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bday

by spvnalittlelie 11/5/2015

written by spvnalittlelie

i’m going to be so focking lonely on my bday, i already know it.

i don’t have any friends. i don’t have a bf. i’m not even close with a lot of my family. the family i am close with live in different states and can’t make it here. my parents will be getting drunk, like always.

it’s this saturday, two days away.

and she just opened a beer, so we’re not going shopping today, i guess.

why do ppl always flake out on me like that??

i kinda didn’t even want to celebrate, at first. i was feeling pressured to celebrate though. but now that i do want to […]

11/5/2015 5 comments

Have you ever reached that level of desperation?

by iicookieii 11/5/2015

written by iicookieii

The one where you’re so desperate to kill yourself that you’re willing to do anything? Where you’re willing to swallow anything, try anything, jump in front of anything? That level of desperation where the smallest and most minute of annoyances is enough to convince you that life isn’t worth living and that your only conceivable course of action is suicide? Where you’re just so desperate to end it all you just want anything to come along and take you away, even if you know that it won’t kill you, just hurt you.

I hate it when I reach that level. It’s like being a a wolf […]

11/5/2015 1 comment

Depression

by Mike Rowedick 11/5/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

Depression

A lifelong companion, you’ve always been there
You have no compassion, you don’t really care
I take a sharp blade, try letting you out
The harder I try, the more tentacles you sprout
If I scream out in anger, will you leave me in peace?
Are you done with me now, please when will it cease?
Too many long years, just existing alone
I didn’t choose this body, but it’s mine to atone
If I call out softly, will you come rest in my soul?
I think I’m now done, with digging my hole

Mike Rowedick

11/5/2015 0 comment

I get it

by vianvian 11/1/2015

written by vianvian

I had a friend in college once who killed herself. She got into a fight with her boyfriend, and, when they broke up, she hung herself. People said, why’d Marie do it? Marie was so special, so unlike anyone else I’ve ever met… how could someone with so much to offer, someone with so much magic and life inside them, just up and kill themselves like that?

But I didn’t wonder why she did it. I knew. I understood completely why someone like that would want to die– or rather — why someone like that couldn’t bear the pain of living any longer.

I’ve always considered myself to […]

11/1/2015 3 comments

I’m Not Alright

by Mike Rowedick 11/1/2015

written by Mike Rowedick

I have never been alright and I never will be alright.

And tonight I lack the strength to even move
When you walked, now watch me die
But I know this is harder for you
For love has let you down and come on
And no, you’re not alone

And the road ahead is lined with broken dreams
So walk, yeah, walk on by
And I failed to give you everything you need
For the fear’s behind your eyes

When I cant feel you
I’m not alright, not alright
When I cant heal you
I’m not alright, I’m not alright, I’m not alright

When I cant feel you
I’m […]

11/1/2015 28 comments

Help

by Kenziecake074 10/29/2015

written by Kenziecake074

I hang out with a group of friends.but i feel left out most of the time. I have more friends then my group of about 5 but the jave there own groups. I need some one to talk to before i lose my mind. I feel alone and i want it to stop please.

10/29/2015 3 comments

Poem for today

by kzn123 10/28/2015

written by kzn123

I’m new to here, so hello… I’ve been feeling down for a while now and alots been going on… I’m sure a lot of you can relate to this poem …

You make me feel so worthless
So depressed and so alone
You make me feel like crying
And cutting deep into the bone

You look at me in solitude
With your evil looking glare
Make me feel so worthless
Like I’m living in despair

I want you to understand
To have some gratitude in there
To feel the emptiness I feel
And the loneliness in the bed we share

Why am I here
What have I done
Will […]

10/28/2015 9 comments

Alone

by killjoy551 10/25/2015

written by killjoy551

This woman moved in when i was 5. And I guess you could say that that was the beginning of everything. My dad always claimed that he never wanted her to move in and that she moved herself in, but he’s full of crap. She actually moved out about two months ago. And now its just me and my dad. I tried to tell him about all of the horrible shit she had done to me and even though he witnessed a lot of it he pushed it off and said that i was just blaming her because i didn’t like her. And the fact […]

10/25/2015 3 comments

I’m so alone

by disgusting 10/24/2015

written by disgusting

As a follow up to my last post…

I feel so alone. He’s out with some other friends and earlier today I had to tell him about 20 times I don’t want to hear it and he actually said he thinks it would be good for me to get over him if I knew he went and fucked a random girl. No I just feel like my heart and soul got ripped out and stomped all over. It’s like he thinks my feelings can just be shut off and end on command. It’s like I’m not human at all. I feel so alone and like I […]

10/24/2015 10 comments

I Don’t Know What to Do Anymore

by Mitzia 10/18/2015

written by Mitzia

It’s been a long time since I was last here. About a year and half, to be exact. I thought I was really getting better but in the last few months, everything seems to be spiraling down again. I’ve read that it’s therapeutic to write about it, so hopefully this will help me.

In July, my boyfriend of seven months, Alex, broke up with me. He was everything I had wanted in a person and I woke up everyday with an overwhelming amount of happiness that I thought the years of suicidal thoughts and depression were finally leaving my mind.

If only I knew how wrong I […]

10/18/2015 1 comment

am i alone in this??

by fearandhatred 10/18/2015

written by fearandhatred

I have this major fear of losing people. i have lost a lot of people in my life, including basically every family member. i have a small group of close friends and im scared that one day i might lose them. they are all i have. we have graduated from high school and we are all doing our own things, some are in college and some are in the armed forces, we dont live near each other any more. we all live in different places because of college and the armed forces and i am terrified that i will lose them! i cant lose them! […]

10/18/2015 3 comments

Wow…

by Rhyan 10/16/2015

written by Rhyan

Maybe.. maybe Im not as alone as i thought.. shit..

10/16/2015 16 comments

Truth

by FeelingFunny 10/15/2015

written by FeelingFunny

Its the end of the line for me Ive run out of time and bleed from my soul my heart has grown cold from the the things I have done singularity is me, alone, one.

This culmination of events is my ruination, my decent. Into darkness I fall as the devil calls. I will burn for this, I deserve this.

10/15/2015 1 comment

Thanks!

by MissDysphoria 10/14/2015

written by MissDysphoria

Just wanted to let everyone know that I’m really thankful I found this place. I feel I can relate to a lot of other people here and it makes me feel a lot less alone. This is the one place where I don’t have to keep my secret and I can really be myself and no one will try to change that. I’m just appreciated and excepted. Thanks all!

10/14/2015 3 comments

I’ve always been alone

by Aawesomemizz 10/13/2015

written by Aawesomemizz

You don’t know how much I’ve tried to talk to people about how I feel. My depression is getting worse, no one listens. I wonder what it would be like if I was dead, would I finally be at peace?When I was 14 I was told every thing would be better and I was lied to. I’m 17 and my life is hell. I just need someone to listen to me! School is hell! I feel so alone there.. I get these looks like I’m the ugliest person alive and I feel like shit. I’m cluttered with shit tons of work and I can never […]

10/13/2015 4 comments

Just feeling terribly alone

by lulereign 10/12/2015

written by lulereign

I’d managed to stop relapsing several times, especially after my university counsellor informed my parents of my so called ‘suicidal thoughts’. But that horrible feeling of spiralling down into an endless black hole returned, and I just really don’t know who to go to anymore. I suppose I’ll continue dealing with these shitty feelings. I just really want to know if this is depression or bipolar disorder, or am I just having a bad day. I’ve been having these ‘episodes’ for close to 7 years now, and I’d always thought that everyone felt this way. Now that I realise that it’s not, I just want […]

10/12/2015 1 comment

lonliness

by sadsadist 10/11/2015

written by sadsadist

One day one day not feeling alone one day smiling and thinking it’ll be alright one day is all I got ik it won’t ever really be though always alone anyone else lonely feel free to message me I care and am easy to talk to usually kik is itsjustianmooneok email is shiftydaytoday@gmail.com

10/11/2015 0 comment

New age rambler

by brodie3750 10/11/2015

written by brodie3750

Sometimes it’s gets too much. The little things.

all these thoughts, they are restricted to my head alone for they are too intense to share with my friends. Or anyone for that matter.

I wish I could achieve the peace of death without actually dying.

id like to just ‘go away’ and watch people’s lives go on without me. See their behavior and how fast I’m forgotten.

10/11/2015 2 comments

This is one of those nights

by ellarh 10/10/2015

written by ellarh

You get so alone at times that it just makes sense.

The only thing stopping me from doing anything is knowing how my mother would feel.

It’s hard, but tomorrow I’ll be better.

10/10/2015 7 comments

Mannerisms.

by anthropophobia 10/8/2015

written by anthropophobia

You know when you see another’s mannerisms, and they’re unique and interesting. Just the way they carry themselves catches your eye. It’s so fascinating to me that a person can be imbued with such rich qualities that down to the way they behave unconsciously is welcoming and full of life. It’s amazing to me what another person can do for your life, good and bad.

i feel a deeply warm feeling from some people, those who really actually care. The quality of the conversations about nothing that still yield joy. The feeling when they reach out, just to ask how you’re doing, it’s […]

10/8/2015 3 comments

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