This is a depressing world we live in….a very depressing world one I cant bare to live in one I wont bare to live in…but im a bad person and bad people belong in this hell…I belong in this hell….I hurt everybody with my words…my touch….my everything wonder if anyone else realizes that they already live in hell hell cant get much worse then planet earth…I hate myself people hate me but who gives a fuck right……..who…really….gives….a….fuck!!!!!!!!!!!….the world is filled with disappointments im just another one of them ill live………..ill die……….but I swear to my lord and savior I wont multiple….why bring something in this […]
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Big Mistake
we think we are superior than animals, we are animals ourselves. our houses made of wood and rocks. that’s all we are, a speck, waiting to go back to dust. that’s all we are. why experience this life at all? what gives. it’s sad to think I used to believe in magic, magic don’t exist. happiness don’t exist. life is just some big joke, one big mistake. my thoughts are the cause of my very depression and anxiety. I envy the dead.
So many times, so much places
I’ve tried to kill myself without any traces
People don’t care I’m such a burden my mother hates me It just keeps hurting
No one cares most are unaware
I’m alone in this world no friends just foes
They all hate me they tease , they say I’m just a hoe
I’m nothing to anyone they don’t feel my pain
I should be gone , no one is to blame
Why live when there’s nothing but hurt?
My life is a mess this would never work
Momma tried her best to reach me
Father could’ve never taught me
lithium. wow. that is what its come to. modern pharmacology has failed me. i had always thought that lithium was for the real nutcases. so i guess that moniker belongs to me as well. i am scared. reading about it and the side effects are scary. especially the toxicity thing. i am not very good at keeping myself adequately hydrated. drink too much soda and not enough water. don’t want to spend all my time on the john. not very conducive to getting any work done. i quit taking risperdal cold turkey. big mistake. i didn’t think 1 mg was a big deal. a week […]
For the past few days I thought my life was going to get better. All these wonderful things people tell me here are kind of smothered by the fact my home life has only gotten worse.
My family found these posts and are going to be sending me to a mental facility that is known for its patient abuse and I have no say -as I’ve been deemed unfit to live alone or make my own life choices thanks to my father. It’s all spiraling out of control and there’s no way to save myself. It’s all over and I’m too tired and beaten up to […]
Im 12 years old and i know you are wondering what a twelve year old can POSSIBLY Â have gone through that she wants to commit suicide well ive been bullied ive made a big mistake once and i did that mistake again i dont know why but i did it and i never let my thought out i always keep them locked in cause im scared..scared of what people will think..scared if i will get hurt..scared i might end up killing my self if i did say something but then again if i dont i will probably kill my self no one understands me NO […]
i told my parents about how i have a girlfriend now… big mistake.,. did not accept it at all.. so what if i like girls and guys?
ugh… worst night ever. and to add to it. my girlfriend dumped me.. so i told my parents for nothing… i tell my friends and theyre all like “you should of waited a month before telling your parents” and im like, wow! cant you just be here for me instead of telling me the things i should of done differently…
i wanted to start being close to my parents.. so i was gunna try.. well im done trying.. my mom […]
So, next year, i’m going to fucking kill myself. Why? i have no fucking idea. I’m SICK of my crap. I’m sick of this depression and social anxiety. I’m sick of myself. I’m sick of being invisible and lonely. I’m sick of thinking this way. I’m sorry to everyone who actual gave a fuck about me, when i’m gone things’ll be better for you. I guess, i’m making a big mistake and i’m sinning by doing this. And from seeing people, like in Africa, who are going through war, starvation and for the woman, who go through sooo much and get raped. Grr, it makes […]
I live a life, yet I feel like I do not truly hold an important existence. All I am is an immense disappointment, a big burden, & faith put to waste. I have felt worthless and invisible in society ever since I was a little child, and I have worked so hard to overcome that, yet I have just landed right back into that same dilemma and loneliness. In so many ways, I am still that lonely, confused, and lost child I was then, yet unlike then, there just is no hope for me now. Change just is not possible.
One of the biggest issues in my […]
… ive been cutting since i was 12….when i was little….my hole family got torn apart…my sister died…i was a year old thats when everything fell apart my dad got aressted and my mom left a year later to go run off with a guy and do drugs…year after that my sister was born and then a fews later taken away and put up for adoption…ive been living with my grandma since i was two…and then…my being picked on…really started about say…1st grade i got called ugly and stupid and frizzy haired freak….all names you can think of…and i belived them…i used to say i […]
What a joke. I actually thought my life would get better. Ha! The first time I really considered suicide was in 8th grade but, I talked myself out of it because I thought surely this was only a rough patch and things would get better eventually. The second time I seriously considered suicide was in 10th grade but I thought that maybe once I got out of high school, things would actually begin to improve. Maybe when I reached college I would finally start having the life I was supposed to have with friends that cared, guys actually liking me, independence, goals…Well, freshman year of […]
I don’t want to live anymore, but at the same time I’m just so scared of dying. I’ve never tried to commit suicide before but I have been thinking about it for awhile now. It’s like my whole life is just a one big mistake. Almost every classmate of mine hates me and I don’t even know why, I’ll never be good enough for my parents, it seems like all they want is for me to be perfect but I can’t give them that. I’m failing school and my parents are mad at me for that, they think that I’m not even trying but I […]
So, i guess i’m here.. just to share with you my experience..
I guess the stress of sports, losing friends, family, and getting my heartbroken over and over.. got to me.. I started cutting, which was a big mistake.. I know that, and i’m done doing that now.. One night, i couldn’t handle anything anymore.. I ran to the bathroom crying my eyes out.. I locked the doorbehind me, and grabbed a blade, and slashed my arm.. I kept cutting up my arm, slashing it, over and over.. Telling myself what a fuck up i am.. And how it was all my fault.. Each cut, deeper […]