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D day plus 100

by cronic 5/14/2015

written by cronic

Have a plan in place. Will have my house empty, clean, and pay as many bills as possible, as well as debt. Going to take vacation few days before. And any money left over will go to family.

Still working on the final note, but for sure don’t want services, just creamation, quick and easy. Only one person I want to say a few thing to first. BuT would only make me feel better, and her ask herself if she should have seen it commimg.

Going to slowly die, over the next 100 days, doing my best to show the world everything is peachy. And going to […]

5/14/2015 3 comments

them.

by insteadshesaid 5/14/2015

written by insteadshesaid

We all have that one person don’t we. They keep us going, most of them don’t even realise it but shit they help us. Mine is fantastic. They make me feel important and valuable, possibly maybe after time, they could make me happy (happy is a big word for me so I don’t tend to use it when reflecting on myself). This person never has to try to lift me up because knowing their existence is in my presence gives me life. The way they talk with such intellect, their mind, fuck their mind is so beautiful. Logically, I love this human.

But unfortunately it’s contradicts it’s self.

I’m on […]

5/14/2015 1 comment

I hope you’re happier now L.

by alonelybird 5/14/2015

written by alonelybird

I wanna make you
Feel less blue
Because maybe then I wouldn’t feel that way too
I wanna hold you tight
Tell you it’ll be alright
Coz we’re together
Now and forever

That’s a poem I writ for my girlfriend when we were still going out(we’re broken up now though). I was too negative for her so she left.

5/14/2015 3 comments

Empty Shell

by LynnsShell 5/13/2015

written by LynnsShell

Something about this so called life that I am living seems artificial. As if I am the punch line to a very cruel joke. I’m overwhelmed more often than not about what it means to take my own life. In my mind it’s simple. Numerous ways to end my suffering or finish the joke before I’m thrown down a whirlwind of continuos pain yet again. I’m suicidal almost daily. When I think I can handle taking my life I know I can’t and I break down at the thought of leaving behind loved ones. I would tell a therapist but that would get me committed […]

5/13/2015 2 comments

by godbless 5/12/2015

written by godbless

I’ve been thinking a lot lately and maybe life isn’t for everyone. I mean life is too hard for me. I put myself in my parents shoes a thousand times and I just don’t understand why they treat me the way that they do. Even more questioning is why I care about how they feel…but I admit I do care how they feel. I know what it’s like to hurt and I wouldn’t wish that even on those who caused me that pain. And i know that it won’t hurt them.They have other kids and already have grandkids from my half sisters. There is actually […]

5/12/2015 2 comments

Asphalt

by cephalus 5/11/2015

written by cephalus

I am the asphalt. You drive over me. Barley recognizing my existence. Composed of hard rock and soft tar. What do you see? I have many flaws, many pot holes. Is that all you notice? Still, I get you to work everyday. I suit your needs, your whim. I am around at 3am, when you feel a sudden need for chips and salsa. I am there the next day on your drive to work or the club. All you notice is the divot that inconveniences you. Your tire slamming into it. No harm done, an annoyance at best. You curse at me. Still, I will […]

5/11/2015 6 comments

Know Your Unconscious Attitudes

by MoonShine 5/11/2015

written by MoonShine

Though our evaluation of another person may feel rational , it is heavily informed by automatic unconscious processes. Know your subconscious attitudes through Implicit Association Test(IAT). Click on this link below:

https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/takeatest.html

It will only takes few minutes. Choose the topic.Somewhere you will get two pages of questions. they are useless.don’t answer that questions to save your time and click ok 2 times without answering the questions. Then read all and take the test. And don’t to forget comment your results.

An attitude is your evaluation of some concept (person, place, thing, or idea). An explicit attitude is the kind of attitude […]

5/11/2015 6 comments

Venting

by kissofdeath10 5/11/2015

written by kissofdeath10

I don’t post a lot, but right now, I just have to get this feeling out of me. Sorry for the melodramatics…

I don’t just wish I was dead; I wish I had never born. I hate that I am such a burden, such a waste of resources, such a disappointment. I know that most others don’t look at me and see that. They wouldn’t agree, and that should make me feel better. But really, it just means no one knows me. If they knew me, they’d see what I see. I work so hard at everything I do, and I just feel like I get […]

5/11/2015 3 comments

My Recent Story

by rayne123 5/10/2015

written by rayne123

Hi, my name is Elli but it’s pronounced Ellie. I’m going through depression and self harm. If you would like details about this, comment what you would like to know. At this point in my life i’m almost numb from pain and I’ve lost many of my friends. A few are there for me but I just feel like they don’t understand me. If anyone else is experiencing the same thing as me or if you just need someone to talk to, please comment. I just got this account and I want to know if there is anyone like me out there. I just feel […]

5/10/2015 34 comments

God is boring . boring God . why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ? why God is boring ?

by niki 5/10/2015

written by niki

God is boring . boring God .
why human’s imagination & fantasy is better than God boring reality ?
why God is boring ?

I hate this world . I hate this life . I hate life .
This world is so boring , boring world !
This life is so boring , boring life ! life is boring .
Why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than this world / better than life / real life / real world / reality ?

everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, […]

5/10/2015 3 comments

A faithful wife

by WiltedRoses88 5/10/2015

written by WiltedRoses88

That’s all I have ever wanted to be; a faithful wife. Sadly, having had you in my life, this will never happen. The only desire in my heart for my entire life has been to simply devote myself completely to someone else and now I know that this will never happen. The depression and anxiety have been eating me alive for years but I hung on with the hope that I would eventually fulfill my dream. Now that this can’t happen, I struggle to even get out of bed in the morning. Oh, I have also since developed bulimia and attempted suicide (though the last […]

5/10/2015 4 comments

I want my past to not be my burden but my strength

by VioletRabbit911 5/9/2015

written by VioletRabbit911

I don’t know if I can handle this anymore… I’m tired of the way I’m living right now; I have so much on my chest right now, I want to let it all out.

when I was 5, I went to a Christmas Eve party at my cousins house. I was very bored so my mother told me to go find my brother that was with my cousin in his room. so I went over there and they were playing video games. I felt sleepy so I decided to go on the bed to rest. As I was laying down, I didn’t realized what my cousin would try […]

5/9/2015 5 comments

Two

by the-lord-of-the-lamps 5/8/2015

written by the-lord-of-the-lamps

I don’t even know if I like being alone or not. Sometimes I want a friend, but other times I remember how impossible that is for me. Maybe I just want someone to talk to. That’s probably why I’m posting on this site, anyway. I don’t like feeling alone. I know that much about myself. I kind of feel like I’m walking on my own plane of existence, and nobody else can even see me. Like my world and the world everyone else lives in overlaps like a one-way mirror. I can see everyone else and know they’re there, but they can’t do that for me.

Whatever, […]

5/8/2015 5 comments

what’s wrong with me??

by lost_hopeless27 5/7/2015

written by lost_hopeless27

Sigh.where do I begin…I need help from someone to tell me what is so wrong with me?? Every time the clock hits 6 pm I start to feel very depressed and I don’t know why…no matter how hard I try it will always be there sharp at 6 pm…right I feel very useless 🙁

5/7/2015 4 comments

I think I’m becoming an alcoholic…

by OddOneOut 5/7/2015

written by OddOneOut

I can feel it. The pull to take a beer or any other drink I have every night, when the thoughts come creeping up. The sweet, blissful promise of release from the voices in my head and the cool, refreshing feeling as the liquid touches the back of my throat, giving me a sensation similar to falling into the arms of someone who cares. They won’t shut up, so I drown them. Just for tonight, because a permanent way to shut them up doesn’t seem to exist. A constant battle, day after day, always ending in my twisted, ironic victory. Like fighting a bomb – […]

5/7/2015 1 comment

Lost New Girl

by Lostreadergirl 5/5/2015

written by Lostreadergirl

I am the outcast. I always feel like no one will notice if I am gone. When I go to high school I feel so trapped then I go home and I feel extremely alone. I never feel like I belong anywhere. There are moments where I came so close to committing suicide just I get scared. I get scared because what if I do it and it isn’t any better on the other side what if I am even more alone. My family life just is terrible and my school life is so much worse. I have to pretend to be someone I am […]

5/5/2015 2 comments

Can’t

by FeelingFunny 5/3/2015

written by FeelingFunny

I destroyed my vocal chords screaming the other day. Never been this bad. I can’t even sing to make myself feel better, and it’s already been two days. Can’t talk, can’t yell at anyone, lol. Think I might of done permanent damage .

5/3/2015 1 comment

Please read

by Mylastwords15 5/2/2015

written by Mylastwords15

If you are on this site you obviously feel suicidal. But I have something to say. Reading the comments something had come to my mind. Most of you post something saying your bad people and worthless etc but by reading the comments it came to my mind that your all good people. None of you deserve to die because your helping others. I read some of the comments on my posts and honestly it made me feel better and like there are people out there who care about others even though we don’t know eachother. This world is full of scum but people like you […]

5/2/2015 7 comments

A painless way to go

by happymanlady 5/2/2015

written by happymanlady

I have done many substances in my short 22 years on this planet , overdosing several time. From coke to pills , but by far the easiest was heroin.

my friend shot me with a huge dose and I immediatley lost all connection with reality. I could not feel my body I could hardly see , I couldn’t hear or taste . My senses were literally taken from in an instant. You would think this sensation would he scary but thankfully I remained somewhat oblivious to my state. Looking at the panicked expression on my friends faces. My conscious was pushed to the back of my […]

5/2/2015 2 comments

Feigning emotion

by ceaseless_echo 5/2/2015

written by ceaseless_echo

In conversation, I constantly have to guess what emotion I’m supposed to feel, then try to act it out as best I can. I’m very afraid of being discovered in my callousness and indifference. When something bad happens, it’s scary to think that someone might find out how little I feel for others in their misfortune. Joy, of course, is completely absent.

When others are feeling emotion it seems like a curious and alien thing to me now. It’s like watching someone perform a physical feat of strength that I’ll never be able to do. I used to feel emotion in a normal way, but I […]

5/2/2015 6 comments

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