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Blade

Scars.

by Empty_Soul 7/17/2012

written by Empty_Soul

This song means a lot to me.. Not sure if anyone else can relate.

Versus the world – Love every scar

I fell in love every scar on her wrists
And sad eyes told a story of every
Great thing that she’d missed
She doesnt call here anymore
She didn’t even say goodbye
Just a kiss blown to
The wind we didn’t catch in time

This can’t be right the night has just begun
And I already feel like I’m dead
I know I shouldn’t hate myself
I should be blaming this on you instead
Instead I’ll rewind these weeks in my mind
And I don’t think I’ll […]

7/17/2012 3 comments

Thinking

by lost eyes 7/16/2012

written by lost eyes

The thought of death sometimes gives me this warm tingly feeling inside. The thought of never having to worry about my life, or about what I am going to do with my life gives me a high. I look at knives and I cant help but pickÂ one up…….I run my finger over the blade to feel how sharp it is,Â As I do that I think what would happen to my family? my friends? my boyfriend? Would I be selfish for leaving this world and leaving them behind? The pain of knowing how much it would hurt others is more painful than actually being here. I […]

7/16/2012 1 comment

“lets take what hurts and write it all out”

by holdingOn 7/13/2012

written by holdingOn

My chest feels like it is about to fucking explode. I feel like I am about to completely break down. Oh God, all I want is for this to stop! I am so tired of this FUCKING CYCLE: I just want this to stop…. why does being alone have to hurt so much.

I want to cut. No. I need to cut. It has been 84 days since that blade tasted skin. Who was I to think that I could ever overcome depression, huh? Who was I to think that I could ever stop cutting permanently, hmm? Let’s face it the blade has always been there […]

7/13/2012 6 comments

Sisterly Love

by Annie 7/10/2012

written by Annie

The thing about my sister, is that she is mean. Not only that, but she doesn’t realize that when she tells people these mean, horrible things, that they are affected by it. That what she says to me, makes me feel worse about myself. How many times have I cut myself over things she said or did to me? Too many. How many pills did I try to overdose on, July 1 2010? Over 40. That same year, I overdosed again on August 23. The second Monday in school. That same year, months earlier, I tied together a bunch of knee high socks, and tried […]

7/10/2012 8 comments

disgusted

by haley_14633 7/10/2012

written by haley_14633

what do you do when you can’t take it anymore. You have people willing to help but because they probably tired of hearing it. And what can they do to help? Its not a quick fix. What do I do, when I have a best friend. And shes not a normal best friend, shes like a sister, but more. Someone I love more than anything in the world. Someone Im there for all the time and the only reason im here right now is because I love her to much to let her go. Selfish in a way I guess. But even tho she means […]

7/10/2012 0 comment

Started scratching.

by dudeme65 7/2/2012

written by dudeme65

Hey everyone, I’ve been a long time lurker, this is my first post. I don’t really know where else to go to get advice or support or anything like that.

Basically I’ve had depression for 3 years now (I’m 18, turning 19 in a few months), and I’ve just been suffering through it, I’ve been thinking about suicide every day but I’m too much of a coward to just do it. In all honesty, if I had a gun or something, I’d do it, but I’m just scared of the pain.

Anyways yeah so I’ve been talking about it with one of my friends and this girl […]

7/2/2012 3 comments

You should have killed me when you had the chance

by theresnopenguinsinalaska 7/1/2012

written by theresnopenguinsinalaska

I try to get help, like everyone says to. I try to tell people about how i feel, they dont listen. I try to use music, but its not enough. The only thing that ever seems to be enough is a blade. Not because it feels good, or because i like to watch myself bleed, because it seems like its the only thing that ever listens to me. For once, i can take my mind off not being oerfect enough, or pretty enough, and i can focus on a other type of pain. Release. Everyone seems to care so much about themselves. All my friends […]

7/1/2012 3 comments

impact

by youwouldntrealise 6/22/2012

written by youwouldntrealise

so i have this best friend who knows everything about me… he means the world to me and he knows litterally everything about me and i think i know everything about him.

the other day i told him i self harmed (i have been doing it on and off since last september) and he knew i had done it in the past, but i promised him i would tell him before i would do it again. I didnt… and well lets just say he found out and i wish i never said anything.

he had threatened in the past to cut himself twice as hard, which caused […]

6/22/2012 0 comment

</3 Heartbroken </3

by RogueShadow1281 6/8/2012

written by RogueShadow1281

I felt numb yesterday. Now, I feel shitty, tired, and more useless than ever. I’m going to join the army, get shot or blown up and then that’s it. How will I get through high school though…Â

Sadness creeps into me, cold chills and sweat cover my body. I feel lonely, Jasmine. I love her so much, I don’t want to live without her. People said I have the symptoms of OCD. Possibly, but still, these feelings are as real as a blade cutting into me. (I ain’t a cutter)Â

Â I wish she would tell me she wants to take back breaking up with me. She said […]

6/8/2012 2 comments

I’m tired of everything.

by Kianaxo 6/5/2012

written by Kianaxo

I can’t do it anymore. I’m just fucking tired. I’m tired of having to wake up everymorning and pretend that everything is okay. People say that in not alone, then why do I feel like I am alone? I just hate everything. People judge me and they don’t even know a thing about me or half the things I’ve been through. I just want to get away from everything…just away from the world. Months past and I still feel the same way. They say everything will get better soon, years has past and it’s gotten worse. The pain has gotten worse. I try putting a […]

6/5/2012 4 comments

by bethhwilkinson 5/28/2012

written by bethhwilkinson

this is really hard for me to post this.

i feel like i should. but I’m so nervous about even sharing it with people i will never know.

it started back when i was about 13. I felt really down. I didn’t really have any main friendship groups. I was having trouble with my family ad i just always had this feeling of being useless. I held a blade to my wrist. I wasn’t really sure what I was doing. I just felt like this was a way to make the pain seem real. and i still have scars there today 3 years later. This went on […]

5/28/2012 1 comment

I’m done.

by justkillme5493 5/23/2012

written by justkillme5493

everything hurts. this pain is too much. the blade races across my soft skin and i escape this terrible place for a few seconds. and then im back in this place. im done. i cant do this anymore.

5/23/2012 1 comment

My Instruments Are Calling Me…

by solace 5/21/2012

written by solace

Just had another fight with him today. That’s all we do these days.
I always take the passive side and don’t say what i really want to because i know he’ll just hang up, walk away or not talk to me.
Such a child.

All i want to do is learn how to stand my ground and make him listen but in our fights it always becomes a ***** sesh about what i have done wrong. Although i guess that’s everyone’s opinion when they are in a fight.
I moved out of my brothers today, my little niece finally isn’t around so i can cut again.

5/21/2012 0 comment

yesterday was a bad day (and so was the day before that…)

by NotReallyHereAtAll 5/20/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

Yesterday was a bad day. I woke up feeling okay, but then suddenly the sadness hit and I descended into the darkness again, thinking dangerous thoughts yet feeling dangerously numb and empty. I ended up lying in my bed for hours, too exhausted to move and too empty to cry, but too sad to sleep. Eventually, I got myself out of bed and tried to shake the sadness. I ended up in my kitchen, heating up a pizza. I couldn’t eat more than a few bites- it wasn’t exactly that I wasn’t hungry and I’m not dieting, it was just that I found the act […]

5/20/2012 5 comments

by SilverShadow 5/18/2012

written by SilverShadow

A blade to my wrist
Like a flame to a fire
The reflection of the white light
The forever emptiness saying goodbye
Filled the hole with pain
Filled the empty with blood
The pain consumes me but I don’t want to stop
The darkness torments but I won’t open my eyes
The light blinds but I won’t turn away
This is my fate
My fate and mine alone to face

5/18/2012 2 comments

Is Hiding the Answer?

by TearDropFantasy 5/17/2012

written by TearDropFantasy

I just wanna know if this is the right thing to do?

I haven’t been to school for the last three days, I told my mum it was because I felt ill. I deliberatly made myself ill so that I wouldn’t have to go. The reason is, I get bullied really badly at school all because of this boy who found out that I self harmed and that I’m suicidal. He spread it round the school and now everyone knows, I’m too scared to talk to anyone and I’m too scared to go to school. Also I have so much homework that I haven’t done because […]

5/17/2012 1 comment

The calling

by andy6226 5/17/2012

written by andy6226

It calls it does again and again
Begging and pleading sayingÂ “Let me come in”
You feel it aproaching quickening its feet
Bringing death and disaster to all it does meet

Awake at midnight you feel it’s power
Have the urge to end your hour
A slip of the blade a drop of red
Breath does fade At last your dead

The sun rises and bids the day
Your parents open the door to wake
You from your slumber and then they see
Your bloodied form has gone to sleep

5/17/2012 0 comment

im giving in

by holdingOn 5/17/2012

written by holdingOn

The pressure is building, and I am about to fucking explode, but I know that if I cut then I’ll be alright even just for a little bit while I stain my arm red. I want to die. But if death would bring me peace then I don’t deserve it. I can’t feel anymore. Does this make sense? I have gone completely numb.Â All i have is the memories of the actual emotions. but it’s almost as if they are scratching the surface, and maybe if I cut they’ll come seeping out so i can feel again.

Why am I so alone. I feel so empty. […]

5/17/2012 7 comments

Why do people say suicide is for cowards?

by Babyfacedcomputergleek 5/16/2012

written by Babyfacedcomputergleek

Ok my teacher went on a rant on how suicide is for selfish cowards. And I don’t understand how she can say this, yes its a bit selfish but I think its more selfish to make someone live when they have so muchÂ happensÂ to them and they have been strong for so long don’t they understand there is only so far you can bend before you snap? Also how can they say its for cowards they have never had to pick up the blade, tie the knot, gag on the pills. They don’t know how much courage it takes to end your life to have the […]

5/16/2012 7 comments

Dear anyone who will listen

by rainbowsh3rb3rt 5/13/2012

written by rainbowsh3rb3rt

I am NOT a fuck up. I do care. I care so fucking much. I know I don’t have scars on the outside, but inside I’m torn to shreds. Don’t you dare say you understand. NOBODY FUCKING UNDERSTANDS. I will not be dropping out of school. I will not be failing. Will you all just stop talking about it please and let me be alone?

Yes, my grades are absolute and complete shit. I realize that. No I don’t know how I’ll get them up, but will you SHUT THE FUCK UP?! Okay, I need help, I realize that. But I don’t need you. I need […]

5/13/2012 7 comments

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