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Pointless. it’s all pointless.

by Nihilism000 6/26/2015

written by Nihilism000

My posting on here has grown more frequent. So I apologize about that.

This post is pointless, I’m alone, lost and scarred. (Not afraid, scarred as in scar, for any grammar nazis out there, and I know your here haha).

So I’m going to sit back here, and sip on some wine and play the piano to the tune of my misery. Moonlight sonata, the only song I can play start to finish, I really should find the time and learn some more songs, hmm I might do that actually. Let me get a buzz first.

Nothing like Chopin to play my sorrows out to my hearts content. […]

6/26/2015 17 comments

Seikatsu (life)

by Kin Getsu 6/25/2015

written by Kin Getsu

what do you think of life?…
has it treat you well?…
are you happy the way your life is?…
everyone knows that life is not perfect….
who knows……
is yours?
if it is then I’m happy for you..
if it is not then I do hope you find your way……
see ya…….
in the next life……

6/25/2015 1 comment

its a big decision

by stormfall 6/25/2015

written by stormfall

I am taking some time to be sure but in a few weeks getting affairs in order visiting familiy i think i may. The means are all too easy to aquire. I just dont want anyone i care about to find me.

6/25/2015 5 comments

i wish i could feel like this…

by stormfall 6/24/2015

written by stormfall

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xo1VInw-SKc

Ive always fought but this time i am tired feel defeated and do not see how i can get past this. Every other time i could find my fight song… this time i just dont feel it in me.

6/24/2015 2 comments

society

by nomorepain461 6/23/2015

written by nomorepain461

i knew it. The only reason that the doctors didnt know what they were talking about was because they were doctors that treat poor people. The really good doctors know what they are talking about, but they require insurance and money. I deal with a caseworker, and she is a very judgemental person. She thinks i cant find a job cause im crazy or something. No, the reason i cant find a job is because i was the only person in my family to go to college, and i didnt realize what to do in college to get a great job. I didnt network and […]

6/23/2015 2 comments

Please help me find a way to die

by Icefox205 6/21/2015

written by Icefox205

I’ve got nothing left to live for. Everything I had I gave up for wanting something I really believed in, now that too is gone. I cannot continue living in this depression. I’ve tried sleeping pills last week but only woke up two days later, feeling like more of a failure for not even being able to kill myself. Cutting is not an option. I was thinking of driving out to the beach at night, taking another dose of sleeping tablets and then going into the water once I feel the effect thereof. I cannot keep breathing in this miserable existence any longer

6/21/2015 4 comments

mixed feelings smoothie

by RealTalk30 6/15/2015

written by RealTalk30

This post is about a girl..
For the first time since my fiancé left, I’ve found myself between a rock and a hard place. I’ve been fortunate enough to date a couple girls since then, but they weren’t meant to be with me for various reasons.
I’ve spent too much time making friends in a bar atmosphere. I’ve questioned my own confidence and let go of a lot of insecurities. I’ve learned what I should say and not say, what is relevant and what is and is not who I am.
I still need to fix myself and get my shit together.. but […]

6/15/2015 9 comments

Getting Ready

by genesis0987 6/15/2015

written by genesis0987

I already picked a method. I’m going to strangle myself with a belt. I want to do it right now but I’ve not left any notes, or organised my belongings, haven’t written a will.

Could anyone advise me on how to do that quickly and tell me what’s the best place to go to once I’m done preparing everything? I don’t want to do it at home because I don’t want my parents to find me.

6/15/2015 8 comments

10-14-2010

by Sammi6xoxo 6/13/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

Rest assured i cannot think
Close your eyes begin to sink
kiss the hand of fear so sweet
let this silence be my treat

hear the voices in your head
let them fill you up with dread
they can get inside your mind
tell me now what they would find

would there be a shining sea
would it turn black from all the grief
where does this train of thought lead
are you ashamed for me to see

let this silence be my treat
kiss the hand of […]

6/13/2015 12 comments

Skin

by Moggie 6/13/2015

written by Moggie

Fat. Awkward. Uncomfortable. Would love for it to end. To find peace with myself.

6/13/2015 3 comments

Love.

by hellblau 6/7/2015

written by hellblau

I’m falling in love,
But something feels wrong.
Something about his words,
Feels like lies dressed as love.
I need to find a way to explain
How I really feel about this pain,
I don’t want to get hurt again.

6/7/2015 1 comment

Message to No12run2

by Pretend Girl 6/5/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I’m writing to you here because I wanted to be sure you got my message. Sorry I couldn’t respond earlier- no internet at home.

I’m sorry you are facing homelessness, depression, loneliness, hunger AND finding a place for you dog! This is a lot to deal with!! I can understand how terrible loneliness is- I am too. And the feeling of not knowing what to do, esp, when options are few? OH ! Not something I’d wish on an enemy.

So, what can you do? I’m glad you posted. Venting it, journaling about it can help.

When I read your words, two things that strike me. Finding a place for you to […]

6/5/2015 0 comment

against her

by silvermoon 6/4/2015

written by silvermoon

As soon as I leave my place the world is against me. I can’t take it anymore. Stigma of mental illness and suffering. I am still six years old and highly sensitive. I long for a family and someone to care, who is there anymore. What is the best way to go home, I ask myself.

I’ve got to find a way to be ok, and I cannot.

6/4/2015 0 comment

I don’t matter much I know

by nobodysperfecttt 6/4/2015

written by nobodysperfecttt

I tried to save myself from me I tried to find ways to find peace I try to find happy bcuz happy won’t find me.
Every reason why I shouldn’t be here has arisen.
Depression has crashed down like icicles.
I will continue to cut all over my body as a signature of All the pain I have and can endure.
In the meantime I promise not to hurt those that hurt me in a way that they would hate themselves to face this too.. I just want peace for myself.
Waking up and Breathing is the hardest. It takes that peace away from me. […]

6/4/2015 0 comment

help

by aaabbbc 6/1/2015

written by aaabbbc

I’ve never been on here before but I wanted to know if anyone knows the least painful way to end your life I dont want my family to find me in a bad way

6/1/2015 1 comment

selfish

by Overmorrow 5/31/2015

written by Overmorrow

How do I do this? How do I say the things I want to? My whole life I’ve been told I come second- to everyone and everything else. Not even second, dead last.
I’ll never be good enough for anyone, no matter what.
I’m just a mistake. A failure. I’ve tried so hard, but I’ll never make it. I’m too lazy and stupid and selfish and stubborn.
I’m not a good person, at least not anymore.
People might have called me kind once upon a time, but that’s long since been replaced by ‘cruel’ and ‘arrogant’.
Heck, I […]

5/31/2015 2 comments

Draw me a fucking sheep

by ninelives 5/28/2015

written by ninelives

Idk. I’ve been doing very well lately with college and diet.

I meet this guy 3 months ago, thought he was my friend but we become closer and it didn’t work out at the end. Too bad I know him and his intentions enough to realize how predictable can be everything when it comes to misunderstandings. I guess I don’t like him that much if i can’t deal with the whole situation. I didn’t wanted to be with him in a romantic way anyway, it ruined everything, wish i would said “no” at the very first chance. We had a good laugh though.

So, again, i meet […]

5/28/2015 3 comments

i love them

by paingoaway 5/24/2015

written by paingoaway

I love those two so much. they are why im here. i dont have many people and its a cold world out there. i cant find a job, and im tired of this. i miss my friends on this site. i dont want to die. but, hey, at least i wont grow old. i love u all.

5/24/2015 2 comments

by living_LIFE 5/21/2015

written by living_LIFE

I’m really considering hanging, the tools are easy to find, I’m tired of it all life is just so hard on me,I honestly don’t believe it will get better have lost all Faith and I Hate every fucking moment I am still alive . I feel that my mind is so messed up and destroyed. Why can’t I just be okay again . Why……..

5/21/2015 9 comments

This Song

by majesticwalrus 5/18/2015

written by majesticwalrus

I’m pretty sure I listen to it at least 5 times a day. A while ago I could say whatever I wanted to say, now I can’t find the words for anything. This song though, the lyrics describe my current state better than I can. And now I’m going to stop typing before this turns into a rant.

5/18/2015 4 comments

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