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thanks…

by claritee 5/23/2016

written by claritee

Thanks to those that read my posts about my ex. And for all the advice I got. I am in a much better place now.

My last post about him was how I let him go. It’s been about a month now. I feel better. I’m still depressed, but not nearly as much. I don’t find myself crying anymore. I don’t feel like I want to die. I feel like I can breathe now. Love is something else. Loss is crazy. Loss hurts like nobody’s business.

I don’t know where we’re going to end up – my ex and I. I say that because even now, I […]

5/23/2016 1 comment

Movin’ On

by NicoleK 5/7/2016

written by NicoleK

Another song I wrote a while back and decided to record (poorly). Basically a suicide note, a very mild one, in song form.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/Movin-On-5_7_16-2.05-PM.m4a

Verse
I don’t wanna bother you anymore
Because I know how much that hurts
I don’t wanna be there at your door
Making your life so much worse
But I can’t help that I exist
So I’ll move along this process

And I’m not the sappy type
So I’ll keep this letter short
It’s the last that I will write
But don’t think it’s your fault
I’ve got a better place to be
And you’ve got better people to see

Pre-chorus
I’m sorry it […]

5/7/2016 20 comments

Confused and frustrated

by halfdead66 4/30/2016

written by halfdead66

I have fully recovered from my recent attempt, physically speaking. I had an epiphany during this experience, that my life does matter, that I matter; but that feeling of inner strength blew out so quickly and too easily. I’m left here feeling hopeless and empty again, and that’s why I’m frustrated. I’m either feeling numb, sad, mildly euphoric, or feeling too energetic and irritable (mixed episode). Currently, I’m not suicidal, but I do feel self-destructive at least once a day, if not more often, and when those feelings and emotions become irritating or overwhelming, I turn to alcohol, again. All though, I’m feeling slightly proud […]

4/30/2016 3 comments

The Honest lie

by Alfred1688 3/15/2016

written by Alfred1688

People say that events in the past I should let go

But the sins I have committed they do not know

Many just don’t know my sacrifice

What I had to do to give my Angel paradise

My life was being filled with Darkness

She saved me before I became heartless

But again I lost my way in the dark mist

I almost slipped back into the abyss

She was holding me from falling under

But her cries was louder than thunder

She was holding on to the rope in pain

Seeing her suffer was driving me insane

Wanting to stop her cries

I started to tell her lies

I told her to let go because I can still […]

3/15/2016 1 comment

More at peace with dying than I ever have been

by hollylion 1/10/2016

written by hollylion

My entire life is a nightmare. I didn’t think things could get any worse but they did, they can always get worse. I have no hope for a future. It would only consist of anxiety and loneliness, of being haunted by what my has been so far. I can’t do that, I just can’t. I’m 29 years old and I have given up. I feel too old to start over, too old to have the life I’ve always wanted. Because it’s too late now. I’m too young to be close to death, too young to have the health problems take over and kill me.

I’ve thought […]

1/10/2016 6 comments

by Sui_RC 1/5/2016

written by Sui_RC

This just hit me.
Our worst method of self harm isnt cutting, or burning,
It is self sabotage.
Atleast thats the way with me.
Worst part , i still have that lingering hope.
And the fact that i am sabotaging myself, while still having that little hope, is tougher.

Suicide is tougher cus i still wanna live.
But my motivation for suicide are ever growing,
1. People hate me , and i hate most of them.
2. The ones i do love, dont love me back
3. My parents only love me cus they are biologically engineered to do so
4. Future is bleak and getting […]

1/5/2016 6 comments

Things I Shouldn’t Say

by Chaucer 12/2/2015

written by Chaucer

You could have never known, and things would be no different. I tried to stay in touch; I made it clear I valued your friendship. I know life can be busy, and when so many people are on the edge of depression it’s hard to get excited about anything at all.

Even a person.

You’re forgiven for that, just like you always have been. I’ve never been known for a shortage of apologies after all; but you don’t get to pretend you just lost me.

You lost a little of me when I told you that secret, the one I could barely face myself, and you made me […]

12/2/2015 3 comments

lose a moment to win a life

by jano.11 10/27/2015

written by jano.11

i dont want to hurt anyone , or remaind you of what you want to forget ..
some of us had been raped , and other had been used and saled ,others had a bad parents , or bad social live , or had been failure .. we all have something that is pushing us to the edge .. but we won’t fall
we might think that we have the worst life ever . but we forget to think about other people .. while we are here sitting infront of our laptops or mobile phones in our worm rooms ,, have the ability to eat […]

10/27/2015 4 comments

Justified

by dirtbag 8/25/2015

written by dirtbag

Have you ever asked yourself, “when would suicide be the right thing to do?” What line needs to be crossed before killing oneself is justified? And once one finds justification for killing oneself, what possible future is there for them if they can’t? This is where I am. Struggling in vain to find a way to end it. Too cowardly to do anything painful, too selfish to give up wanting. I don’t want to die, I just deserve to. I’m not finding a way to cope. The world would be a better place without me. Everyone with whom I come into contact ultimately ends up […]

8/25/2015 34 comments

by nowhere man 7/27/2015

written by nowhere man

I’m a failure. There are so many things happening right now. My mother works so hard to put food on the table while fighting depression and a damn father who doesn’t give any money to help. And even with all this situation, I don’t know if I’ll be able to graduate because I’m so fucking stupid and lazy and weak. I’m just so fucking tired all the time and my cousin will get into a great college because she is working so hard and I’m just a damn lazy ass. I don’t study or really work for anything and I’m so tired of being a […]

7/27/2015 1 comment

im about to

by itsjustme33 7/5/2015

written by itsjustme33

I’m about to kill myself. I have a loaded rifle next to me and drinking. I’m kinda scared of the pain and if I don’t succeed. But at the same time I wanna go to a better place. Maybe if I drink more it will take away the fear

7/5/2015 10 comments

Tribute to @worthless_loser-73

by MoonShine 6/17/2015

written by MoonShine

@worthless_loser-73 had mentioned in his comments that he wants to die before his birthday that was in early june and he had scheduled a post for 6 june named “by the time you read this” which I thinks that post was for after-completed suicide and that post had been deleted. He has also not posted/commented for many days also.

There are 3 possibilities that

1)worthless_loser-73 has completed his suicide. And that his near people or cops got to know about suicideproject.org from the suicide note and they contacted suicideproject.org email and as a result the sp admin/moderator deleted that scheduled post or

2)worthless_loser-73 has been only injured from his […]

6/17/2015 9 comments

Put A Little Love In Your Heart – Yep, I’m a child of the 60’s –

by bayareaguy 6/11/2015

written by bayareaguy

“I hope when you decide, kindness will be your guide. Put a little love in your hearts.”

Think of your fellow man
Lend him a helping hand
Put a little love in your heart
You see it’s getting late
Oh, please don’t hesitate
Put a little love in your heart

And the world will be a better place
And the world will be a better place
For you and me
You just wait and see

Another day goes by
Still the children cry
Put a little love in your heart
If you want the world to know
We won’t let hatred grow
Put a little love in your […]

6/11/2015 5 comments

Broken down no more hope

by broka 6/2/2015

written by broka

hi I’m a 27 year old person that has been caring compassionate and loving. I have a wonderful family that I would love to repay for everything they have done for me. Lately my depression has been so heavy it hurts. I met a gir. l I’m absolutely nuts over and my mood and things chased her away. I’m so tired of being alive. My body hurts my mind hurts. 27 years old with no girlfriend behind in my education and with no way out. Surely there is a better place for someone like me. I’ve never hurt anyone, I live my life trying to […]

6/2/2015 0 comment

all i cannot say

by silvermoon 6/1/2015

written by silvermoon

all i cannot say i pour out here even tho it feels so painful in a way. i was told to practice self-compassion and i cant. i cant believe anyone cares. the ones who do are the outsiders. everyone else – nope. ive been dealing with really bad depression and isolation. it is hard not to beat yourself up. my heart just had a huge jolt from noise, for me, noise brings up the past. i wonder how much longer i can bare this. my online friend said if i end my life i dont go to a better place and am still “me” and […]

6/1/2015 4 comments

Please read

by Mylastwords15 5/2/2015

written by Mylastwords15

If you are on this site you obviously feel suicidal. But I have something to say. Reading the comments something had come to my mind. Most of you post something saying your bad people and worthless etc but by reading the comments it came to my mind that your all good people. None of you deserve to die because your helping others. I read some of the comments on my posts and honestly it made me feel better and like there are people out there who care about others even though we don’t know eachother. This world is full of scum but people like you […]

5/2/2015 7 comments

What happened to…

by dag 5/2/2015

written by dag

What happened to people spending their day on this website. It seems like this place died out quite a bit. This is my first time back in a few years, well last night was. Where is the traffic? Where are the people with biting judgements; the people with strict how to’s on getting better; the people ranting about non-events in their life?

I enjoyed reading the dramatic, and sometimes helpful, banter here. It was a good way to spend a Saturday, perhaps I shall move along, there are too many tumbleweeds in these parts. This site was a good place with little rules, which allowed you […]

5/2/2015 5 comments

A rant; Suicide and opression

by cephalus 4/27/2015

written by cephalus

This was going to be a comment… somewhere… But it got promoted to a post.

I think a future where society has dissolved the taboo that one should /not/ have control over their own life, is a great and wondrous one. I would argue control over ones life is a cornerstone of freedom, and without that basic right, we are oppressed.

The natural order is to die from disease, not from old age. Today life expectancy has doubled *worldwide* since the 1900s. So, It seems we are just entering the era of death from old age (if 70 is old). Still it is almost always from illness […]

4/27/2015 6 comments

I’m tired

by discouragedmom 3/31/2015

written by discouragedmom

I’m almost 40, single mom, last year at this time we lost 3 family members in 3 weeks. All of them unexpected, one of them to suicide.

With my home in chaos, mess I can’t catch up on or keep up with, mice in the building, children who won’t attend school and won’t help out, a job I don’t like that doesn’t pay enough but I can’t quit because I can’t get anything else (limited availability due to kids, I don’t have a drivers licence, I didn’t graduate from college despite 4 years of classes and good grades)

my youngest son was just diagnosed as being on […]

3/31/2015 4 comments

Isn’t a belief in a god just another form of grief?

by wndozh8er 3/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

Think about it –

DENIAL – death can’t be final right? god is in control right?. We need someone that will save us. We think – this can’t be all there is! our suffering must have a purpose right? Were gonna be in a better place after we die right? my grandpa is in heaven and his body is not his anymore but just a shell right?

ANGER – God why are you not listening to me? I been praying and trying to be a good person! fuck you!

BARGAINING – To me this what prayer is! I promise god ill be a good person if you help […]

3/22/2015 12 comments

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