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Recently around last year, my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend, got her “pregnant” so she says… but then he chose me, and she mysteriously had a miscarriage.. he lied, badly to me, he mentally and emotionally abused me during that time. It affected me so bad.. I’ve always had problems with depression before but this was a terrible new low.. it’s been over 9 months since that happen.. we’re still together. But I changed, something snapped in my head, I’m paranoid. aside from that is just a story to share, I feel like I’ve fallen into a relapse I was “managing”. No one […]

I just walked to the chippy, by myself, by choice.

That’s a huge accomplishment for me.

When you were young & your heart was a open book you used to say let & let live you know you did. you know you did You know you did. But in this ever changing world that we live in. Give it a try live & let die

What do you consider the worst feeling in the world? Personally, I would say loneliness. I have a friend who thinks anger is the worst, though I disagree–I would prefer anger over loneliness, or exhaustion, or even numbness.

But, what would you say is the worst emotion to deal with?

 

 So now I’m really broken.

One of my ex’s/best friends is almost dead, but he’s still clinging to life on life support.

I realize I still kinda like him.

But then I have two other guys that like me, one of them is his foster brother.

I’m aware I probably sound like a conceided ***** but honestly,

not this many guys have liked me before, I have shown a picture of myself on one of my older posts,

and I’m told I’m attractive even though I personally don’t think I am. I’m gonna add a picture for those of you to see.

I’m also very aware I shouldn’t be advertising myself but […]

Comforting myself with the illusion

That I could ever make a difference.

Trying to write myself a lullaby of

Self-proclaimed self-importance.

Fuck it.

Officially migrated into my room. The living room wasn’t as safe as I thought. Now my mom has a habit of opening the living room door and standing there demanding and critisising. 🙂

Oh well, my rooms good enough, don’t watch TV anymore anyway. I live on my laptop.

god i dont know what to do anymore. i try so hard to make everyone happy but it seems like the only person i can make happy is hailey wow that not a big accomplishment at all she 2 i can smile at her and shes happy but my sisters mad at me so i cant see hailey for awhile. i try my best to make good grades and be the best person i can be i try to be happy and pull myself from depression but it just not working i cant even stand to look at myself anymore im just so disgusted. im […]

Hello.
I’m coping with depression.  I started to see someone about it and I’m currently waiting to see her today.  I feel like things are pretty much impossible.  Me being my usual pessimistic self believes that I will not find happiness.  I have someone who really loves me, but that doesn’t seem to be enough.  I used to think that maybe if I had someone who loves me I would feel a little better about myself and about my life.

This is a question for all of you.

If your friend is a cutter, and so are you, would it be best to: let your friend cut and if they need some more blades, give them some, or try to get your friend to stop even though you have the slightest idea that they will stop..??

I keep seeing the attack over and over in my head.

It was just supposed to be a normal walk home. She had done it over and over before without anything going wrong, but this time something did go wrong, VERY WRONG.

She was almost home, I bet she could see out front door, was humming one of her favorite tunes maybe. Eliza has always been the type to randomly sing out words she makes up on her own, she kept telling me she wanted to be like me someday, write stories and poems and change the world.  I don’t doubt she could’ve done it.

That’s when the […]

It’s the question I always end up asking myself when I’m feeling this way: What would it take – what would you have to have, what would have to happen, what about you or your life would have to change – to make you want to be present in your life again, at least to the extent that you wouldn’t think about checking out? I’m not talking something grand and glorious (winning the lottery, discovering your “true purpose in life,” finding your soulmate, etc.), or what you would need to make you truly happy forever and ever, but rather the minimum thing it would take […]

You bring me so low, and then you raise me 10 million miles into the sky, and then you let me fall. Fall back down harder and faster. It hurts, and I cant do it. Eventually, I’ll run when you try to raise me up. It only leads to more heartache.

Burnt myself again. Cryed.

Relapseing.

I don’t care. I want it all to end. Tired, so tired.

Ema Hathaway should still be signing out this year. I hope.

How come I can see your whole life story and tell when you’re are lieing in your eyes,

But you can’t see my one emotion or tell when I’m lieing in mine?

I don’t know what to do anymore, I seriously need help. I can’t stop cutting, it’s all I ever think about even when I think of everything else it always comes back to my razor.
Things are so shit right now, the men who tried to groom me for so long are finally free and out of prison. One lives in my road, I’m so scared I don’t know what to do. I know they’re gonna come back for me. They promised this before they went inside. What do I do? :'(
So much shit is happening right now, I know others have it so much […]

seriously there is no point in me livin.

im always a garbage to whom all i loved

i dont know what to do with this

im addicted to drugs

nobody really wants me everyone think im lost

that made me like this

nothing is going in the right way

nothing will surely go for me in th e right way.

 i dont know what to do

so tired of everybody and everything….nothing I do seems to be right and everything I do seems to be wrong….I’m tired of trying….tired of failing….tired of pulling  myself back up only to be knocked down again….why try? am I stupid or just hard headed? I’m afraid it’s because I still cling to hope that maybe things will get better….and hope is a dangerous thing…it’s what keeps you getting you hurt time and time again….it’s what makes you get back up instead of staying down like an intelligent person….

This past month or so I’ve been trying to move past suicide and I was succeeding but like what’s been happening for the past year my past just keeps on coming back like a big black cloud and it gets worse every time to deal with.

All I’ve done all my life is the wrong thing and I now see no matter what I do I can’t win.

I just don’t want to do this any more and that suicide is truly the only way out from this mental pain.