I’ve been battling with an unknown illness since I was 23, on and off, and because I also have health anxiety disorder neither my parents nor my doctors have ever believed me. It took me a long time but I have an idea of what is going on and I think there is little hope I will live the year. I believe I have SIBO which in turn causes chronic infections, especially in my prostate, which hurts so bad I wish I were dead. I’ve been feeling better for the past year but the symptoms have been getting worst the past 6 months, IBS, rash, […]
I have been passively suicidal all my life. I know, some say there is no way, but I remember wanting to die at 7. I was not abused overly much. My dad a little to harsh with corporal punishment. My mom never said I was stupid, but she always gave me a look or used a tone that said I was stupid. I guess she had no patience. idk. I was always depressed. Borderline personality I was told once, but never stuck with therapy. I have had more jobs and sexual encounters than I can remember. I just can’t stick with anything. Then get all […]
So, hi all, I’m new here. That sentence in itself sounds whack enough to qualify me to be here, eh? I was reading the Read This First – Actively Suicidal subsection & noted how well it applied to me. I feel that my coping resources are next to nil. Never had good ones, but with so many stresses going on I can’t even seem to get the ones I have to work. I feel like I’m drowning in stress…ready to snap.
Fibromyalgia, OCD, Binge Eating Disorder, chronic depression, plus all the regular stressors of life…just can’t seem to cope. Trying…struggling to keep lips above the water […]
Full-alert here, if you are going to try to bash me, insult me, or talk me out of this, please leave this thread. I am not asking for your judgement or opinions. You are not me, you have not lived my life, and so you have no right to decide what I should do with it Second warning, this is a very long post. Please bear with me.
Okay, after getting that point across, I was wondering the certain fatality doses for prescription medications. I am trying to garner as much information from people as possible, so if you know any other websites/forums where I won’t […]
Imagine this if you will. You’re transgender. You grew up in a poor, abusive household where you lived in constant terror and stress. Your parent-captors told you if you didn’t tell CPS they would pay for you to go to school, but they meant the terrible community college in the neighborhood. You are disabled mentally and physically. You have chronic pain from fibromyalgia and a back injury, and migraines constantly. You’re completely broke because no one wants to hire a young transsexual much less one that’s disabled and doesn’t even have a degree yet because you were homeschooled by incompetent idiots and completely fail at […]
I can’t remember her ID, it started with an “E” like edenformosa or something like that. I think she suffered from fibromyalgia and could never feel fully rested. Helium wasn’t working for her so apparently (others confirmed) she jumped of a bridge (Seven something bridge). The post may have been deleted but I just wanted to express how sorry I am that she was forced to jump, something she explicitly didn’t want to do. That is extremely cruel. There should be easier ways available. Peaceful ways, affordable ways. Â Thanks.
I have dealt with chronic depression and severe anxiety for years. I also have two neurological conditions, fibromyalgia and narcolepsy which give me horrible pain when I’m awake and horrible nightmares when I’m asleep. I feel very alone and there’s a voice in my head who says that it’s not worth it. I have pain pills in my bathroom and I know a handful of them would make all the problems go away, but I don’t take them. My mom lost two out of seven kids plus her husband and I don’t think she would take me dying well. I am not living for me […]
I’m female, 33. Married, 3 kids (b13, g11, g9), 2 dogs..and a cat who thinks he’s god. I’m a childhood abuse survivor. Physical, sexual and emotional.it was done to me, primarily by my mother. Didn’t have any siblings, father wasn’t around. It seems the sexual abuse hurt the most, though I know the emotional is always there as well. It’s that voice in the back of my head telling me that I’m stupid, fat, ugly, lazy, no one wants me, I’ll never amount to anything. I’m worthless, horrible. I’m only good for sex.
I’ve been a full time student since 2009, but had a breakdown this […]
My name is Lyndsay & this is my experience in hell on earth.
I’m 20 years old, female, college student.
The craziest year of my life started August of 2011… Right around my birthday…. It seems like my birthday is a celebration of the worst times in my life. It’s like oh joy but not why you might think.
I was attending college and living at home with my mom and little brother. I had known that my mom had an addiction to pills all of my childhood. This has caused more problems than you can imagine (example seeing her go through withdraws and throwing […]
I am so frustrated and heartbroken right now. My poor little dog is 14 and I took him to a new groomer today. He was absolutely fine before he left, but when I picked him up he was crying and limping. I thought ok give it an hour because he might be stressed out and his arthritis might be acting up. Well when we got home I noticed how swollen he was. Shortly there after his back leg went completely lame and he cant walk at all. I called the vet and they couldn’t get him in, she suggested the emergency vet or to take him in […]
If you have fibromyalgia, then you can understand the pain, the never ending pain that stalks your life. The pain that comes at night, the pain that comes when your child tells you a joke and you are unable to laugh, the pain that comes when you see that your pain prevents you from an activity with your wife or son. When the pain first came, I didn’t know what it was. I thought that I had a cramp in my left shoulder which led to my neck. From the first time I felt the pain, to when it began to immobilize me, took only […]