Warning: This is extremely long, wordy, and unimportant.
I was just thinking.. Where did my anxiety come from? I used to be extremely outgoing. What happened?
Fuck my life….
I know it sounds very cliche. I know everyone says it all the time.
I super hate myself right now.
I can’t believe that depression is ruling over me.
I feel like my conscience is trapped somewhere in my mind.
Illogical feeling rules my body.
I used to think that I can overcome any obstacles. Little did I know, I was super naive. When my freedom has been taken away from me, I broke….
like a fragile glass being smashed to pieces.
My dad passed away in March. He left so many unfinished business and also a huge sum of debts. I was […]
9 months has passed, the baby was ready to be born. The mother went to the hospital and the amniotic liquid started running through out her legs. The doctor called her, come on, go to bed, everything will be alright.
The mother is worried, she is not feeling the baby movements. She looked down her tummy and felt it empty. There are other people around her, everybody is telling her that she is ok, she just need to be patience and wait for the long hours of labors. But she is insisting, please, he is a good doctor, but I trust more my doctor from the […]
anything anyone plz just ended everything is just pointless
Im tired of people saying everything is gonna be okay.. It’s not its really not. I’m tired so tired.. My dad won’t help me and my sister out. We’re gonna…. We’ve lost the apartment annd were gonna be put on the street.. And its like he doesn’t care. He helps sometime but this is a dire problem.. And everytime we bring up the topic he just ignores us. He pays my step moms rent and lights but he can’t even spare 350 for a deposit.. I’m tired I’m going to shove this. Knife so far up my wrist vain. They won’t be able to save […]
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I love it- the way it sweeps over my skin in sheets and washes away what was before. I love the way it coldness bites into my skin and makes me forget everything for a little while. I love the way it smells- the wet earth and trees; it smells like what life should smell like.
On the other hand, I hate it- all I want to do it cut myself away into nothing…
Who knew water falling from the sky would be so thought provoking lol
Sorry if this makes any of you sad, lovelies. I just had to get it off my chest 🙁 I hope […]
I have made a decision, one that I hope I won’t be hated for because ill be doing that already. I’m going to give my daughter up for adoption, I’m going to be homeless soon, I still can’t get government assistance much less housing (it’s very hard to come by) and the cold weather is getting worse. My daughter can’t live like this anymore, my job as a cashier barely does anything for us I wish I could work full time but it’s only me who takes care of my baby. Her father loves her but is a deadbeat. He says he’s focusing more on […]
why is it that it hurts so much that the loss of the love of your life, kids and marriage just make you want to die?
does anyone else think like this?
nothing I do seems to take the pain away. I’ve followed all advice concentrate on yourself, give her space, your a good man you will find someone else. I know my problems compared to others including on this site seem small…but to me at least this is everything…yes I have a good job, two fantastic kids, I’m fit and healthy, good friends, but even with this I’m still at rock bottom! What is wrong with […]
Welp. I’ll be 20 on November 6th. I came to this site to talk about. I don’t know. My feelings and shit I guess. To get a different perspective, that’s what I told myself. I honestly just wanted attention. My plans haven’t changed. Actually, when I had friends and someone who “loved” me, I used to say that I wanted to die. I meant it, but I knew I’d never do it. I should’ve never told them because they got tired of hearing me say that. They got tired of me.
Now there is no one. I’m empty. I feel nothing except when I think […]
sometimes you know that you are nothing but a big joke for someone who means the world to you , the one that you see the light within his eyes
you are a big JOKE to him … you are a fucking joke to him a fucking nothing meaningless nothing a joke he laughes at then forget
and you are the IDIOT fucking stupid enough to still loving him and caring about him and living just wishig to have a chanse to be something to him
something more than that big JOKE
he gots all he needs in life why would he needs you
friends places to go to mother […]
Some of my friends been calling me selfish for not being open and how I didn’t even share about what’s been bothering me. What they don’t realize is, it started with sadness but after a while I can’t even explain what’s wrong with me. Even if I do tell them everything, I already know what’s their comeback is. Some of them will be telling stories about how they struggled more before and come out alright. Some of them giving their successful friend as an example. I mean, really? I seek for any listening ears to my problems, my woes, my concerned, my sadness, my suicidal thoughts, […]
My mind isn’t always the happiest of places, even when I try to stay positive. I literally spend my days skipping around, humming happy songs, telling people “everything is great!” telling people to stay strong.
By the time everyone is in bed though, I feel rather hypocritical.
My mind barely lets me rest, it reminds me of everything happening; everything that has happened in the past. Even with all the time that has passed, things still get to me. They’re like little demons just trying to tear me apart from the inside out.
I think of what my cousin did, and have to get up and take an […]
What do you do, with the pain – the despair. When you come to believe that it’s not just a passing phase, or something for you to overcome. When it’s been 8 long years rather than 6 months. When your hope is gone, and you can’t think of anything else to try. When you come to accept that this is who you are, and likely always will be. When doing even basic things is a struggle, because nothing seems worthwhile, and your brain won’t focus on anything.
When you won’t end it, because you can’t do that to your parents – who sacrificed so much, and […]
I quit my job thinking i would be able to make something for myself. of myself. that i would be able to use what i create to support myself. now i see. i cant do this. i cant cope with being alone with my thoughts. i was just on another fucking high. and now i have crashed. i wish i could really see this up down fucking bollocks for what it is… it’s so obvious when i’m coming down, but every time i come up i genuinely believe that this time its forever, everything is better, everything is good. its bullshit. i ALWAYS fall back […]
sometimes i cant think about anything but death
but when i see the one that smashed me and raped my heart before my body seeking my death
i say that i will not surrender i will not fade
i will be stronger than all that happened to me ,, i will never break ,, maybe i am already broken and feeling death through my vines
he wants me to die
and i will never help him to be pleasured
i will smile i will laugh i will be strong and forget everything about my pain
i will never ask to be dead again and never think about it ,, i will kill […]
Excuse the Selfie. I’ll explain why that’s here momentarily. Just bare with me.
How do you know if you’re falling?
Is it the wind rushing
Or your bones crushing
As you stop so abruptly
Is it the pain in your ribs
The numbness in your fingertips
Or the light fading slowly
How do you know if you’re falling?
Is it silent whisper
Or gentle kisses
Under the cover of the night
Is it soft touches
And sweet nothings
Almost inaudible sometimes
Which way am I falling
Am […]
I can’t stand being in love with the most gorgeous and sexiest man alive because he’s untouchable and is forever doing everything in his power to find the girl that fits his mile long checklist of criteria she would have to meet to be perfect in his eyes, when I’m right here by his side wishing I could touch him. This is torture and I can’t turn off my feelings because I’m so close to him and I’ve never been so close to anyone before. I really wish it would go away or that I could switch it off. It still makes me want to […]
She stands there, the darkness stains her skin, turning it form it’s normal tan color to that of the darkest night. It runs over her skin like droplets of blood. It misses every scar, every last cut on her skin. It terrifies her, this darkness, but that terror is intoxicating, as intoxicating as that first bottle of whiskey she choked down. As intoxicating as her first pill, as her slow fall into this hell. The woman never meant to let this happen, she swore that she was too strong for this to take here down. She was strong goddammit, and she was normal, she had […]
I.. ugh.. everything’s getting worse.. i could use someone..
Text me or kik me.. please.. its in a previous post..