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Death

The death of a non-person is not sad

by goodnight 10/2/2014

written by goodnight

For years and years, since I was a little kid, I’ve been dying as a person, and at the age of 29 have only recently realized it. Call it depression if you want, but I don’t know of any other depressed people that have failed at life this hard. I can more precisely describe my condition as mistaken birth. Some cosmic mistake resulted in my birth, and somewhere deep down I’ve always known life was never meant for me.

My self esteem and ego have always been so non-existent that I’ve never felt like a member of the human race. I’ve always blended into the background, never acted the same way […]

10/2/2014 8 comments

I wish things were different.

by Kalopsia 9/30/2014

written by Kalopsia

“From where you’re kneeling, this must seem like an 18 karat run of bad luck. Truth is, the game was rigged from the start.”

That quote sums up my life perfectly.

To understand why I’m doing this, I’ll need to explain a lot. Thank you if you read it all.

2012 I got out of an Abusive relationship. She beat the shit out of me over nothing. Jealous, possessive, constantly checking my phone. If I was a minute late getting home, I was cheating.

I moved into a house I’d been buying for Us. Not being able to afford the mortgage on my own, my mother offered […]

9/30/2014 2 comments

Painless suicide

by B 9/27/2014

written by B

I know there are endless threads on this topic but I can’t seem to find a consistent answer. Does anyone know of a painless way to commit suicide (either from research or from a painless past overdose)? I do not know if I will get a response and if I do receive one I am not looking for some form of moral support. I understand that there is much to take out of life and that, as the 15 year old I am, I have not yet experienced many of the joys life has to offer, but I have suffered for too long. Medications and […]

9/27/2014 8 comments

Death by hyperthermia

by DC001 9/27/2014

written by DC001

As it gets colder I had the idea of dying by hyperthermia (freezing to death). I was thinking of when it gets real cold in the next month or two of going out in the shed sitting down with a bottle of vodka while I am wet and freezing.There is no hope for me, my life is over. Thanks to hackers and the way I reacted people all over the world are in the process of destroying my life. They are in the process of getting me thrown in jail for a long time. I lack the strength to do it so I give up. […]

9/27/2014 5 comments

Attempted Suicide

by leftforthedead 9/26/2014

written by leftforthedead

Today was the day that I was supposed to die, but I have failed once again. All week I have been getting my affairs in order, and I was finally ready to depart from this world. I woke up, went to my one and only class, and left class feeling completely and utterly at ease, and at peace with what I was about to do. My letter was written, I had said my goodbyes, I was ready. I drove home from class, and started tearing up a little bit in the car, but that quickly subsided when I realized that everything […]

9/26/2014 1 comment

Death Walks With Me my version of Footprints in the Sand.

by Scr3aming1nside 9/25/2014

written by Scr3aming1nside

Death surrounds me

with peaceful quiet.

Death opens it’s arms to me

in it’s dark embrace

I can feel my soul becoming undone.

Death walks beside me

Tempting me to come to him

with promise of forever

He tells me

I can qwiet your thoughts

for all eternity,

I can take the suffering away

And give you release.

I can stop the endless path of despair

which you walk upon

To feel nothing

To be quiet

To be Peacful

Theses are what i have wanted […]

9/25/2014 2 comments

by RoseDavidson 9/22/2014

written by RoseDavidson

My dad commited suicide.

My dad is gone.

9/22/2014 12 comments

If only it was that easy…

by DeltaX 9/21/2014

written by DeltaX

I have been around here for a week, reading posts about other people’s problems, previous attempts and their rebounds from said attempts. Some of the problems are mentioned, them being of loss, love, subject of hate, assumptions, guilt, etc. Some of these guys are well-off and loved, some perhaps aren’t. So I’ll just add myself undeservingly to the list as I vent it out in the following brief of my life.

I haven’t ever attempted suicide, I could never gather the strength to do so, but not a single day goes without thinking about it. Theres nothing wrong with my life, and as a matter of […]

9/21/2014 6 comments

I can’t do this anymore

by leftforthedead 9/19/2014

written by leftforthedead

I can’t do this anymore, I really truly can’t. The stress is too much. The pressure is too much. Everyone expects too much from me, when I can barely even get out of bed in the morning anymore. To my family I am just a failure because I can never meet their expectations. To my friends, I am a burden to have around because I suck the life out of anyone who is near me. I ruin everything that I touch beyond repair, and I am nothing more than a pathetic waste of space. I shouldn’t be on […]

9/19/2014 1 comment

whats my purpose…

by mrlopez1415 9/19/2014

written by mrlopez1415

This feeling of, ‘wanting to just die’ has last for about 4 years now. I’ve tried hanging myself multiple times, but I always fail… I use to walk down the road hoping a car would hit me. I’ve had close near death experiences from drugs and alcohol, but wonder why I hadn’t died? That raises the question to what is my purpose on this planet. Nowadays, I have no urge to kill myself, but just hopes that something would just end me instantly. So now I try to hope everyday, that a miracle (that I think in the back of my mind won’t happen) would […]

9/19/2014 1 comment

I tried

by imdrowning 9/10/2014

written by imdrowning

Well i almost succeeded in dying. I was so close i could feel myself slipping away and then i could hear them. my ex-best friend finding me, the paramedics coming in and then the hospital. in the end i guess i survived. I’m still dead inside and have no reason to live. I just need to get out of this life i can’t do it anymore.

9/10/2014 2 comments

Reached that point…

by pillarofsalt 9/8/2014

written by pillarofsalt

I cannot believe it but I’m at the point where I’m just willing to accept my death. if it comes tomorrow, day after, in the next 5 years even better!Some people say it gets better. for me it never has and now that i’m tired of hoping and trying to work so it does. I am willing to accept that death will be better than this existence. i dont know about afterlife, rebirth and shit. what happens then is another chapter but for now.. Death! i welcome you!

9/8/2014 6 comments

im not sure if this is a hello or a goodbye but i need feedback pleaseeeee!!!

by oncehaditall 9/6/2014

written by oncehaditall

hello there fellow SP readers im in need of some advice or guidance im so lost right now and for months the only solution to my problems is suicide.

My problems: Legal issues- im looking at some serious time for a crime im innocent in

Because of my legal issues im out of a really good job and i cant afford my bills and have missed many payments now

Im gonna be paying for my lawyer for the next 10 years for something i didnt do

everyone in my town hates me because of the way the media portrayed me and i cant leave […]

9/6/2014 19 comments

Life haha

by RoseDavidson 9/5/2014

written by RoseDavidson

I´m total failure and I know my life is heading nowhere and I lived in endless hope, but now the hope is totally gone and I don´t want to live anymore in this freaking world .

9/5/2014 3 comments

The Coward’s Way Out

by Zander0451 9/1/2014

written by Zander0451

I’ve lived the last 5 years with severe depression and I’m sick of everything. Why should I bother anymore? To quote Macbeth; “I am in blood stepped in so far that should I wade no more, returning were as tedious as to go on.” My life is miserable at the moment, has been for a long time, and likely will be for alot longer. I’ve even found that I’m too useless to even help myself; when I make commitments to myself to make a change for the better I always break it and find that I’ll always be the coward I swore I’d never become. […]

9/1/2014 6 comments

Failed at Death

by EvilKitten 8/31/2014

written by EvilKitten

Last week I slit my wrists, all the way up my arms, multiple times. Anywhere I saw a vein, I sliced hard and fast. Amazingly it didn’t hurt. Earlier that day I went to the store and bought a brand new kitchen knife, for exactly this purpose.

I’m still alive. I cut myself so badly that I turned my bathtub full of water dark red. I saw the blood spurting out of my veins. I wished for death. Irritatingly, my veins stopped bleeding after only a short time. So I found veins on my legs and ankles to slice up. I’m fair skinned, so finding them […]

8/31/2014 8 comments

Death as a Function of Time

by Engie 8/29/2014

written by Engie

I may never die. Someone else wearing my DNA, the telomeres shorter — a body built of different atoms; a different organism will die in my stead.
What are we from moment to the next? We are already gone; lost in time. An instant passed inexorably; an individual altered irreversibly; life exists only as a continuum of perpetual chaos.
You are an individual existing for just a moment with the previous moment’s memory.

8/29/2014 9 comments

My CrossRoad

by -innerdemon- 8/25/2014

written by -innerdemon-

I am 18 years old, I am a recovering intervenes drug addict , I was shooting up morphine and oxy cotton when I was 16 resulting in shooting up heroine at 17 , just months ago I came to Nova Scotia to become sober , in all honesty I travelled from one province to another to make some money selling my ass for some cash, it turned bad and I ended up showing on my Aunts doorstep , strung out begging not to send me back to newfoundland. where the depth of my addiction began , Eventually things began to change around here , I would […]

8/25/2014 6 comments

Such Small Hands

by roomsofthehouse 8/15/2014

written by roomsofthehouse

“I think I saw you in my sleep, darling,
I think I saw you in my dreams you were
Stitching up the seams on every broken promise
That your body couldn’t keep.
I think I saw you in my sleep.” -La Dispute, Such Small Hands

I’m 19 and constantly thinking of suicide. How I’ll do it, that which will trigger it, and sometimes I wonder how people I knew would react to it. My reasons are nothing new and if anything, are probably shallow. What I assume would cause me to finally take those last few steps into the grave that I wish to lay in, […]

8/15/2014 5 comments

Why movie , game , novel , comics , book , anime/manga , human’s IMAGINATION is FAR much better than this boring Reality / real world / real life ??

by niki 8/14/2014

written by niki

Why movies is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why video games is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why novels is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why comics is much better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?
Why anime/manga is better & more interesting than this boring Reality / real world / real life ?

in conclusion :
Why human’s IMAGINATION is better & more interesting than this boring […]

8/14/2014 6 comments

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