I’m sorry if I drag this on, but I’m not one to hold my tongue when something is bothering me. So I just want to address this for a moment. Why do some people like to make people who are hurting feel worse? I don’t mean everyone, some people help, but others just fuel the flame and worsen the pain. I’m not referencing to myself, even though I’ve been in this situation before a couple too many times. But if someone is in pain, and using a post or blog, video, etc. to vent or rant or cry for help, there are 99.9% of the […]
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I found this site while i was searching up ways on how to die on overdose of sleeping pills. I’m so tried of everything and my whole life just isn’t worth fixing or believing in. Everyone else has given up on me already. Or my parents just want me to be an entirely different person than who I really am.
I wrote my suicide note during my lunch period at school, which shows that I have zero friends that I can talk to about this. They try to understand me. But there’s not much to understand.
The truth is that I just don’t give a […]
Sometimes I think I think too much. Actually, I know I think too much. What the fuck is this? Second post in like a week or something. Clearly I’m falling downhill, I made a strong vow to myself to not come back here and post unless I was in dire need of venting, and I guess I’m there.
1. Worried as hell about my new summer job, as I will miss a lot of other events I wanted to do this summer
2. Wanted to teach myself multiple languages this summer and can’t now because will be too busy
3. I’m ridiculously inadequate in terms of every single […]
Today was my first day of school. I was really worried about how everything would turn out. It’s not the worst school in the world, but there are some really messy situations you can find yourself in if you aren’t careful. I’m usually pretty safe, but there are kids who are in local gangs, and it doesn’t take much to piss them off. One kid was beaten up for wearing a wristband that was a rival gang color, and he wasn’t even in a gang! I’m happy there’s a uniform code this year.
Anyhow, things were better than I thought they would be for the most […]
I haven’t posted for a few days because I thought I was doing okay. Â I was able to buy Garry’s Mod for my computer and that seemed to distract me from a lot of things until yesterday. Â I know it shouldn’t be that big of a deal to me but it just… It just is… Â I was playing Prop Hunt with my friend and there was this kid, like thirteen years old who just kept repeating, “Wow, your stupid.” Â And other things like that. Â So a bunch of people tried to tell him to shut up, I kept quiet because thats what I do. Â But […]
you know its intresting.I start to think more about what if i do succede what my death will mean if it actually happens.and a little bit o topic okay ive heard a lot of people saying barbiturates are the only medication that will kill you not you.Ive overdosed a lot in the past when im not cutting or burning or drinking nasal spray.I almost died from the use of sleeping pills and lithium which i was taken off of right after.Now i find there are different types of suicide.Some people i wouldnt consider suicidal cause there just bored with life its not really emotion.Some people […]
I wish i could show what i really am feeling ,unstead of a fake smile always on my face..
I wish i had the nerve to go up to him all these years to tell him that i liked him..
I wish i could help the family ..and stop being the one who is always the odd one out..
I wish i could pass this year..but work keeps pileing up..
I wish we could get a place and not live in this shelter..
I wish that a guy would like me my age unstead of 5 years younger then me and a show off with […]