Why did you leave me

you plucked the last light
that shone life for me
dimmed my last
glimmer of hope

YOu cast me into the deepest of
shadows
the coldest of pits

YOu veiled my days with darkness
and bind my life with gloom
and despair

when you left you took
the very essence of my spirit
with you.
the meaning of my existence

you shattered my dreams and
thrust me into an eternal
nightmare

You placed a curse on me
to walk the earth in torment
to search for that which could not be found anymore
for love that was unreachable
for the one precious thing
that I could […]

Hi everyone.  I’m sort of new to this site and I was recently contacted by Suicideistheonlyway97.  I noticed she was recently in the hospital after a suicide attempt, and she told me yesterday that she would try again today.  I have been trying to reach her and I can’t, so I was wondering if anyone has heard from her or if anyone who has her email could try to get to her.  She’s only 13 🙁

It’s Christmas again. And what have you done? Another year wasted. A new one still to come.

32 years. I can remember the past dozen. Some were ok. Everything that was fun is just a bitter memory of the past. With an unlikelyhood that things will get better. So I’m hiding in my room again. Like a god-damn teenager, but I can no longer blame it on hormones. Now it’s just *me*.

I’m educated, rich enough and slightly underweight. Not particularly attractive. My family is kind and mildly successful without being conceited.

“I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship”

Noone has contacted me […]

i used to look forward to this day for weeks. i used to get excited and be over caring and friendly (because your meant to at christmas i guess) but what was it all worth, if now christmas feels like just another day in the sad lonely life of a teenager.

now that all those good christmas’ are dead and gone, all that they have achieved is giving me a memory, and great memory, and a memory that makes this christmas so much worse.

they say every cloud has a silver lining. but what if i dont want the fucking silver lining or the cloud. cant i […]

hey everyone its me again i have improved. i know myself better now but the problem is it now seems  since i am satified with myself i find that i am not with others. no one understands me. they think im simple and just meander threw life. but the fact is i am intellecual. i think about almost everything life, love etc.. i am a 19 year old single guy in an area with bitches for girls and tools for guys. if anyone wants to talk my email is bftdodge2500@gmail.com i can use a different person to talk to.

Do you remember when you were a kid and the idea of Santa driving a sleigh through the sky around the entire world through only one night being pulled by nothing but flying reindeer made your eyes light up with wonder?

I do, because it was the only time during the whole year when my mind could focus on something other then the fact that my childhood had been ruined by a rapist; it was the only time where I still believed magic existed.

Every year it was the same, I would stay up as late as I could just waiting to hear Santa’s sleigh up on […]

It’s funny that despite of all shitty earthly Life’s struggles, observing of how humans still always trying their best to uplift their short life’s moods and atmosphere surrounding the Christmas season and celebrating upcoming new year in their life.

It’s funny of how despite all the damn shitty Life struggles, humans still try to gather around together with their family, or friends,…..even here online in this blue site, everyone is still communicating with each other. It might even means a lot, even though it’s just a very simple, small thing (just like the wise saying: “Life’s happiness & worth often can be found in the very […]

It’s been raining hard for the past few nights and Its actually been Uplifting. It’s like I want to run outside & Scream to the top of my lungs, Until they Burst with all the Feelings Ive been having lately.  Feelings Of Entrapment, Rage and Hurt. I want to explode, I want to rupture sometimes U know?, Disappear… ….into  wht? Nothingness… Disapper into…. Another Person? Another Life? Another Damn Family? i’m not sure.  I’m tried of being Treated Like a little Fucking Kid, When Clearly, I’m a Mature Young Adult. I Don’t want to be treated in such  way of Disrespect, and Annoyance.

But It got me thinking….. Why am I […]

i dont know why i do this
i just know i cant stop
the rush is exilirating
and makes alive.
watching drop by drop slip out of my skin
atleast i know tht part of me is free
and if i for once get the nerve to cut deep enought
i wont be unhapy, for i shall be gone

i don’t want to die because i will miss the people i love, the problem is that they wouldn’t miss me. i wonder if they will care once im dead.

im 48 years  old and want to die soon hope to find a good way to end my life soon

How can I bandage a 4 inch cut thats diaganol across my stomache? i need to know cause the blood flow refuses to stop.

I STILL NED HELP FOR MY ORGANIZATION TO STOP SUICIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF INTRESTED PLEASE CONTACT @ rosealcorn@live.com . NEED A LOT OF HELP STILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i trieded putting a bag on my head and dieing that way but i chickened out cus it hurt. i know alot of u have plans to go i just want u to share. i cant get a gun so thats out and i dont no how to tie a hangmans knot thing so thats out i cant get helium. i have scars on my wrist im not afraid to cut them is that my only option? please someone share and help me

imagine being trapped in
a nightmare
and the is only one way to escape
just one parmanent solution
you hate the pain
yet you are not sure
of what lies beyond the nightmare
you are somewhat afraid of the unknown
you get used to the anguish
Everything becomes hopeless
the only hope is leaving the nightmare
and every day
you wish to find the strength
and the courage to do it.

I’m at my very end now. I have not cared about my life for quite some time, and in not caring I let my finances slip. I voluntarily quit my job because I just didn’t care. I lived off of loans from family for months knowing the money would be used up. I half-heartedly looked for work to “continue” but just stopped caring. The money got lower, and the unpaid bills started to stack up. I’ve been sued by one credit card company for non payment. My utility bill in my apartment was past due and the power to put out. I have missed two […]

My dreams consume me. I can’t sleep at all during the night hours but it kills me to stay awake the rest of the time so I sleep. It’s a gauranteed thing that when I sleep I’ll dream at least one dream, if not four dreams. I don’t wake up until late afternoon every time because its almost mandatory that I fnd out what happens to me in the end. I know I do this because I’m depressed. I sleep all day and eat the rest of the time I’m up or I do school work if I’m having a non-drowsy day. I just dont […]

this voice in my head. I dont know whether to believe it or to deny it and act like i dont hear her. But when I do that she screams, and wails, and make me feel pain all around my head. but when i listen to her, she makes my day go to shit. just ruins it, everything in my life that i have ever heard bad about me, your ugly, your a whore, your a fail. she screams. my dad told me last night that i was fucking stupid. coming from my dad(the only person i look up to and have emtionally in the […]

Well, I don’t know what to do anymore. I constantly have thoughts of suicide but I won’t do it. Right now, I literally have no life. I recently graduated from high school. I’ve been trying to look for job for months but no luck, I’ve always hated school and don’t really want to go to college. I have no money, all I do is stay at home all day, the only way I can do that is because I’m under my parents roof. I really can’t go out and do much especially with no money and I hardly have any friends. And the friends I […]

okay so im fucked up and no one wants me. ((hugs)) love u all. bye