that this may not last for the rest of it, so you’re leaving would not make a huge impact; it would just veer me back to the road I’ve been traveling.
Don’t be surprised if you see me unconscious on the floor, or hanging from the ceiling. That is where I was headed in the first […]
lying there in my coffin at the viewing the only ones there are celebrating my death. about to be put in the crematory to become ashes. a form of a new body i’ll take on. have a nice death. – knuckle-pierce
My parents have canceled Internet here, so I will not be able to talk with you guys anymore. The only thing that made my days a bit happy was watch and read things on internet.
Now I have nothing.
I have no more reason to stay.
I’ll commit suicide soon, so… farewell
Just another day on planet Earth. I’m at work as usual, late this morning because I neglected to turn the ringer on for my alarm. Had to get my “roommate” to drive me to the GO station. He’s been on me recently about using the space heater to get my room toasty so I paid him $100 in utilities this morning. I’m going to use the heater again and he’s still going to give me guff and I’m going to want to move out.
I wish I had more of a backbone but I wasn’t raised that way. I’m paying him for the hydro that I’m […]
Do you need help?
Do you want help?
Because I have two ears to listen, shoulders you can lean on.
I’m not here to judge anyone.
I’m not asking for anything.
I just want you to know that you’re not alone in this.
So if you want to talk,
Email me at ; filamagnus@gmail.com
I just want someone to put an end to this meaninglessness. I am so tired of being nothing more than a waste of space…
I woke up today at 3 am. My phone decided it’s on silent, and has no alarms, but will go off anyway. I laid in bed for a good two hours. Then, I rolled over and laid there some more. My brother came downstairs, but I pretended to be asleep because I didn’t want to try and talk to him. After another twenty minutes, I got up to get dressed. Barely upstairs for a minute before my mom gets pissed. Apparently when she said today worked for her to take me for a haircut, she meant Thursday. Excuse me for being confused at that. Now, […]
I’m not sure if any one reads this stuff. I did notice there were not many comments on posts. But it feels like it would be good to let go. So here goes.
I really messed myself up. Gave myself cancer, a bad liver, weak kidneys, etc. I have been living in hell for two years battling this. I just don’t think I can any more. I want to stop fighting. Give in. let go. I want to seperate from this mortal machine that can house such pain and sorrow.
I don’t know if giving up qualifies as suicide, so i’m not sure I should be here. […]
I really wonder why I just don’t have the drive to take everything, get the hell out of this shitty apartment and just go giving away everything to anyone I see needing it, no matter how little I have left. In a day or two I’d have nothing but the clothes on me. There never is any shortage of people worse off than one no matter what one’s state happens to be. In less than a month it would eventually kill me.
Short of preventing/provoking a nuclear attack this is the best of all possible deaths.
Could be grounds for a new mental disorder.
St Francis […]
I’m a 24 year old guy, currently an undergrad student at Simon Fraser University in Vancouver, British Columbia. I’m reasonably good looking, can be very sociable, in good shape…basically, I have superficially no reason to want to commit suicide. I have suffered from depression ever since I was 11 years old. I dropped out of high school in grade 11, sat at home playing video games for a few years, then smartened up, tried to fight back, and eventually got into this university, which I absolutely hate. Worst fucking place ever.
But the thing is I hate myself, and my life. I can’t focus on anything. […]
I’m not fully suicidal. Hell, I’m not sure if I really belong here. All I know is I’m in pain. about six years ago I got suicidal. But eventually I got over it. then about 3 years ago, it came back, but I again weathered the storm, and was fine. A little over a year ago I had to move away from my friends, and everything I had work to build up in my life. I slowly got better. I’ve been in this new place, across the country from where I was, and it seems like all I know is pain now. I have no […]