Every day I wake up thinking that this day will better than the last, but it doesn’t work that way. Every day is the same crap. Hoping that someone will hire me, but it doesn’t work like that in today’s world. You have to wait and wait and wait hoping for someone to hire when you know they won’t. I have always wondered why interviewers want a hand shake after an interview. They always say they will give a call when they really don’t. To me right there, that is backstabbing. They always act so happy to see you, but never call if you have […]
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24 Years
I’m 24 years old. I have a bachelor degree. I can’t find a job. I live with my parents. Everyday I feel like they don’t want me at home. Their home. I don’t feel like it is my home anymore so I spend all the time in my room trying not to disturb them. When my mother was pregnant of me she took a overdose of pills not caring about the baby. My dad didn’t want me to be born and the doctors said I was going to have serious health problems because of the overdose. So it was better to abort me they said. However I was born. […]
My greatest fear when thinking about taking my own life is the family I have with me and that care for me. I’m so lucky to have both my parents together still, and that would do anything for me. I also have a sister, brother in law, and two nieces whom all of I adore. I’m 24 years old and I feel like I’ve never experienced a normal life. I’m gay,and I also have other problems that make me self conscious of my appearance so I hate being in public or any places with many people, so I cant go to gay bars or any […]
When I came back from my adventures, I noticed several things. First, is that my dreams are over. Second, is that I can no longer connect with realities, be it people or environment. Third, is the realization of the harshness of the world we are living in. And lastly, is the realization how powerless my self is.
Realizing the dream world is over, I struggled to return to reality. But I noticed that I have no such reality to return to. Before, I’ve never even think about the future, I just lived for the moment, believing that one day I would get involved and drowned in […]
I see people on here postinq poems and sonqs.Well here’s Houston’s finest.Not your type of sonq,ssssoooo.Listen to what there actually sayinq.
Z-ro My Story
Yo man,what’s up Ro man you trippinq son.Put the qun down dawq It ain’t even worth all that man let’s talk about […]
Let me say first that though my life has been very hard for a woman that has only lived in this world for 24 years, I have been blessed with two beautiful children. Even though I have these angels with me everyday I still find myself locked in my closet uncontrollable crying with something in my head telling me my family would be better off without me. What role do I play in this world that I deserve to live. Let me start from the beginning of my life…. I was born into a abusive family where I witnessed my father beat my mother and […]
Well I’m officially 24 years old.
You know, aging has become a lot like gaining weight. You reach a certain number and you wonder why you let yourself get that far.
That’s how I’m feeling today.
If nothing goes right today, on my birthday, I’m making a helium bag.
I stumbled upon this site on accident, as I’m sure a lot of users have. Â After spending a good hour reading through older posts I decided that maybe it was a good idea to share my own story. Before I do though, I would like to request that I don’t get any of those standard responses that you see on most forums. I really don’t want to hear about how selfish I am, or how things will magically get better one day – no offense, but none of you know me and you can’t rightfully say anything about my lifestyle choices. Isn’t the internet grand?
Anyway, […]
I am a person who has been through so much in my 24 years of life. When I was 17 I was told told by a phsycologist that I have been through more than most 80 year olds go through in there life time and that he was amazed that I didnt having a severe mental illness like schitzaphrenia or bipolar. If you want to know about my story read my post, “crushing lonleness”.
However I believe that I would not be there strong, brave and socialy gifted person that I am today if it was not for all the pain that I have not […]
Im 24 years old, married, a mother of two, and i have been suicidal since the age of 12. I attempted many times, been hospitalized, been on any med you can think of, and i still cant pull myself out of this. Truth is, i love my husband, but our relationship was abusive in the past, i developed PTSD. Also coupled with molestation as a child, i have alot of anxiety. I have also discovered that i have been in love with a long time friend for a long time. I sleep with him on occasion, and i just want to stay there. Like i […]
At all. I hate the person I become when I’m actually achieving something in life (schoolwise, at this point). And I hate the person I am when I sit at my computer all day playing games. I could totally be a fucking mooch if I wanted. Who am I kidding, I’m a fucking mooch right now. 24 years old this Sunday and I still live with my parents, who pay pretty much all of my expenses. Especially school, which I’ve been in since I was 18. Granted, I’m going to a state school and my parents are not poor, but I still feel like shit […]
Every day I hope that something can happen to make this easier for me. On my way to work, can someone run a red light and hit my car, can I just not wake up, can something out of my control happen, to just get me out of here. I don’t want to be here, and I haven’t for about a year. All these people who die in accidents, who are murdered, who just DIE… and here I am. Nothing…
I’ve been cutting for almost 10 years… I’m 24 years old, with the same habits I had in high school… it was never a ‘I want […]
I’m 24 years old and have been depressed since i was six. I was raised in a family where i could never be good enough no matter how hard i tried. I was always compared to my older sister because she did well in school, and was grounded pretty much from first grade till high school. I have tried to commit suicide several times, usually with something going wrong (or right according to some people). In high school i started cutting myself to deal with my depression as it became worse. When i went off to college i met this girl who was popular and […]
Hi everybody.
I am a young guy of 24 years old, I have just graduated from University with a straight degree in physics and to everyone it seems like the world is my oyster. But there is one thing that is holding me back- I can’t express how I feel.
My “friends” seem to think that I’m just a quiet, easy going guy. However it has caused a lot of heartache for my family, they think I just don’t care. I have a little brother who is crying out for some love and I feel that I’ve never been able to give it to him.I think I […]
Suicide has been very much on my mind for a long time. For as long as I remember, the thought of putting an end to my life would come up whenever I experienced pain, confusion, unhappiness. Pouf! Jump off the window and put an end to all that! That urge to jump into the air remains with me. I do consider other ways of killing myself from time to time, sleeping pills, hanging…hanging particularly appeals to me despite the gruesome sight of someone hanging from a rope. I don’t think I will act on those feelings. I have a child for whom I am responsible. […]
I am writing this down for its (hopefully) therapeutic value. My hope is that upon reading this over I will realize the inherent ridiculousness of the position being advanced by this tract and be able to move on with my life. Here goes nothing.
I want nothing. I would rather not exist. I would rather never have existed, but since this is impossible, I wish to die. I do not want to hurt anyone through the cessation of my existence. I simply want to not exist. I have lived for 24 years and the only happiness I have ever felt has been fleeting and momentary. Would […]