So, Imma try and commit suicide today. I already have things ready, I’m only waiting for my grandmother to go out and it’s game over for me. Wish me luck, see you on the other side!
Hello. Â It’s been a little while. Â It’s testing week. Â Had to study. Â Should be studying. Â Wanted to do a quick post. Â This post is going to be dumb and whiny. Â Please don’t be mad. Â I can’t handle it when girls smile at me. Â It bothers me. Â A part of me thinks that she might like me or think I’m attractive. Â Then the bigger part of me thinks that’s stupid and would never happen. Â I really don’t know how to talk to or be around girls. Â I can’t really even handle it if they look in my direction. Â This one girl I don’t even know that […]
Well… My birthday euphoria has vanished. I’m a sad, lonely, anxious mess again. My stomach is in knots from anxiety. I can’t breathe. I’m tired. I feel nauseated.
I feel like I do everything wrong. I don’t even understand why I exist.
I have choice but to be suicidal. The razor blades are my only friends.
Fuck this, fuck life, fuck existence, fuck everything.
Bye.
okay so where do i even begin? I guess ill just start with my family before i even go into detail about me. My mother has a terrible medical history, and she passes out or blacks out many times and during this sometimes she falls and busts her head, which as you can imagine, this is very stressful and would be for anyone. Imagine being anywhere from 6-13 and seeing this is pretty traumatic. My mother cannot control these, and cannot wake herself from these spells on her own. She has had many stitches. My father is a pathological liar. He was in the army, […]
I just don’t want to live in this world anymore, I have no purpose so why still live it…
thanks for the support but im breaking down.. To people I love “Sorry I exist”
Bye, I guess…Good dreams
Every since I found this site it was like a breath of fresh air.. I was finally able to say what was on my mind without scaring people away lol And I would read other peoples post and think did they actually go through with it.?? I really appreciate everyone that commented with words or encouragement and understanding. But its my time. This will be my last post I give up. I’m tired and this time ima make sure I succeed I wish everyone luck in life
Bye
I dont really have anything to say, I just want to do something before i finish things. Be well world.
Title says what i want to say….so i’ll just add this. Live a life of independance not dependance….thanks to all who helped and (she knows who she is) love you 🙂
I have been thinking about ending my life for a while now. I guess I have been too much of a chicken to finally do it. My mom told me that is a cowardly thing to do and that if something like that were to happen, it will break her heart. I love my family above everything and everyone. They are all I have.
If end up doing it, I know I will make them sad…but I guess this is my last selfish wish.
Usually, thinking about my family keeps me going. But I managed to destroy that one thing.
I am an awful being. I am a tired. […]
Title says all. They don’t know what’s behind my blue eyes. They don’t know the troubled angry boy trapped inside this gross bleeding body
Bye
I think I’m going to kill myself tonight… I don’t have anything I feel happy for. I feel miserable. I don’t have anything to live for. I’ve tried meds, therapy, hotlines, doctors, but here I am…
I just don’t wanna live anymore. Yes I regret so may things and I want to do a lot of things in the future but not at the cost of what I have to go through everyday, depression and suicidal tendencies. I regret not showing my parents the lovely daughter I could be. I regret not being able to see my siblings’ future success in their career. I regret […]
Dear ole friend:
We were bullied together. This bonded us.
We fought with each other. This strengthened us.
We teased each other. This helped us.
Your mom killed herself. This broke us.
You won’t talk to me. This hurts me.
I wish I was your mom. Then you wouldn’t die.
But I know. You’re just like your mom. I just hope I can wait until after you die so you don’t lose two people in the same year.
I used to hate you for trying to be my friend. But you finally made it.
I’m gonna miss you. Bye…
~Me
What would happen if I began shrieking? Â And then took a permanent marker and scarred up my grandmother’s gleaming new cupboards? Â And then chucked a glass mug through the windowpanes? Â Let all that chilled air in here.
She’s cleaning something in the bathroom…I’m doing schoolwork…ooh, I’m tempted…
I need to stop this. Â A spell is coming on, I can feel it, this is a bad time…can’t concentrate. Â Gonna hurt something.
There’s a caved-in Valentine’s balloon in the living room, floating near the ceiling…ha ha, Valentine’s day…my mother was committed to the hospital on the day of love…we brought her flowers and told her through glass smiles that she […]
Hey. Look, I’m sorry. But I didn’t kill myself. I was just burying the corpse.
Tonight I’ve realised how utterly alone I am, think I’ll cry myself to sleep thinking of love that’ll never be, I’m so lonely, so frightened of the future.
I’m sure now. I bought a ticket to another place, I don’t want my parents to find out. I live in a very shitty country, so they won’t know this way. I’ll go to the mountains and eat some mushrooms, alone. Bye.
Heart Broken peoples please Try to live, change your life style if not you will die mentally or may be you’ll commit suicide like my friend did.
I prefer dont do it just dont PLEASE DONT LISTEN these tracks, they are really killing depressping suicidial song.
Radiohead-
CREEP
MOTION PICTURE
LAST FLOWER
NO SURPRISES
My friend use to listen this song when he got depressed.
One day the girl he loved he lose her he loved her like mad, she was really everything for him. She was the reason he was living, totally broken without her, girl was in love with another boy, but he […]
Thatz enough!! I cant take it anymore.
I am suiciding..right now
Bye. :'( :'( :'(
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