i look up towards the full moon
how so bright that it shines in the dark night
i really will miss you when i go away soon
you brought happiness to my soul without light
not realy good but an honest attempt at least
Cast out, like yesterday’s trash
There’s no hope left, for you to grasp
Living this life, full of contempt
The powers that be, labeled you exempt
Your body, ready to collapse
There’s no time now, for you to relax
The world left you cold and rejected
Your soul cast away and neglected,
And they all denied,
The things you felt inside
Now’s your chance, to wake them up
It’s your turn now, to fill the cup
All eyes on you, as you race for the exit
The pain inside constantly resurrected
Let them know your pain, let them hear your voice
The emptiness, that left […]
If i want to commit suicide
I want to be successful
I want you to know
what i am going through.
I wish i knew
what im going through.
I may seem happy at first
but later i would be sad or depress.
I dont want people
to be sympthic
I want help
I want to bash my head
against the wall
untill i pass out.
I want you to know
that i am in pain
that i am crying in shame.
Am i a terrible person.
Could i possible find a way
to put my life to an end.
If i want to commited […]
I am not trying to harm anyone.
When I say some things, it’s not that I’m trying to upset you.
I’m just trying to help- the way that people didn’t help me.
I’m sorry.
If you don’t want me around
Just tell me
I’ll leave
Because I don’t want to harm anyone
I don’t want to hurt anyone
If you don’t like me
If you don’t need me
I can just go
This is almost the end for me anyway
I just wanted to help someone out before they ended up like me
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
fuk ill try to write it again…..
can anyone help me grow a pair… i want to die so bad but i ran out of balls…. i got the exit bag system all ready, but id rather sleep and dream… wont it be just the same except i dont have to wake up… every time i wake up im cranky becuase im not alseep dreaming where no1 can bother me.
so in short, how do i get more strength to follow throu????
in summary im a 26 yr old male, who has wanted to die since primary school, i used to write poems about death and dispear, my […]
how come my post is blank?
I wasn’t going to post this one, but I am in the hope that vmy19 is still around and it somehow helps.
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I feel so empty deep inside,
I guess there’s nothing left to hide.
Nothing left of me to give,
no reason left for me to live.
Until someone takes me by the hand,
upon my feet, they help me stand.
They show me that they really care
and I know they’re always there.
They stay with me past the dawn
and with their help I can go on.
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thanks for the cyberspace
My Goodbye
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Looking for answers
I joined this site
And in the darkness
I found some light
I must thank you
For all you’ve done
Your kind words
Were like the sun
They warmed my heart
They let me grow
They gave me strength
When I felt low
You offered your help
You gave good advice
You listened so well
You were all so nice
But all my problems-
They were still there
I could not solve them
They were too much to bear
And so in the morning
When I would awake
I’d see no future-
No path to take
I am so scared
Of what awaits
Will I see fire?
How many times have each of you tried to end it? Don’t answer if you don’t want to, I was just wondering if my 32 attempts were more or less than most.
If you’re in a bad mood, and don’t want to stay that way, here are some simple tips to get you in a better mood.
1) Listen to some fast-paced music. The lyrics don’t have to mean anything serious, my current cheer-up song is a reggae song about ice cream made in space.
2) Watch something funny on TV or on youtube. If there was a show that you liked as a kid, search it on youtube!! (My favorite is Phineas and Ferb- it’s just so strange)
3) Eat something sweet. Usually something sweet helps your mood,
4) Look up some funny jokes or quotes. […]
If you haven’t noticed, I write a lot of poetry. I’ve written
Happy poems
Sad Poems
Suicidal Poems
Anime- Related Poems
Love Poems
Fighting Poems
Religious Poems
I decided to take all of my recent poetry and turn it into an anthology. Does anyone know of a good publisher? Thank you!!
I have no voice.
Its as if when I move my mouth to speak, no sound comes out,
And that everyone turns away so they can’t read my lips.
I’m just like another dull star in endless space.
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I’m invisable.
I’m nothing.
A no one.
Gone.
A un-important.
Can’t I just be taken away?
And actually be fucking gone.
shes a pretty singer but her songs have a twist, her lyrics are written about the works that have been done on her wrists
….i wish i had someone to talk to…does anyone live in va?
I am in so much pain right now. My back hurts. Some mystries pain hit my lung out of no where and now i cant breath. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. Its like my throat is closing up. I have a killer headache again and its not pretty. Ugh nothing but pain today and i thought it was going to be a pretty decent day but i guess i was wrong.
The first time it was more of a half assed attempt, I truely wanted to die and tried to suffocate myself. I tried with everything I had but I panicked in the end. I’m buying a lot of generic drugs hoping it’ll numb out the pain when I slash my wrist completely open. I hope that I die from the blood loss…I really don’t have any better ideas and I don’t know if I even have enough willpower to harm myself like that. I don’t think it’s necessarily the fear of death that might prevent me from doing so, but the fear from the physical […]
I don’t want to do so many things anymore…
Don’t wanna live
Don’t wanna die
Don’t wanna wake up
From my tumultuous sleep
I don’t want to keep going anymore
I don’t want to keep fighting
I don’t want to cry
I don’t want to breathe
I don’t want to let people break my heart anymore
I don’t want to live in this nightmare
I don’t want to change
I don’t want to look in the mirror
I don’t want to even look at the sky
I don’t want to move from my place at my computer
Where I type poetry
For you to read
I don’t want to see anything else but words on my screen
I don’t want to hear anything […]
I remember when I was little…
When even though things were tough,
I was… happy
What the heck happened to me?
When did everything change and become so dark?
What caused me to hate myself
And not want to even look at myself in the mirror
When did I start wanting to kill myself?
I just want to be the person I used to be
Who wasn’t afraid to look in the mirror
Who liked who she was because she was unique
And didn’t look at herself as a freak
I don’t feel like a human anymore
I’m almost like a side show freak
It doesn’t even matter what I think
I don’t matter to anyone
For years i have been suffering with anxiety specifically GAD for years now. I used to throw up in pubs constantly. Would never go out on a date because I would feel trapped, where as if I am on my own am I free to sneak off and go home at any point. I panic when there is nothing to panic about. But with all that I was happy as can be when the anxiety wasn’t attacking. But now I have been suffering so long I have lost my mind, I have no idea whats going on in my head, I could just scream for […]