does anyone have any specific films or tv shows or music they watch that go with their feelings, or like how they would like things to be, like at the moment i’m watching frequency, which i like cause it makes me feel, maybe, just maybe, i could change the shit thats happened, and make things better.
She’s too beautiful for words.
She doesn’t believe the compliments.
She deserves better than some guy with a lip ring that treats her badly.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
You have the right to.. And you were put on this planet for a reason.
Please stay ok babe. :’)
Dedicated to Broken.
I’d like to believe that things are getting better but they aren’t. I’d like to believe that things will change but they simply won’t. I keep dreaming that I have friends and that people will actually want me for once. Instead I have people who pretend to like me because they don’t have a fricken back bone to admit they don’t like me. Or they just ignore me, like that’s any better.
I’m so fucking tired of pleasing people.
Put on a smile no one cares how you really feel. If you’re not happy you don’t belong. You know that quiet fat girl over there sitting by herself? She’s […]
what if tomorrow I woke up and I was loved … what if tomorrow I woke up and all this was just a terrible terrible nightmare …. what if my childhood was filled with toys and happiness, instead of bruises and fear …. what if I chose a husband who loved me, instead of one who fit my version of what life is … what if I had parents who weren’t addicts and who blame me for not taking care of them properly and who still still still are like a cancer in my life … What if …. Man, I would sleep for a […]
i’m always planning for the worst
i signed my will right after birth
i got my eulogy rehersed
Why cant i not be left alone? Why is my name being call out every five seconds? There is other people in the fucking house you know. I cant even sleep anymore without my name being call. Ugh im going to go insane. It makes me sad and mad to even have this name. Makes me less of a person and more of a slave.:/ I cant wait to kill myself so everything is left alone without me. At least i get to sleep for once. At least i could be left alone out of this world. v- v
My teacher said this today: “If you’re having a down day you can’t just wish to be seven again, you can’t wish it all away. You have to learn to adapt”
It made me think “*****.”
I’ve never had strong feelings for someone like I did with this one person; however, we never met. Apparently this means nothing to some people. Anyway; today I learned that he’d been more suicidal than I originally expected (with a history of attempts). I’m frustrated because my love couldn’t reach him -which only proves to me that love is bullshit; it cannot exceed the limits of distance, and it cannot heal broken hearts. I usually don’t bother myself with this kind of issue as it usually is just a matter of brain chemistry… but it’s making me feel uncomfortable.
I want to see the blood
I want to feel the pain
I’m trekking through the mud
I’ve slowly gone insane
And now I just don’t care
It’s crowding in my brain
I’m ripping out my hair
I’m drowning in the pain
My heart has turned to ice
My body is all numb
You think that I’m so nice
But honey you’re just dumb
I feel I’m in a cube
Boxed in from every side
You say it’s a bad mood
So I’ll just go and hide
I peek out from my hole
The darkness keeps me in
The thoughts, they take their toll
There’s no way that I can win
The days are dragging by
The end is creeping near
I’ll leave it with a sigh…
One […]
Anna my friend i certanitly hope you are ok. Please do not go through what you said you were gonna do PLEASE i beg of you. Im worried about you,      Â
I cant help ur lonliness but im always availiable. if u dnt want to talk just give me a sign ur ok. Please. Im not sleepn til i get some sign your ok.
Brandon(Nihilism00)
@ 34 I may not belong here
The voices are screaming. I don’t know what I did wrong. Probably everything. I have to scream just to think over them. They keep getting louder and louder. Why do they do that to me? Stop yelling. Stop. Just stop. What kind of trick is this? Please stop. I hate it.
STOP.
That’s it, I’m finished.
I’m going to hang myself.
I’ll drink and I’ll do drugs before
I’ll even cut myself like I do everyday.
But I swear, I’m gone this time.
5th time lucky I guess.
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we’re considering
escape from this world
and we’ve waited for so long
for this moment to come
was so anxious to be together
together in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
This world is a cruel place
and we’re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you
Won’t you die tonight […]
Love is just a word
Not even a feeling because if it were things would be different I hate people who say that your not alone. Apparently we are if we have to talk online about the way we feel. My heart has turned to coal the one I thought I loved well maybe he’ll see me in the afterlife if there is such a thing. I feel as if I’ve already died I am already transparent nobody would ever miss me.
my heart hurts I sit in bed and think for hours why the hell does it hAve to be me why? There’s nothing that seems to take away the pain and just thinking about him makes me realize he’ll never be mine. Why go through that suffering why do it when I can make it stop why do I deserve to be this? Between the shit at home and school I just can’t do it.
There’s a lady who’s sure all that glitters is gold
And she’s buying the stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she’s buying the stairway to heaven.
There’s a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
‘Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there’s a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There’s a feeling I get when I look to […]
I’m 15 years old and have finally decided that after all my older posts, all my rants, I’m gonna commit suicide.
Not sure yet and how yet tho, thts the only prob.
I’m not going to bore you people with my story, seeing as its not all that exciting or saddening, lets just say tht I have my reasons.
If I did decide to live I would be turning 16 on the 19th of September, I would have become a pyschologist and a writer on the side, I would’ve had about 3-4 kids maybe even adopt some and wouldn’ve tried having the best life I could.
But tht’s the […]
There has been a lot of debate about wheter to use the Helium or ********, and wheter the Helium sold at party balloon time cabisters is oure or not.
A much bigger issue in the long run is going to be the bag. If the bag is too tight, it will burst before brain death. If it is too lose, it will not hold well enough, and can even fall off. How to make it truly ideal?
I have gotten to a point in my life where I don’t think it is worth living anymore. Very few things make me happy anymore. I feel I am in more mental pain then other wise and if I am in more pain than I am not what is the use. I haven’t felt really happy in months. I have realized to day that I will never be able to have a long term relationship with anyone. Including family or friends. If I am around anyone for too long things eventually go poorly. I’m pretty much a loner. I don’t have a friend in the […]