“The death and I are playing hide and seek”-nobodyknows__
I hear voices in my head
I believe fairies dwell in flower beds
The night is a mystery and not my friend
For I see things at every corner and end
I cry for four days a week
Because of blame and sorrow my heart can’t keep
My dreams, like everyone else, have gone
Because they too are tired to go on
I don’t believe I belong
Life has been singing that to me like a song
I am a poet, but to everyone my poems appear
To be of sadness, yearn, insecurity, and fear
There’s a new voice in my head
That says I’d rather be better off as dead
But since I’m still present
And death may seem […]
Hello. I would like information on euthanasia. I would like to know how to go about requesting to be put to permanent sleep or be assisted with the medication. Please help. I do suffer from depression. What is the cost and how effective is it? This not a 6mnth prob or 1 year prob for all d losers who think they opinions on how precious life is matters. I am tired of feeling d way i do for so long. Went on medication n seeing a doctor. I jus want things to be peacefull and the way it can be like that for me is […]
Highly unlikely…… I know. But I am getting creative at this point. I have heard their teeth are so sharp you only feel pressure and I would hope adrenaline would take care of the rest. I could swim alone at the beach at night and temp fate lol. Shark week is coming up afterall.
Hello. My name is Django, that’s really all I’m willing to share. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been highly suicidal. I once threw myself at a mugger with a box cutter, knowing I’d probably die, and he only got my hand. *****. Ive had people look me in the eye, tell me to die, I go to do it, they save me. Ive never had a good relationship, ive ruined every friendship ive ever had. I work about 16 hours a day and that doesnt stop the thoughts. My ex girlfriend and I had a child together, and she despises me, and […]
Life is shit. We all know it. And painful. I don’t recommend killing yourself because it messes up anyone close to you. My wife killed herself nearly 3 years ago and I am still dealing with the trauma. What I recommend is not having children.
The cathars of 10th 11th and 12th century languedoc believed that conception was the greatest of all sins. I agree. If life is shit we should refuse to replicate ourselves.
The best way to give life the proverbial finger, is to see it through to its bitter natural end, and all the while refuse to give it what it really wants from […]
–Fictional work of a delusional nobody—
Hello and the fact that you’re reading this means that you were the poor unfortunate bastard who found my body(i’m terribly sorry about the mess the envelope in my pocket contains money for a cleaning service and there business card).
Now on to business shall we, where were we , ahh yes you’ve found me, now im guessing you are wondering why what could have possessed me to do such a thing well I hate to dissapoint you but im not completely sure why i did it either there have been many factors that have lead me to my decision but […]
When I pray, I pray for death. The scars on my arm cry for recognition. Recognition of a cause, recognition of a solution. They draw attention, but never a consolidation. One would have to care to consolidate. They never cared about me or my pain. The pain that draws me from sleep, the pain that crushes my soul. The pain of never knowing a real family. A family to call my own. A family who’s veins run with the same blood . A family begot from love and trust. I never knew a family. I never knew a mother. I never knew a father. She’s […]
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I used to have such a passion for life. It breaks my heart every time I realize the extent and speed in which it’s dwindling away. What a waste. Agony grips my form when my thoughts turn to the past and I see what I once was.
All I want to do is go back, because I don’t believe in my future and I don’t believe in myself.
I like this song, listen away.
I find myself crying. It seems to be the only thing I’m constant and good at lately. I find myself bursting into tears moment after moment. I try to hold on to those moments of clarity when my energy shifts and my ideals and desires seem so clear. But I can’t, this wave of pain seems to catch me over and over again and no matter how hard I paddle it strikes and submerge me into it’s darks waters.
I feel lost, confused and covered by this dark shadow that rarely allows light to come in. I tried once to commit suicide, in a moment of […]
I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,
though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,
I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.
So I will simply yield this Inquisition:
Why not?
The hour grows short; hasten your responses
I have been thinking about death a lot for the past two months. I feel as if my life has been going down hill. I lived abroad for almost 5 years (12-17years old). I made most of my friends during that time and due to some circumstances I was forced to move back to the USA. I’ve been back here for almost 2 years now and I have no friends. I do have a boyfriend, but he has his own life (family, friends, school, etc) . Where in my case, he’s my life. He’s the only one I can talk to besides my family. I […]
I don’t want to die I just want to be scared and if that means dying than that’s fine… I’m not afriad of committing suicide, I’m scared if I were fail… What people would think of me.
I’m new to this so don’t even know if the box I’m typing in is the box I’m supposed to be typing in and I realize that nobody probably cares/will read this but It feels great to get it out so here goes.
I’m Jess, I am 17 years old and I am on my summer holidays from school now. Over the past year I have just grown to be so disapointed in myself and I jst feel worthless. I self-harm and I’ve told nobody about it. I understand that it is necessary to tell people about it and to find help but although my […]
I’m stuck in my life. I just got into a fight with my parents and they told me I stink. They’ve been hinting that they don’t want me living here a lot lately. I could hair get a job and move out but I’ve ruined my life at 19 because I have drug charges against me. I was smoking weed on campus and I got caught. Actually I was smoking because I thought the weed would make me feel better…. It doesn’t btw. Weed makes me feel even worse. I hate me man.
I am young. The love of my life recently left me a few months back, my friends left me too because they did not want to deal with the tension between us. Suddenly I am gone, I am not there anymore. I am in my twenties and in college, my parents say perhaps the best thing for me is to move to a new city and start again. I can live with my mother in that city and need not to worry about society, which I have totally withdrawn from. Maybe they are right, maybe they are not. The pain is excruciating. I cannot describe […]
It’s all funny because.. I’m so tired I’m probably delirious, right? And that’s what makes everything seem like such a big joke. And I’m sleepy tired, I’m emotionally tired, and I’m mentally tired. I’m tired of walking on the road of *life*, walking down one path until it splits between a good path and a vile one and I always take the latter. It’s not like I can even choose, it just happens. A friend of mine said he never believed in fate, and I whole heartedly agree. But I also so strongly disagree. Life is something you have control over. You make the desicion […]
Hie,i am new here.And i have planned to die.Or rather,planning to do so.I have read quite a few posts here,and i believe that there is a lot of frustration,self-unworthiness and bitterness amongst each of us.
I am an 18 yr old,just completed my 12th.I have been feeling depressed since,i guess,6th std.That was the time when my father came back from oman coz he lost his job.Since childhood i probably have been a girl with a lot of self-pride.Most importantly,i always needed validation from others as to who i am.I believe that it is due to my own weakness;my inability to accept myself.Anyway,so my problems started in […]
I explained in my last post how many of my problems are congenital: that i’m extremely stupid, unattractive, physically undeveloped, and have no personality. The pain from this reality is escalating and i’m becoming increasingly angry at the world for it’s lack of empathy. For example, I’ve been to the cinema twice in the past two weeks and on both occasions people sitting opposite have laughed at me and called me a spastic/retard because of the way I stare at the screen and snicker repeatedly at funny moments because I’m too afraid to talk. I’m sick of sales assistants and security guards who glare at me […]