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Sad eyes

by snowmaiden 1/27/2015

written by snowmaiden

If only I was well, I can leave it all behind.

I am not, I’ve been robbed of my life.

My project gives me anxiety, it overwhelms me. Talked to more people, getting more people involved. They don’t know I am suicidal and very depressed. They don’t know that I need to give up. They don’t know that I will fall apart any moment. The truth is, I don’t think I will make it to finish what I started.

I don’t want to die, but I can’t live a life without a future. It pains me so very much that I have to give up […]

1/27/2015 8 comments

I want to protect my brother

by Melancholic 1/23/2015

written by Melancholic

Hello,

I am a girl that now lives a life like any other citizen and do not have any particular horrible family problem — so far, at least. But I have kept on noticing how my brother seems to be mistreated in the house, as I on the other hand kept on being spoiled and cooed with by my parents. I keep thinking it’s very, very unfair for me to have such attention and for him to always be frowned at.

What makes me think he is mistreated is because every single time he voices his opinions, my father and mother both would reply with […]

1/23/2015 2 comments

Empty

by Beautya 1/21/2015

written by Beautya

Can anyone else relate?

Lately ive been feeling really empty inside.. not really sad but just empty. Life feels meaningless and boring.

1/21/2015 9 comments

My very first actual date

by ClairDeLune 1/19/2015

written by ClairDeLune

Meh. Not sure what I should think about it. I mean I enjoyed it, we got to know each other better and I think she had fun too. Even though there were a couple of moments where neither of us said anything and it was kinda awkward, but not as bad as the usual awkward silence I get when I’m nervous. Speaking of, I’m glad I wasn’t actually as nervous as I thought I would be. But I’m not at the point yet where I’d say the “ice is broken”. Usually when I get to know someone new I can tell pretty well when that […]

1/19/2015 14 comments

Life and other crap

by depressednihilist95 1/19/2015

written by depressednihilist95

I hate how if you don’t go to college, society deems you an “idiot” or a “failure” in life. I tried college, but it just hasn’t worked for me. It’s too fucking depressing. Everyone that I knew in high school seems to be in college, all giddy with their friends and entertaining lives. I have nowhere to go but into the limited career world that I’ve been bred into, and I’m not expecting much. I can’t do anything for long, because I become bored and just want to sleep and never wake up. Therapy is going pretty poorly. My last meeting with my therapist was […]

1/19/2015 0 comment

Impossible Girl

by impossible_girl 1/18/2015

written by impossible_girl

I have a job as a seasonal tax preparer. It’s not great, but it’s a step into the accounting field. I’ve started this semester with an unprecedented 3.86 GPA. I’ve never had higher than maybe a 3.20 in my almost 34 years of life before this.

And I’m empty. Broken. There’s a highly specifically shaped hole in my heart and in my life. A life that is falling apart around the edges. The check I postdated to pay for one textbook will bounce. I can’t pay for the other at all. There is no more help from […]

1/18/2015 1 comment

by Pretend Girl 1/18/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I already know what giving up feels like. I want to se what happens if I don’t. Neila Rey

A quote that I found at https://www.facebook.com/revealthesecrettosuccess

1/18/2015 1 comment

by hellblau 1/17/2015

written by hellblau

My tears can’t stop falling,
And it feels like dying.
Please someone tell me how to stop loving someone so much. So fucking much. Should I tell him? I don’t want to lose my best friend ever. I’d prefer to be miserable for the rest of my life instead that he stops talking to me and treating me like his best friend.

1/17/2015 3 comments

What to do, what to do

by ClairDeLune 1/17/2015

written by ClairDeLune

So this week I went jogging with that girl again and she talked about her studies and that she’s taking a programming course as well. I said if she needed any help she could tell me even though I didn’t think she’d actually take my offer. Today she asked if we could meet up for an hour so I could explain some stuff to her, and in return she said she’d invite me to have lunch with her at some restaurant downtown. We’re gonna meet tomorrow to talk about the programming stuff, and I’m not sure whether she’ll want to go have lunch right after […]

1/17/2015 25 comments

Who am I?

by Kira 1/14/2015

written by Kira

I just feel numb and cold. My skin feels tight and i feel like i’m suffocating. Why am I here? What am i suppose to be doing? My head feels heavy trying to figure out what path i should follow. What is Life suppose to be like? i should want what other people do right? Family, Love, Success? But i don’t. It doesn’t lift this heaviness in my chest that feel everyday. it feels suffocating to me. That can’t be all there is to life. I feel like i was born in the wrong time. Maybe i should have never existed and should be wiped […]

1/14/2015 1 comment

I still wish for you…

by wronglove 1/14/2015

written by wronglove

I’ve dealt with a lot of trauma and terror in my life, and there was only one thing that kept me remotely sane… A love for one person.

I grew up with very limited options and fewer trusting individuals. Everything I was taught in the educational system were lies, especially on moral standards. Even my family disowned me the moment I was raped…

But one person stuck around when I needed them most… and then they decided I wasn’t good enough to be with them…

They lied to me, leading me on making me believe that there was ever a chance between us, only to find he never […]

1/14/2015 6 comments

hitting the hurdles

by tphg 1/13/2015

written by tphg

I used to be so good at the charade of living (going to work, paying my bills, staying fed, keeping up appearances etc). Now, every moment is a fight. I have no will to maintain my life anymore. Being at work feels like a joke. I want to jump in front of a train, but instead, I ride it to the office everyday. Why? So that I can maintain my lifestyle until I die.

I frigging hate living! Oh my god! Every moment feels like gravel in my bloodstream. I spend most of my waking hours doing things I’d rather not be doing, and the rest […]

1/13/2015 4 comments

Right now I need…

by TrisPrior 1/12/2015

written by TrisPrior

Someone to talk to, to listen, understand, care… I may die any day now, but I wamt someone to care for me and miss me. I need someone, Anyone. I don’t care who! Just someone who feels the numb, the pain, the sorrow, the hurt… Anyone thete?

1/12/2015 5 comments

A lonely anime fan & advocate of the right to die (m,42) is looking for a significant other

by Brightshadow 1/10/2015

written by Brightshadow

Probably I’ll be flamed by some people here, but the chances are – if nothing changes, in a few years I won’t be here anymore anyway. I guess, it’s better to regret having tried something, rather than regret not having tried it…

Why post it here instead of trying some singles / dating sites? I tried it. I won’t go into details, otherwise my post would be too long.

I’m looking for a soulmate. People believing in the right to die and not scared of death […]

1/10/2015 15 comments

Meet my counsellor…

by theWhispersOfMySins 1/10/2015

written by theWhispersOfMySins

…Charlie Chow Mein. His fees are reasonable…some daily catnip and treats. And food. Lots of food. Fresh water. Belly rubs. Ear rubs. Toys. A $300 cat post(ikr! It was on sale for half price) that reaches the ceiling and takes up most my living room. Attention whenever he wants it. And I have to share my food. He likes deli meat, vegetable crackers and coconut flavoured yogurt. So worth it though. He keeps all my secrets, lets me cry all over him, he feels nice […]

1/10/2015 7 comments

Internalisation

by disappearingme97 1/8/2015

written by disappearingme97

It was hard then to get out of that mental state. I don’t want it to come back. It feels like it’ll overwhelm me completely, this time with newer with harder demons, more temptations.

It is after all, just the circle of life aye ?

So, do I risk everything thus far and let go of the grip keeping my head above the waters?

Sigh.

Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it’ll be this hard, I’m going back to the start.

1/8/2015 1 comment

“Forgotten” and “Unimportant” – You Are Not Alone

by L4Y 1/7/2015

written by L4Y

For the longest time, I have felt like someone who just “doesn’t matter” to hardly anyone. I am generally someone who is forgotten about and it seems like I’m simply not worth most people’s time or friendship. I will admit to not being very outgoing and am certainly socially awkward much of the time – hell, you could even make a case for describing me as “creepy,” I suppose – and I used to feel that these things had a lot to do with it. Quite honestly, though, I do wonder if there is something about me that is actually not related to those characteristics […]

1/7/2015 2 comments

Text Message to my Mother

by lightsintheair 1/5/2015

written by lightsintheair

I truly do not understand the point of my life.. for a long time now I haven’t been able to picture a future. Like I don’t have one, like I’m meant to die young. But I just recently found out that that is actually a symptom of my ptsd. Which was kind of disappointing because it doesn’t change the fact that I still don’t see my living past a few years and honestly I’d rather not. I don’t want to live anymore. I’ve been feeling like that for years and the more time goes on the more intense it feels. I do not see a […]

1/5/2015 11 comments

Failure + Fraud

by internethandle 1/4/2015

written by internethandle

I have always been a failure. For most of my life I have been successful at convincing others that I have things together and know where I’m trying to go and what I’m trying to do, but I have never known. Any successes I have had have stemmed purely from luck and circumstance and any situations that I have been deprived of either of these has led to certain failure and a complete inability to function like a human being. And in many of those circumstances where I did get lucky, I was either discovered a fraud or imploded the situation myself out of fear […]

1/4/2015 12 comments

“I think I’m breaking down again”

by bluerabbitheart 1/4/2015

written by bluerabbitheart

Even with my eyes shut tight, I still see it coming now.

I need someone to talk to. I’m apprehensive of calling a suicide hotline, as I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital when I did that half a year ago or so… I sent a message to the staff of one of these suicide hotlines yesterday (you can do that on their website), but it will probably take them a few days to reply.

No, this isn’t the first time I’ve felt my depression tightening its grip at the beginning of a new year… but it is the first time my “post NYE depression” has been […]

1/4/2015 35 comments

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