hi whoever you are first go over my story i am a girl from my Pakistan and recently done my o levels . you know what i have every thing for like iPhone closet filled with clothes and whatever you think high class pocket money but you know body could understand me you know just a minute ago my dad beat me harshly cos i was fighting with my brother how in the world a dad could beat his 17 year old daughter . i am just tolerating oh yeah i had a fight with my mom and i screamed in front of her this morning […]
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I have been a lurker for a very long time. Reading your stories has been very cathartic for me. I don’t want anyone to have a miserable life and I wish we all had great ones but unfortunately that isn’t a reality for most of us. Life is hard and very unfair. I like that this site allows us to share our thoughts and feelings without fear. I am very depressed myself and life has been hard. I can’t find many reasons to continue on but I am too afraid to commit suicide. I’ve come to terms that this is it for me, that my life […]
I feel cornered.
The past six years of my life, I’ve been telling myself it will get better. My friends, my family, the various therapists I’ve been to, they all say the same thing: it will get better.
But now that I’m here, I realize it’s not going to get better. I’m going to be crippled by this black hole in my mind for the rest of my life. There’s no cure. I’m not interested in leading a life marked by this strange, hellish pain. I’m too tired to put up with it anymore. As much as I want to love my life, there’s simply […]
I would smile to friends and family for the longest time. I would smile like nothing was wrong to keep people away from asking whats wrong. I kept that smile up for the people who thought my life was perfect. Nobody knew the pain N suffering I had to go through to get to where I am now. I’ve walked a thin line from never getting caught to hey what happens if I get caught. During that time I was N still am suffering from PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, and mood disorder. I watched a family member do things to me that I should […]
I’ll be moving in two weeks. I’ll be moving miles away from the place I only knew as home, my friends, my boyfriend, my family. We have to move though, and I know I can’t do anything to stop that. All of the “friends” I told didn’t care, they responded with texts like “Oh.” “That sucks,”. I don’t need someone crying for me, but it’d be nice to know someone cared. We’re moving to my moms’ boyfriends house. He’s a real asshole and I have a hard time making friends. This new state and school will take alot out of me, and i’m afraid. I […]
I’m probably not your typical person on here. I am 27, good looking, smart, funny, outgoing, have a wonderful family who I know care deeply for me and who have and would continue to give the world to me. My parents are still together, I was never abused or neglected. I have 2 sisters who at the drop of a hat would stop whatever they were doing to be by my side. I have a good job. My co-workers turn to me for everything. I am an aspiring musician and have had songs on the radio. Yet I feel so empty. So lonely. I delt […]
I honestly wish I could be one of those pretty girls who everyone adores and compliments all the time.
I wish I didn’t get criticised by my own family every single day to the point where I wish I didn’t exist.
I wish I was the perfect person you’d see on the street who loved her life
I just wish I didn’t have to do so many things to get people in my own family to smile or laugh or even try to make them like me.
I wish people liked me for me.
so I try to kill myself about a year ago by hanging myself needless to say it didn’t work my roommate walked in on me and stopped it I went to a rehab center shortly after which didn’t do shit all It was, was drug addict and I was no addict so I removed myself and started therapy which I also stopped doing. the feeling never went away and I’m lost in what to do I still wanna die but can’t tell anyone about it I saw the effect on my family before and all I can think to do is leave town and do […]
The past few months have been utter hell. The love of my life dumped me and since we have the same friends, they all dumped me too. I used to live in a house with all of them and now I am out cold on my own. I have done absolutely nothing to my friends to hurt them, yet they have been cruel to me for no reason and ditched me. They were my friends first. They ditched me because they couldn’t be assed to help me out, he wasn’t hurt, so oh let’s all side with him and leave her for the rats. I […]
Hello, sorry to bother you all but I am in need of advice. I honestly don’t know what to do do anymore. I am personally just tired of everything. I do not wish to go on living. I have actually felt this way for multiple years now. I even made a post on here a few years ago. People tried comforting me and saying it would all get better soon. A few years later and I’m still contemplating the same decision.
I’ve been struggling to find a stable job with a reliable source of income. I do not usually feel any emotion. I don’t want to […]
People seem to be constantly posting their stories on this site in the hope that people will just read and acknowledge each other’s difficult life stories so I thought, as I am no different in wanting to be heard, I would do the same.
I legitimately don’t have an extremely difficult life so I’m not really anything to feel sorry for. I’ve had a rocky (to say the least) upbringing from my father but my mother and rest of family have always been really good to me. School for me (I’m 18 now and I’ve finished Six Form (senior years(?) to you Americans)) was just me […]
I’m not sure why. I just feel so surrounded by death. why are people in my family dying but not me? I know I’m fucked when I die, God will be so disappointed.. but why am I still alive? I have a good family, a few good friends. I’m not ill. I’m just so worn out and depressed I don’t see the point in life. it’s all so temporary.
used to ask God every single day for 38 months straight in jail to just kill me. lost who I thought was the love of my life. but I got past it and felt better. now I […]
A documentary about depression and suicide. It follows a boy from birth to his suicide. It shows how powerful depression is. He started talking about and planing his death by the age of 5 and succeeded at the age of 15. It even showed that it was multi generational in his family. For people that don’t believe, you will see how strong the pain is and the struggle to hang on to prevent pain to loved ones seems unbearable.
There is a monster in my mind
He comes out when I’m alone
He tells me that happiness is a lie
And death’s a better home
He shows me all the hurt
I put my family through
Every mistake I made
He says “Its all on you”
He has never spoke a lie
He tells me how it is
He says that if I would die
I would no longer be his
The monster in my mind
Controls my every […]
Vietnam, July 24
I just came back from one failed year studying in France. After one year, I realized that I didn’t study what I really wanted. So why, why did I go ?
The first thing my father noticed, when I stepped out the door of the aeroport, frustrated having to leave the solitude on the 12-hour flight, was that I did not greet him. He took no time to inform my mother about my misbehavior. A good child should «know your place», and I know that very well. But I hate good boys […]
Hello, My name is Destiny and my birthdate is 05-121996
My childhood growing up was less than pleasing…for me any way. My mother met my father when she was 18 and they messed around…a week later he went to jail for theft and she found out she was pregnant with me. You see my father was a drug dealer/user, a drunk and abusive. When I was born he accused my mother of being a…player and said there was no way I was his. He beat her mercilessly. 2 years later my sister Kayla was born, he held no doubts seeing as he married my mother and […]
I was happy everyday I would be happy playing with my friends and family then things changed I went into care and I just felt so lost???? I didn’t know what to do I was in year 5 when I begun cutting it tore my family apart and they would check my arms for cuts they wouldn’t check my legs though in year 6 things became a lot better I was bullied for a while though in year 7 my depression took over I would cut until my arms and legs were red I smoked and did some drugs I didn’t know how to stop […]
Suicide.
A word whispered in our home on and off over the past 30 years. I attempted suicide when I was 17 and almost succeeded. I went on to ‘be normal’ with threats of ECT and other drugs. So I tried to act as ‘normal’ as one possibly could with the childhood I had. I watched my mother be beaten to a bloody pulp, moved so many times I lost count, was molested and have never felt like I ‘belonged’. Eventually I started going to church which helped a lot and the panic attacks subsided and I went on to earn a […]
Not depressed coz somebody died. He was old, never knew him well, he was my paternal uncle, he barely cared for his own kids let alone me.
I braved my social anxiety to attend the funeral. I had an idea what it would be like, and I’m not sorry I went. I was dreading being asked what I do etc. That didn’t happen.
No, I was a part of something, accepted and my presence unconditionally valued as I am a family member and this branch of my family are very keen on family.
It was a nice short service at the crematorium, and there was no God stuff, […]
I don’t even know where to begin.
I don’t even know if this website is still active.
I just, there’s some thing weird going on inside me and I don’t know how to explain it.
I’ve been suffering for 6 years, depression and anxiety. PTSD.
I sometimes feel like I’m getting better, but then suddenly… I’m just not.
I don’t want to die, but I feel misplaced here. I find myself crying to go home… but I am home. I’m in my bedroom, but I still cry for home. Home is where the heart is, but where is my heart?
I hope I don’t violate the rules on this website. Please, […]