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Do you remember?

by secretz180 11/22/2014

written by secretz180

Do you remember when your breaking point was. When you finally couldn’t take all the darkness that you felt around you. The moment you let yourself down.. The moment when you didn’t give a shit if you died or lived. I remember it and I have the evidence for the rest of my existing life. I only cut myself on the left side of my wrist. Why ruin your other wrist. Just put the pain all in one spot at a time. Just look at your artwork of scars. I remember when the breaking point was. I promised my self I would never harm myself, […]

11/22/2014 1 comment

I’m always alone, and there’s nothing else I can be.

by mordecai22 11/15/2014

written by mordecai22

Everyone is just an acquaintance. I can’t really connect with anyone. Being by myself minimizes the agony of being apart of this world. But even then it’s unbearable.

11/15/2014 4 comments

Dog Teeth

by Deleted.from.society 11/12/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

He handed me a pair of pliers
and he told me to pull out his teeth,
because as long as he had them he’d
use them to do bad things.
You’re cold on the inside,
there’s a dog in your heart
and it tells you to tear everything apart.
My body’s covered in teeth marks.
Your bite’s worse than your bark.
You ruin everything you touch and
destroy anyone you love.
You’re all over me.
He’d sunk his teeth into the flesh of many others,
infecting them with whatever was already inside him.
He’d broken all their hymens,
cut them open and played inside them.

11/12/2014 2 comments

A final farewell

by supernik 11/10/2014

written by supernik

I thought I’d put my suicide note here. I don’t really wanna leave a note for anyone I know but I know I wanna leave some sort of note. Being a completely new member here allows me the chance to say anything without prejudice.

Ive suffered with mental illness all my life. One of my 1st ever memories is of a childish and feeble suicide attempt. I can’t have been more than 5. I’m the youngest of 6 brothers and I have the greatest mum in the world. Although my childhood was outwardly great I always knew something was wrong. I was a gifted child both […]

11/10/2014 17 comments

Pardon me while I burst into flames

by alina_01 11/8/2014

written by alina_01

I wish I could literally just explode sometimes. People suck truly, we are stupid, naive, selfish beings. And there are people in this world that are aware they are like that and they are perfectly ok with it. I keep having dreams of my ex just these terrible dreams and I wake up feeling the pain from those dreams. There’s things that remind me of us, of him and it makes me angry and hurts me inside. I want so badly to be ok, im tired of the pain of feeling like death would be better than life. I don’t want the bad people in […]

11/8/2014 2 comments

first time

by anon47535 11/7/2014

written by anon47535

This is my first time using a site like this, i have always felt weak if i tried getting help, i have had depression for 7 years. I have been able to control my bad thoughts most of this time with distraction methods, this only works so much of the time, when I’m at my lowest nothing can distract me from the pain i feel, i struggle to put in to words what it is that makes me feel this way.

The main cause i suppose is my life being an absolute mess, everything i do goes wrong, every time i try and make my life […]

11/7/2014 3 comments

Love Poem For Death

by AshCoveredAngel 11/6/2014

written by AshCoveredAngel

Back in the days made imaginary, loving you was ordinary.

Grown now I miss how you held me me down.

Word of your eternal kiss had filled me with pure bliss, who was I to dismiss you in my future?

A rare guarantee made by life, I had pretended to be your wife, isn’t that suppose to be forever?

I found a new lover we took the vow to be bound, however the day without sound will come and you’ll tear it all apart.

To you, a promise made with the heart is a waste, based from the idea of time.

No matter how I love, you’ll remind, ” AshCoveredAngel you’re […]

11/6/2014 0 comment

Therapeutic community

by anaboyred24 10/31/2014

written by anaboyred24

This may be my last post not because I’m going to kill myself. As my drs and social services don’t think I can cope anymore and they are right. They think my mental health condition is not manageable in the Community or like a psychiatric hospital. So they looking at sending me to a therapeutic Community. I really don’t want to go but got no Choice over the matter. I know I cart cope with the life I’ve been given feeling suicidal is just one off many problems I’ve got to deal with on a day to day basis. I wish I could be a […]

10/31/2014 3 comments

I’m Lost

by AJokeOfFate 10/30/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

I honestly don’t know what to do. Everything’s slowly coming apart at the seams. I’m falling behind in all of my classes and hardly paying attention to my parents. I’m unattractive and most of the people that I hang out with just think of me as really annoying. I bet there’s a line of people waiting to try and kill me. Hell, I’ve even stopped reading books as much as i used to. And it’s not just that I feel unmotivated. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I suppose that’s what it’s like when you live your whole life doing what people tell […]

10/30/2014 6 comments

Worthless thoughts…

by Maeliin 10/29/2014

written by Maeliin

I came on this site a LONG time ago and actually met a friend through here… we were both considering suicide three years ago and we are both still alive… We’ve graduated high school, and made it to college, and our colleges are only 30 minutes apart.

But that’s not why I’m posting… I have come back to those thoughts… Well, they never left. But they’ve kept from suffocating me for a while… Until now. Suddenly, these past couple of weeks, I’ve come to the conclusion that I should self harm again and have been. I have been wanting to kill myself but am not sure […]

10/29/2014 7 comments

Repair Man

by RealTalk30 10/26/2014

written by RealTalk30

You can see me down in that place where I try so hard to wave..my arms burdened by gravity holding them to my face.. so heavy and so hot..believe me or not it’s my fate. The next step I take means too much to take and so I’ve stood still waiting for my will again.
Repair these broken hands.. what is there left to grip? Repair this broken man for the sake of broken lips. Come apart to let you in and hold me down to fix.
Put me back the way I was and I’ll just fall apart again. Reconstruct this broken heart […]

10/26/2014 2 comments

The Reaper’s Day Off

by Roars Kilde 10/26/2014

written by Roars Kilde

I burn so fierce, though the rain pours in drowning surge, it neither puts out my fire nor overwhelms my breath.
So I take another pill lying here in the gutter, trying to dampen the pain booze couldn’t quench. As wishes leave my heart, and mind realize the truth behind the naive, my eye glance at the wound on my wrist, and a small stream of red in the water rushing down, far into the distant. Seems the rain doesn’t erase at once.
Smiling, as another pill is swallowed, for my broken bones ache so bad from the fall. Such luck to land […]

10/26/2014 0 comment

Blocked

by Namelessqueer 10/22/2014

written by Namelessqueer

So they blocked this website at work. I’m not sure if they saw that i was visiting it an inordinate amount daily or it’s a coincidence. I can’t really look at it as often as I’d like.

I stayed home today. but I called in sick, showered and ate so I think i’m doing pretty good. I’m not letting things fall apart but I don’t know how I’m gonna make it tomorrow.

I feel stupid. I’m a bit ashamed of my sadness but at the same time I want to be out about being sad and sometimes suicidal. I hate the stigma. the fact that I’ve used […]

10/22/2014 3 comments

I just… do. not. know.

by thefirstcriggs 10/20/2014

written by thefirstcriggs

I’m 30 now and have a family. I have a wife, a son, a house (rented), a car, a job. I still remember the very first time I wished I was dead. And I’m exhausted because 20 years later, not a day goes by when I don’t still feel like that. Sometimes it will just be a fleeting thought and sometimes it will be an entire day of wrestling with my own psyche to overpower those feelings.

I remember having those ‘wish I’d never been born’ feelings. I was about 10. I was bullied. At home, at school, in the street. I guess I was always […]

10/20/2014 1 comment

I think I’m about done

by depressednihilist95 10/19/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I think I’m done with people. I wish they’d at least give me a chance to die without having to suffer with this melancholic mind of mine, but people never fail to disappoint. A peaceful escape is just too much to ask for. I have no friends outside of the family, only feeling okay with my mother and brother. Each day, I feel like I am drifting further apart from them as well. I’m losing interest in talking to people as there is nothing to say. My connections are based on nothing more than materialism. People just can’t connect with me emotionally, philosophically, etc., or […]

10/19/2014 3 comments

If you love something, set it free

by StarsShineInDarkness 10/16/2014

written by StarsShineInDarkness

I met a boy. He asked me out. And I was excited. Until I remembered.

I come from a different world than him. I come from a world that preys on the innocent and the ignorant and rots them from the inside out. I come from a world that takes pleasure in pain, in blood, in tears. My world is the worst kind of war, the worst kind of pain, the worst kind of silence.

And I have a responsibility to never let him into that world. I cannot introduce another innocent, beautiful soul into this darkness. I cannot let the pain take away his laugh and […]

10/16/2014 4 comments

Pieces

by xylem 9/26/2014

written by xylem

I assemble pieces of me life together every morning. Pieces that are so fragile I’m afraid they won’t last for long. They don’t even fit well anymore. There are so many pieces missing,lost some where along the way.
I go through life carefully trying to keep the pieces together.
And every night as I get home the pieces silently fall apart. Maybe tomorrow there will be no more pieces left to assmble.

9/26/2014 8 comments

TommyGun

by DayDreamer6 9/21/2014

written by DayDreamer6

Why do you play with my emotions?

You actually asked me how I felt.

You already have someone so why do you want me?

I felt something new with you today that actually gave me hope.

You’re such an asshole.

Why do I miss you so much when we’re apart?

Do you miss me?

9/21/2014 2 comments

today for the first time in like 2 yr i felt like ripping my skin off myself. cutting my arms up from palm to armpit to remind myself what real pain feels like again. everything seems so backwards, theres no way forward apart from down, down, down. how am i supposed to move forward if everything i do gets ignored or pushed to the sidee. i just want a home, somewhere ill make my own, somewhere i can chill, somewhewre i can be myself. has that ever happened? i dont know what to do, i just dont.

by tma 9/21/2014

written by tma

9/21/2014 1 comment

My story

by lostblkmale 9/10/2014

written by lostblkmale

Never sat down and wrote anything before so I said why not I’m 36 blk m when I write can’t believe I made it this long life hAs not been to hard worked since I was about 22 Always tried to stay stress free just going with the flow of things this last year has been the hardest been out of work about 9 months lost my job like so many others then watched my self fall apart losing everthing but my self now as I watch myself go I guess it will be cool to go out on my own terms giving up […]

9/10/2014 0 comment

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