I’m still here and it hurts…

Its been about four days since she told me, and its been hell for me. I haven’t eaten anything, and all ive done was just sit around and waste away. Every time I looked in the mirror, I saw nothing. Every time I looked into my own eyes, I saw nothing. I felt nothing, so basically was just a walking zombie and that feeling is too familiar to me. All I ever wanted out of this life is love because I haven’t felt that from anyone since i was a kid. It’s sad how I’ve perfected the art of shutting myself down and blocking out […]

30 each of Ibuprofen 600MG and Oxycodone 5MG-325MG, combined with 45 Temezepan 15MG…any experts outs there know?

 

i may be the most pathetic creature to consume precious air.

some of you are young people, and my heart goes out to you. i understand despair, depression, mental anguish, self-loathing.  people can ridicule you (or me), asking how can we bemoan life when there are people in the world are struggling just to keep a roof over their heads. i NEVER forget how lucky i am, materialistically speaking. but internal pain, of the soul –  is simply horrible.

im in my 40s now, for pete’s sake. and still suffering. my parents always told me how ugly and useless i was when i was a kid. my older […]

i feel lost , lonely, worthless, and like attempting suicide. but i want help.

Ok…I have been trying to kill myself via ligature strangulation for several months now and I have been having serious problems. I have a rope that I loop around my neck, then I tie a knot in the rope, insert a pen into the knot and turn the pen to tighten the rope. I do this for several turns to the point that I can’t turn the pen anymore (it reaches the point where the rope is cutting into my neck)…but unfortunately I don’t seem to pass out from this. I sit there for a long time and the blood pressure just […]

Problem.

The town I live in isn’t that small, in fact it’s one of the biggest towns around where I live and when I first moved here there was absolutely nothing around. No buildings, no houses, no schools, just a giant water tank with the towns all appropriate name: NOWHERE.

I’m not kidding you, that’s really my towns name. Nowhere, Arizona.

It’s a nice town, at first I didn’t like it very much. I thought my mother was just using that town as an excuse to drag me out into the middle of the desert and get rid of my body after she had done away with me. I […]

im 13 and wanna commit suicide i just wanna talk could someone pleaze talk to me my email is misnesha97@comcast.net you are greatly appreciated.

GOING UP2 DOWN IS A FREAK (NUT) AND NOT SUICDAL JUST GET’S OFF ON THIS AND IS WHAT HE SAY’S IS BULLSHIT. FREAK.

it all started when my cousin ruined my rep in grade 8. everyone turned against me and took atvantage of me that i was nice. on graduation day not even a single person talked me and said that they will miss me n stuff. i didn’t take it to seriously. my family moved up north, and alot further from where i used to live. in grade nine it was a rough patch for me because i didn’t know any one. i almost became goth. then in grade 10, to express my feelings to let go of some stress, i wrote in a diary. i wrote […]

I lost my Dear wife just over two years ago at the age of 54. We had planned everything together for our later life but this is not to be. I have come to the end and cannot go any further. I see no point on my own, I want no one else apart from my Dear wife.

mhm … don’t read this if your a dumb shitfuck and don’t bother asking why …

my life is a shitfuck … my dad kicked me out a few days ago and iam at a cafe at the moment …

my mom is a whore so i can’t move with her i guess .. i don’t have any real friends ..

no1 would sit down and just listen to what i have to say about my life .. i lost my sister .. she died ,

she was the only person that would actually listen to me . mhmm … no money no job no family

no friends .. i lost my […]

Many people can’t give enough excuse superficially for themselves to leave someone, and while they don’t have the heart or capability to mend the relationship, in order not to be blamed as the cruel one to propose a break-up, they choose to open themselves to chances (or to flirt, or to end, or to die).
If any new fish got reeled in, then the excuse would be, not me initiating just me being approached.
And it’s just YOU letting me to fall in those openings of opportunities.

So who’s to blame ?
Everyone. And also not anyone.
It’s a relationship not handling well by both parties […]

I have the helium party tanks and the hood. My question which I have asked before is what happens when the helium runs out. For example. I bought a tank and turned it on full. The helium came out pretty quick and I was firstly unsure if the helium would blow off the hood which I had read in another site?  However I was also wondering because the gas ran out within minutes. So I was wondering if it would be equally effective if the gas was released more slowly? i.e dont turn the nozzle all the way round.  Would this still keep the required […]

My aut had got me and my brother out of school early. We had pulled up to my other aunts house and thare we tons of cars thare. Not knowing I went inside and they were all crying. My aunt sherry hD explains it like this: um yesterday afternoon your dad has comettied suicide. My brother instantly broke down I didn’t believe it until it hit me right in the face. He’s gone. She continued today we couldn’t find him and he was a forensic sicentest so the had a tracking device in his phone and they found him by the missippi river. He […]

My girlfriend told me she cheated on me yesterday, and that was the worst thing I’ve ever felt in my life. I went up to her job to talk to her about it as soon as she told me, but that didn’t help at all. All I could do was wait for her to get off so I spent that time wandering around town aimlessly and sitting behind BJ’s slicing my arm to ribbons. I told myself I wouldn’t fall back into those old habits, but it’s like when you have nowhere else to turn to all you can do is that, and i […]

I do not think I will kill myself, at least not until I am much older, or perhaps death-sentenced to a concentration camp. Simply, I do not wish to die. I do, however often wish I was never born. These two wishes are not at all the same. First, suicide seems rude somehow. A former schoolmate of mine once asked, “What could be more selfish than killing yourself?” I remember thinking to myself, “Well, nothing, I suppose.” In a way, he was right. Sure, I was rather cynical by nature, and I believed that most human acts – if not all – preserved or otherwise […]

Tonight is another lonely night for me. Ma Sleeping on Couch. Me Disgusted with myself and feeling sick all over again. Sick of myself, the way I continue to live my life.  I’m sick of My  appearance, My attitude, My feeling of overwhelming stress and the feeling of what path to walk down. I am stuck at a crossroad, Of who I want to be and who I’m meant to be.  I am Not feeling suicidal at the moment, like many other moments, but Is life worth living if you aren’t happy or feeling  fulfillment? Why am I not happy? I want to be normal. Normal seems like a word […]