This is my first time posting. But I am feeling kinda suicidal right now. I was on medication for like 7 years, I dunno I guess I was just naturally depressed since a very young age, but now it’s been 6 months that I’m off it. I honestly feel like killing myself now, cuz I can’t feel shit in my heart.. I have a girl and there’s lots of people and friends that really care about me.. But nonetheless I don’t feel much.. My daily schedule is like a bit fucked, try to keep busy but not much going on.. Just waiting to go off […]
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I will be 15 in 3 weeks. My depression started when i was 13. I began to start cutting myself. Now i have scars left on my arms as a memory. The last time i cut was in December. I would cut whenever something would really upset me. Then when i was 13 my mom implied that i was fat so i developed an eating disorder and i lost 30 pounds from that so far. I have not recovered from either. I have a tendency of relapsing. When all of this began someone came into my life and he tried to help me. He was […]
HI. I’m new here. I don’t really know how to open up just yet. The only thing keeping me fro killing myself, I’ll be honest, is my dog. My depression is a daily thing. I hate myself. I don’t believe it when someone compliments me. I’m tired. Of everything. I wish the ground could swallow me up. I don’t know what to do anymore. No one understands.
People tell me it’s al my fault.
Everything.
That depression can easily be controlled and easily healed.
They don’t know the half of it.
People leave the mentally sick and tell us to become independent, but the physically sick get a hug and they’re told that everything will be all right.
Why isn’t someone on my side?
I go to doctors appointment, talk to therapists, meet with advisors, get my medications and pay for it all. All by myself.
And I’m not even 19 years old yet.
Why isn’t there someone telling me that I’m doing something right?
I don’t do everything wrong, do I?
I’m still human.
Just like them. I’m not any different. Just […]
My name is Jessica. I am 13 years old and I’m a very sad person. I’ve hurt loved ones, been hurt, and been abandon by the only people I’ve trusted.
When I was 6, my parents split up. It was a very hard time for my brother and I. He was only 8. I don’t really remember much, just one day I came home from school and my father told me that if he and my mom got into one more fight, he was leaving us. The following day, he kept his word. They worked out custody and all that, and I lived with my mom […]
Here I am. In bed. Listening to music. Hoping I get some thought I can keep going on with that hopefully doesn’t involve incest, joining the Army, or anything else that may cause an argument. I just don’t need to argue, I’m ignorant. I just don’t feel that it’s worth it.
I feel bad that my cousin is using me as a role model and I’m in love with her, yet she allows me to remind her constantly and she seems willing to do as I please. I understand I shouldn’t take advantage. I’m merely dwelling on it, no need to talk about that.
I […]
my boyfriend’s friends and brother laughed at me for not being the way i looked and not hot??
and he laughed along with it.
We’ve been together 2 years and i thought he understood what i went through when i hear those things after my long depression
and low self esteem. I thought he’d understand because he’s been called ugly most of his life…
and i told him he didnt thats why i fell in love with him, he’s handsome and great.
And ouch* to laugh along with them about how i looked really brought me down.
You would think someone you cared for and loved would treat you good and […]
At one point I’ll put up a pic of myself so you all can see me. But basically I’m a half n half puertorican African American suicidally depressed self injuring 6″ tall 150 lb Afro-headed atheistic16 y.o. guy. There isn’t a thing about me people accept. Black people get stereotyped in my community, and the only Hispanics any of my neighbors know are the ones who cut their lawns. Next there’s the depression. People treat it like it’s a contagious disease. Like I’m some sort of freak for being suicidal or depressed. Then there’s the SI. Cutting n burning already are mass-comedicized. I get […]
I can’t say that my parents are divorced, or say that they fight or that I’m unhappy with anyone. But there are some things in my life I would like to change:
1)Make friends.
2)Stop cutting.
3) Recover from my endless depression.
My parents they are ordinary parents. They want the best for me. To go to University, get a good job and have a loving husband and children.But sometimes the pressure gets way too overwhelming. What if I mess up in high school? What if I don’t become doctor? What will happen then? I let my parents down, who sacrificed everything for my well being.
Sometimes I […]
What happened to us? What happened to the world? Why is this site filled with  so many of us technically healthy people trying to destroy ourselves?
But do we blame the world? Or do we blame ourselves? Am I depressed thanks to unbalanced serotonin? Am I suicidal because depression’s genetic and mine is confusing? Do we blame science? Do we blame society? Do we blame each other? Is it the fault 0f previous generations? Did our parents feel this way? Is it normal for a teenager to feel tired of living?
So many questions surround this topic, and it seems to me that the core question of […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
I’m 22 and I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember (apart from a few months
where I was generally happy). I’ve had 7 counsellors in my time and I’ve told each and
everyone of them exactly how I feel, how long I have felt it and how I see the world. But
each time they have either done very little, put me on meds (which actually brought me
closer to killing myself) or simply tell me that they just can’t help. I got to say, I do feel
like no one can help. Which I think is a reasonable response.
I’ve come to a point where I realise […]
I am a 39 year old woman. I have a roof over my head, four cats who love me and a fiance who begs me to move here from my home in Albany. I long to be a part of a family again. WE are both addicts though and I fear this will be done in vain. Im not sure what’s worse though…going home to my empty apt. where my children don’t live due to my depression, it’s dirty as I have given up the desire to clean, I don’t wash the way I did, make up and professional haircuts don’t […]
i wanna become an actor/ err maybe an astronaut/ psychologist….eventually when i get better
I have ADD, severe social anxiety issues, i’m scared of people I’m a high school dipout due to loosing friends/paranoia (i have one close friend)from depression due to selective mutism, Im paranoid, some OCD, I’ve had a past some mild sexual abuse…I’m a loner, use to be suicidal, use to think of it everyday but now im better.(i’ve attempted it),I might have avdp, and maybe social ptsd I can be really sensitive but I always bounce back. I’m a mad genius, usually a step or two ahead. I am kind of random, […]
Depression is every where all around me ever since i moved away from my family seven years ago ive never been the same.
last year on the 28th of september something happened that changed me forever.. i flew down for my birthday that week to visit my dad and his new girlfriend. But you see me and his girlfriend got off to a terrible start due to the fact she’d never met me and was telling me i needed to go on medication when she didnt even know anything about me or my life.. Dad explained to me that she herself suffered from depression on was […]
the amassing depression. the self-loathing, self put down. the little voice in my head telling me that i should just kill myself and be free. my fucking straight edge calling me from the drawer. my psych meds transforming into an image of freedom. fuck fuck fuck!!! how wonderful it would be, the bus driver not being able to stop in time. or the gun salesman not knowing my true intention. fuck here come the fucking tears. the kind of sadness that make me feel weak and lonely. except for the fact that i am alone and lonely. i’m a pathetic excuse for a human being. […]
Do you love your Cat? Do you love any music? Do you love to write? Do you love a good movie? Even if you answer no at this moment to any of those questions, is the answer yes at other times? Depression is like having your outlook switch switched to negative and the only way you can see your world is thru glasses of boredom or hate. This is not the Full and Real You…it’s like a mean alter ego that’s trying to destroy you…don’t let it! You can outlast the depression monster, and other folks are here to help u do that! Just keep […]
I’m already dead… there is no life left in me…. my boyfriend hasn’t talking to me in a week. and i need him the most right now… I’ve been getting lots of head aches so i take advil… but i always take one more pill then needed… i know this probably isn’t a good thing… but i just want all this pain to go away.
i went to see my counsellor today.. we talked about how i have been feeling. i finally was able to tell her how I’m in so much emotional pain and i just want it to go away!
my mom and sister fought […]