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I’m ashamed

by Held 11/19/2014

written by Held

I’ve been unhappy since I can remember. Sometimes I forget, that I’m unhappy in certain situations, but it never lasts longs and I quickly get back to my normal state of depression. It’s really hard for me to find thinks that I find enjoyable enough to make an effort to experience them.

I have always wondered what was wrong with me. I studied some psychology and read a lot of self-help books. I made some progress, but I never understood why, despite my seemingly great live, I felt so worthless. Yesterday I stumbled upon the TED talks by Brene Brown and I finally realized what my […]

11/19/2014 8 comments

A ticket to freedom

by charlieregal 11/18/2014

written by charlieregal

I sold everything I own and gave every last dime to US immigration services for them to process my paper work. Every last dime and I a still stuck in Jamaica. I did some things I am not proud of to get that paperwork going. Some really unclean things. Oh lord I wish I could wash my hands of those things. But I can’t. Stained. Scared. I really want to fly out but can’t afford that $250 ticket. The man that petitioned for me, he and I had a falling out. I hope he doesn’t go to immigration and get my green card revoked. Cause […]

11/18/2014 4 comments

Criminal record and bad reputation on Google.

by misterp 11/18/2014

written by misterp

When I was in my 20s, I had some problems in business and with the criminal courts so now I have criminal records and a horrible reputation online. I used to have a lot of money so I moved to Asia and found my escape/happiness.

Now I have no money so I moved back to my country to live with my parents while I try to find a job doing something online. I am now in my early 40s, unemployed, getting fat, lonely, cold, losing hope.
It’s been 2 months and I’m getting nowhere and feel very unhappy. I cannot get a job (due to my […]

11/18/2014 1 comment

all you need is love. and lexapro.

by death bunny 11/18/2014

written by death bunny

recently we’ve broken up, after a long period of time together, through good times and bad. when we’ve met, i was happier. even though we met at the hospital, both dealing with our mental illnesses. i can’t point on the timeline when things got really bad. i’ve grown to drink frequently at some point. i thought it would help me escape my feelings, and, well, it did. but i thought, until recently, that it was just that. well, no.

i think i was seeking attention, love. she told me, since the beginning, she has a problem of showing love. i thought that by doing crazy shit […]

11/18/2014 2 comments

Ramblings

by Palmer123 11/18/2014

written by Palmer123

I told my wife that last week I was deeply depressed, and we processed by feelings. If I had told her that I was severely depressed that would have had undesirable and unintended consequences. This morning I told her that I felt better which in some self-delusional sense is true. But I also told her that I thought of suicide, and it’s as if she was shocked. Last year I had a major depressive episode and had acute suicidal ideations. I told her that I expected that I would suffer with suicidal thoughts at least for the foreseeable future and maybe even for the […]

11/18/2014 1 comment

It Doesn’t Hurt It Stings

by fallenangle21299 11/17/2014

written by fallenangle21299

The cuts aren’t even that deep. They bleed a little and i wipe away the blood. They’re not that big nor that small. The cuts don’t hurt they just sting. It feels like I have poured alcohol over my cuts, that’s how bad it has started to sting. I guess I deserve the stinging because I cut myself.

11/17/2014 1 comment

I just want to cut a little

by Stereotype 11/17/2014

written by Stereotype

It’s harmless right. I’m not bothering anyone. I wish I was dead. Life is a ****ing joke! This is so stupid, I am so stupid, life is so stupid. I have known for many years how I would die. By my own hand, hanging from a tree in Letchworth, with the tips of my toes lightly brushing the snow topped forest floor. No one will find me until spring when the hikers break, hunters aren’t allowed in the state park. I have always loved that place, it’s so spiritual. I just keep thinking of my body being defiled by him. I am just left in […]

11/17/2014 5 comments

why

by peace4all 11/17/2014

written by peace4all

Why since we ve been on this planet do we treat one another so bad? All through out history is rape, murder, slavery, war, starvation. So why is it considered a blessing to live?The things we suffer as individuals is nothing really when compared to all that life has dished out to all that has lived.Are we here to further insure that this madness continues .we complain about our individual lives , but what about this blessing called life.Im sickened by the whole history of man.If this is a blessing I would hate to see a curse.when does the madness end? Although I been very […]

11/17/2014 4 comments

just want to say goodbye to somebody

by very tired and alone 11/17/2014

written by very tired and alone

Everyone has their own overwhelming burdens ….. non are less than anyone elses….. mine have just become too great. i have lost my children. I had all that i could ever of hoped for…. i was adored by a beautiful perfect lady and i screwed it up. No…. not like that…. i just screwed it all up. I am not a bad man… i just have had so much pain over the years i didnt know how to just enjoy life when it became perfect.

I am now completely alone…. just wanted to say goodbye to somebody.

thank you.

11/17/2014 10 comments

Anger and Loneliness

by misterunknown 11/16/2014

written by misterunknown

I believe that some people feel more so than others. The amount of sadness it’d take one person to crumble is what another wakes up to every day. You will never know my pain, nor I, yours. We can describe them as best we can, but I will never know what it is to carry your burden, and vise versa. I feel as though my own pain is much greater than most, as obnoxious as that sounds.. I live in a constant state of anxiety. How do others see me? Am I annoying? My breathing is too loud. Am I performing this task too slowly? […]

11/16/2014 3 comments

Searching for someone

by shadows 11/15/2014

written by shadows

Nobody seems to understand what I’m feeling, even if someone know what I’m fighting. I’m desperately searching for someone in which I can confide. I want to talk about my feelings ’cause they’re too heavy for only one person. I feel stupid when I try to talk with someone about all I’m thinking.

I feel like a fool. Sometimes insane.

I’m so afraid of everything. I don’t want to be alone in this, but it’s so complicated and I feel like it would never end. I want to finish this story, this black long chapter of my life. It’s me that I’m really fighting?

I want someone which […]

11/15/2014 4 comments

Mother, are you out there?

by cant.fixme 11/15/2014

written by cant.fixme

I want a mom, a mom who cares for me a mom who loves me, i just need support from her, caring and loving that’s all i want. Someone who can just sit around tell me how much there proud of me, someone who looks at me like i was worth something, someone who believes and me and that don’t trow me away like a piece of shit over school grades… Mom what did i ever did to you, i’m sorry i was born, i’m so sorry, i know you regrets it, you’ve told me so many times, i see it, i know it, Mom […]

11/15/2014 6 comments

Babblings of a madman…well sorta.

by Open_up_your_senses 11/14/2014

written by Open_up_your_senses

I’m not really sure how to start this, honestly ten minutes ago I didn’t see myself writing anything at all. You search something on Google and end up on a website, just reading posts. As the title suggests this is just me rambling…reminiscing…ruminating…for a lack of a better word just babbling. Madman Joseph at your service.

Throughout my life I can’t really recall a specific time when I’ve been happy, I’m sure most of us can relate to that. Though more specifically I can’t remember when my happiness wasn’t a result of something someone had done for me. It’s almost as if my happiness depends on […]

11/14/2014 2 comments

Getting worse..

by genesis0987 11/13/2014

written by genesis0987

Last time I wrote on here I thought I was feeling bad. Well, I’m worse now. And what makes it harder to deal with, is that everyone saw me get better and believe that’s still the case. After my parents spoke to my psychiatrist few months back they were so stressed and worried about me being depressed and suicidal. I don’t want to put them through that again. My best friend has enough troubles to deal with, I don’t want her to worry about me as well. It just sucks that I would do so much harm if I spoke about it and I feel […]

11/13/2014 6 comments

Every day is a sturggle

by theworldiscruel 11/13/2014

written by theworldiscruel

I sometimes go to bed thinking everything will be better the next day and that my life is just a bad dream. And when I wake up reality snaps back in to me and than I remember. I am an embarrassment to the family according to my father and I am useless to society. My goal is to inform others of what I live trough everyday.

11/13/2014 1 comment

Don’t wake me up in the morning, cause I will be gone

by stairway2haven 11/12/2014

written by stairway2haven

It sounds stupid, but I have many, many problems. I have ADHD, depression, and anxiety. All three of these things are bad, but when they are together at the same time, they are difficult to live with. My depression has been getting out of hand lately. I have a serious crush on a girl, ever since I was in high school. Her best friends are also my best friends, so I had the guts to tell them that I had strong feelings for this girl. Unfortunately, this girl only thinks of me as a friend. A best friend. She talks to me about her crush. […]

11/12/2014 2 comments

hopeless

by need2go 11/12/2014

written by need2go

just tried partial suspension again, but even that i could not go on. it just felt weird and it always seems like i’m dreaming, then i’m hyperventilating and shaking a lot and kind of wake up, hoping that it was all just a bad, horrible dream, only to realize it is not.
not sure if im doing it properly, tho.

11/12/2014 5 comments

Dog Teeth

by Deleted.from.society 11/12/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

He handed me a pair of pliers
and he told me to pull out his teeth,
because as long as he had them he’d
use them to do bad things.
You’re cold on the inside,
there’s a dog in your heart
and it tells you to tear everything apart.
My body’s covered in teeth marks.
Your bite’s worse than your bark.
You ruin everything you touch and
destroy anyone you love.
You’re all over me.
He’d sunk his teeth into the flesh of many others,
infecting them with whatever was already inside him.
He’d broken all their hymens,
cut them open and played inside them.

11/12/2014 2 comments

Pardon me while I burst into flames

by alina_01 11/8/2014

written by alina_01

I wish I could literally just explode sometimes. People suck truly, we are stupid, naive, selfish beings. And there are people in this world that are aware they are like that and they are perfectly ok with it. I keep having dreams of my ex just these terrible dreams and I wake up feeling the pain from those dreams. There’s things that remind me of us, of him and it makes me angry and hurts me inside. I want so badly to be ok, im tired of the pain of feeling like death would be better than life. I don’t want the bad people in […]

11/8/2014 2 comments

Am I a bad person?

by agonizingnose52 11/8/2014

written by agonizingnose52

Hello, I am 15. I am suicidal, I guess. I don’t want to die, but I know I should. I feel the need deep within me. Basicly, I’m gonna spare the details. I am a liar. A big one. I lie about everything. Whether it be how I’m feeling, or what I’m doing, or my life as a whole. These fantasys I create, make me seem interesting. They make me feel like my life isn’t just a drop in the ocean. Ie: I have made up a story about how I used to drink alot, and sleep around. Which is only parcially true. I’ve had […]

11/8/2014 3 comments

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