So…the one person i trusted…i spent almost two years working hard to stop cutting, stop drinking, stop hurting myself for someone I though i could trust…in three words he destroyed everything. I’m back to nothing. i have nothing. i am nothing. But do you know wahts fucked up most of all? I love him. i fucking want him here I want to hug him and never let go and feel the pain go away like it used to when I was home but I can’t cos I can’t even look at him. His name makes me want to bleed out every ounce of blood because […]
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I can’t stop thinking, my mind is going a million miles per hour.
I can’t help but thinking that my time on this planet is coming closer and closer to the end.
Who cares about the other people in your life who might be “hurt” if you just kill yourself. They don’t give a fuck about you or your feelings while you’re alive so why should it matter when you die?
Do they ever stop to think of the kind of emotionall distress they put on us? If they really loved us things would be different. Hopefully they can keep in mind that suicide is […]
Iknow that this might sound cheesy, but it can hurt more th an you think…teenage heartbreaK.
I know the topic is weird to think that somebody would attempt suicide over it, but it happens to me a lot.
The first time my heart broke was when I asked out a guy who me and my friend I guess really liked but yet she still encouraged me to ask him out. So after school I walked up to him and asked him out he said no. Now you’re probably thinking m well can’t you find somebody else the answer is no. I can’t just get over […]
So i’ve been posting on here for a while. Â I hope no one is getting annoyed with me. Â I just write and write. Â But it gets my feelings out, and to people who understand.
My doctors appointment is tomorrow. Â And I promised myself and distant.road that I will tell the truth. Â Which scares me witless. Â Because the truth is I am questioning whether to be here and the truth is I am hurting myself throughout the day every day and the truth is if I had the means today I would probably end it.
And I know what she will say. Â And I know what I say […]
have you ever felt left out? have you ever felt so unwanted? My bestfriend has said and started rumors about me and wont answer my texts, but I know shes there. people call me a ginger, im not A ginger i just have a red tint to my hair! it seems like they all hate me and that the world would be better without me. ME is a word i thought was pretty, smart, nice, and funny but it turns out at night I find myself crying and thats not ME. I want the things to back to the way they were last year, everything was perfect. this […]
Feel so cold you burn?
Its like every nerve is being. Electrocuted at once.
Each time I get that look from him.
Like scum of the earth is better than me.
All alone surrounded by people
Humiliated disgusted ashamed to be me.
The feelings you send me reciprocated.
Why am I so in love with someone who hates me more we everyday?
I guess I must be that worthless of a person because he is all I have.
I do my best but everything is wrong.
What do I hav e to do to be worthy of love?
I don’t need to be like anymore.
Just not […]
I guess this is what complete sadness feels like…to be completely hopeless(hope is only magical thinking anyway). I know why I pushed my ex away in those last few days. But, I’ll never know when or why she decided to leave(she was “gone” before I pushed her away); everything is an assumption.
I know you said if it was true love then I’d do everything I could to find it again, even with someone else. But, do you remember what you said to me when you were separated from your wife and living with Friend B? You said you would never love anyone as much as […]
I wouldn’t say I want to die, or commit suicide. I just feel like I don’t want or belong to this world. I’m seventeen and I’m halfway through my a-levels, the only place out of this dump and I’m not getting through it very easily. This place is horrible. It’s so unambitious and it eats at me. My dad’s messed up from the result of his past drug issues and is on medication. He has serious mood swings, and when I get home from school I fear seeing his car on the drive or the kind of mood he’ll be in when I get through […]
Every now and then I catch myself getting lost in my thoughts. I know Im not the only one, but at times I feel that I do it more than some. My paranoia will kick in, I start getting lost in the thoughts, and ideas that it brings. I catch myself thinking that this and that are true, but deep down I KNOW that they are NOT true. This has gotten worse within the past couple of years. I know that the thoughts I have are not true, but I often think what if that is, what if that will happen? When this first occured […]
Last year at school i was on top of everyhing and i ad geat friends. This yeear my bsstfriends ditched me for a different bestfriend and i ty not to are but i cry everytime i listen to a song i think relates to me and her , i ant stop not caring. I have tryed talking to her but she is just shutting me out and she was my bestfriend and lots of hurtful words have come from her mouth towards me. And even my friends told me she hasnt liked me. And everyone at school is calling me a ginger, it […]
almost every week i get called ugly either once or twice. im a very nice person, i just dont know why people call me such mean names. today this boy really hurt my feelings, he said “your ugly if i called you cute id be lying…” but this same boy keeps asking me to have sex with him and asked me out twice! i know he doesn’t think im attractive but.. that broke my heart and it was in front of the entire class… middle school was hell, my “friend” posted my picture on facebook next to monkeys and ET and EVERYONE commented on it […]
I want to spread love and peace. I am so happy that we all have this site to go to, to talk about our feelings! At least we all should know we are not alone in our situations. If anyone ever needs me, i am alweays there to just listen and not judge. promise. I may not understand but i will listen.
Yahh. Everyone asks that question. “Are you OK”? What do you think Im going to say? You expect me to just completeley scream out my feelings.. No! Im going to say “Yahh. Its all good”. Well. I used to. But I need to tell someone my feelings.. Im only 12. I live in Florida, and my stepdad and mom moved me away from my family in Minnesota. 🙁 I have a 5 year old little sister who looks entirely up to me.. And my mom is pregnant with a boy now. I want to kill myself. I might. Im in the seventh grade. I went […]
Over the past two years I have been with a girl named Ashlyn. I’m going to go ahead and tell you the whole story of how “we” happened.
Ashlyn has a brother that is 3 years old. He drowned in a pool one afternoon while the babysitter was supposed to be watching him. His name is Brody. Brody is now on a vent to breathe and has a trach. He has been in a coma for 2 and a half years. Ashlyns mom- Jackie hired a team of nurses to take care of her son. Selfish right? Jackie believes that since everyone has granted her sympathy […]
i haven’t been on for a long time but it was only cause i thought i found my reason to live… my boy friend, but just an hour ago he told me he had feelings for his ex still… sins then I’ve been wanting to kill myself… are song just came on and its wanting me to do it more. i understand that this is just a part of are relationship between us but i cant help but feel this…  i know im not going to do it.. for him. </3
Past a few weeks after crash with me and my Love. I divorced with him, he didn’t with me. Really insane situation. He still needs time and time after time making some short conversation, but as a real Black Scorpio i am living my life without him and not hoping anything.
Before this boyfriend i had a very very very very very big symphaty. He is so great: very funny, smart, working as a reanimatologist, so beautiful, but… usualy he’s just bastard – telling everything what he thinks and talking very dirty things. Last summer we’ve been dating, but he never kissed me as french or […]
Hi,
I don’t come on here much-some of the replies I get actually make me feel worse. But its the only anonymous place I can express my feelings without fear of being locked up or talked down to(well,as I said earlier,some on here continue to,but its easier to ignore a post than a person LOL!!)
Anyway,I’ve almost made it to my trip to Australia,so yay me!! for hanging on. I am going solo, and plan to have an awesome time. After that,I’m going to give myself the ultimate reward.
I have absolutely nothing to come back to,and my life is going to be a thousand times bleaker upon […]
I also read somewhere that for people that believe in re incarnation (not sure wat I believe in) that if some one commits suicide they most likely have done it in anOther life. So that got me to thinking maybe I gave don’t it..if its true..and maybe I’m supposed to since I have such strong feelings about it. Then ill live again in another life only with no knowledge of this life and maybe everything will be alright
Well if the title doesn’t say it all today sucked for me,well this is what happened. I’m on my break idk why but yea a week of no school ends today 🙁 I decided to hang with my best friend J and my girlfriend A and we started off at the mall ten we went to A’s house and stayed there a while. While at A’s house I was texting J’s crush B and we started secretly talking and A asked what we were saying and I int know what to do so I said no because B used to be her ex so […]
No one cares I know that for a fact.. All my friends that are close to me didn’t even care when I said I was going to they didn’t even try and stop me at all. My gf did something that she knew would hurt my feelings and then she reverses the situation back on me and blames me for her actions… I lost all my friends to be with my gf and now she’s acting as if I should leave.. I used to be alone and I couldn’t handle it and I was thinking about leaving this world and I tried to once and […]