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Inspiration Motivation Skills

by anthropophobia 4/26/2015

written by anthropophobia

Mastery is the term they use for acquired skills that are rewarding in my group therapy. I am 26 years old and have literally acquired zero skills. Getting into something and really learning it requires a inspired or motivated person. The thing is, no goals really motivate me, and I am unable to find the inspiration within myself to accomplish anything.

I explore things I might like to learn, and then I attempt to immurse myself in the content of the subject, and I quickly find myself overwhelmed. The overwhelming nature of the entire situation just discourages me. Maybe I don’t have the confidence in myself […]

4/26/2015 12 comments

Just random….

by serenityseeker 4/26/2015

written by serenityseeker

okay, so i was just writing a post that gave everyone all the information that could possibly need and then some about any reason I may have for feeling blue. I had to stop myself mid way because I realized it wasn’t even helping me out. I was boring myself! Instead, what I am going to try to do here is just blurt it all out. Say what I’m feeling, maybe add a reason or two, and then move on to the next whatever comes to mind. I’m hoping this does at least a little something for someone if not for me.
3………………3………………….2………………………………….2……………………………………2……………………………..1…………..GO!

worthless. I […]

4/26/2015 5 comments

Gotta Go. Now.

by Sammi6xoxo 4/25/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I have to get out of this state. I need a fresh start. I need something new. Something stable. I want to find love again and I’m not going to find that if I’m misserable. I need to love myself before I can love anyone else and I’m trying so hard to make that happen. I Have to find a way to support myself before I can leave. That’s the fun part. Right? Wrong. Getting a job in a new state isn’t easy. But I have to. I need this. Am I wrong for moving so far away from my mom after all she’s done […]

4/25/2015 5 comments

That time again

by bluesun 4/25/2015

written by bluesun

I bottled it last time. Something stopped me. I hope I have more courage this time. The thing that stopped me last time is gone now. No more. Destroyed. Just like I destroy everything. I don’t feel now which is a blessing. I really can’t take anymore. If I’m lucky by this time tomorrow I will have found peace. I don’t belong here. I don’t belong anywhere. All I do is destroy. I’m selfish and difficult and I hurt people. I don’t mean to but my very existence, by being what I am hurts those around me. It’s better that I go. I want to […]

4/25/2015 3 comments

Why bother

by impossible_girl 4/23/2015

written by impossible_girl

There’s no point. Go inpatient, I fail a course capstone project. Go inpatient, I am still nothing when I get out. Stay out, I will find a way. I will make the impossible possible. I do not want anymore pain and loneliness. Stop trying to save me to make yourselves feel good. You’re making me miserable.

4/23/2015 2 comments

Maybe Society Really Is Fucked Up

by ghost187 4/22/2015

written by ghost187

(NOTE: THIS IS JUST A RANT. DON’T TAKE ANY OF IT PERSONALLY IF YOU DO)
Maybe society really is fucked up.
I mean now it has doctors and therapist telling parents that if their child wants to hurt
themselves to let them. Just to be on stand by just in case. They’re telling parents that it’s their child’s life and they can do anything they want to their bodies. That there’s no way to stop them. Parents can’t force their kids to get help or to let them in.

Maybe society really is fucked up.
It now has girls and boys on social media who […]

4/22/2015 0 comment

God wants me to kill myself

by babydontcut 4/22/2015

written by babydontcut

im at a 6 month church camp and ive cane to the realization this morning that God wants me to kill myself and that im possessed.. now i have to find a way to sneak off campus and do this

4/22/2015 3 comments

Hi

by Bradley1 4/20/2015

written by Bradley1

I might be a little older than others using this page. I’m 36 married and 3 kids…One of them is 3 years old. But these thoughts always come into my mind that my family would be better off without me. The weight of it. I’ve struggled with these thoughts for years. My wife can find someone bettet

4/20/2015 4 comments

I´ve had it with life!

by tomcat42 4/20/2015

written by tomcat42

I´m going to have to have dialysis again, I´m being accused of a crime I didn´t comit, impossible to find a good woman. Just can´t stand my life and it failures and people keep asking me for money in the street. I´m so angry with everything…

4/20/2015 0 comment

A Curious Little Story

by GallinicideGuilty 4/16/2015

written by GallinicideGuilty

Sorry, guys, this “little story” might be a bit long for you, but maybe you’ll find something interesting.

When my parents separated, I had to move to another school, another house, another city. The changes were drastic. From the gorgeous three-floor plus balcony house we had to the new studio-type apartment barely the size of my old bedroom. From the Dad I knew and (maybe) loved, to this absolute stranger my Mom claimed to love. My problem was at home and I found ways to run away from it.

I made a ton of friends in my new school. I came home late most days, other days, […]

4/16/2015 4 comments

Introductions

by TheGerm 4/13/2015

written by TheGerm

I am new to the suicideproject.

I have been browsing the site, and I have seen some very interesting writing and many other creative things. This place seems like it could be engaging to me. There seems to be a lovely sardonic nature to the comments as well. I guess you could say that I am genuinely interested.

I have been struggling with depression for many years, and I hope to find some people to relate to. Please ask me whatever you would like, it will help me get acclimated to this site.

-TheGerm

4/13/2015 0 comment

Everything is numb

by rabbits 4/12/2015

written by rabbits

I have friends, I have a great family, I have a great boyfriend. I’m in my early 20s and started my own company 2 years ago. Since then nothing has gone right with it. My developers quit after months of not delivering on promises, and my current developer is treating me like shit. I have had suicidal thoughts off and on all my life but I’ve been having suicidal thoughts now for weeks… Today and yesterday something was different. I feel really numb. I keep trying to get out of it, to think about my family and how much it would hurt my little brother […]

4/12/2015 6 comments

my story

by emmygirl 4/10/2015

written by emmygirl

Im 21 years old yet i still feel like such a useless child, that same little girl whose father wanted her aborted, whose mother sdespite this got back together with said father and stood by while he both physically and emotionally abused me. He eventually kicked me out after finding out i had been raped saying that i deserved it and was better of dead. I struggeled to find a new place to stay the night most nights, if i couldnt find a place id sleep in a stall at hyvee or a walmart. While homeless i became addicted to meth. Id spend everyday high […]

4/10/2015 4 comments

Feeling a little down

by brokengirll 4/10/2015

written by brokengirll

“Sometimes I feel like people dont understand me.

But maybe its me who doesn’t understand myself

I struggle day by day,looking for a reason to keep living

By the end of every night, I never find anything

Worthy of a life in this world

So,why am I still alive and havent killed myself yet

The answer is I dont know

My mom, I am sure would be fine if I took my life

She still has my brother, who unlike me is perfect

He isnt a broken down car, waiting for the smallest of things to break down

My brother is smart,good-looking,successful and is very worthy of life

And I have no friends or talents to […]

4/10/2015 2 comments

Communicate through music

by RogerRabbit10210622 4/9/2015

written by RogerRabbit10210622

This is all I’ve ever known. Music. Music is the only thing that makes me feel anything, better even…..sometimes. Well growing up this way I only know how to deal with my emotions through it. Roger Rabbit by Sleeping With Sirens is my anthem. I think that in my note, if I leave one, this song with be written down for them to listen to. Maybe the lyrics will enlighten them a bit. People make fun of me for being so damn consumed with my music, but I don’t think they fully understand that lonely people do things that look “weird” Lonely depressed people do […]

4/9/2015 4 comments

tired and lost

by littlebluebird 4/7/2015

written by littlebluebird

I feel tired though I am not busy.
I feel old though I am just 16.
I feel broken.
What does this life really mean?
Sorry for my bad english. I hope I won’t be discriminated. I’ve been feeling depressed for a long time. I can’t find the way out. Telling what I feel to my parents and friends(are we still friends?)Its so difficult and weird. I’ve been telling that I’m lucky, so it is so sorry to express my reaI feeling. I’m sad doesn’t mean I’m not grateful. I have to fake a smile or a laugh to fit in when everyone’s happy. I […]

4/7/2015 3 comments

Do I have to?

by hellblau 4/6/2015

written by hellblau

Why it seems that I’m begging for love? In everywhere, family, friends, even myself. And I still do not get any. Do I have to beg more? Am I ever going to receive some? From someone? Am I going to loved someday? How? When? From who? I just don’t know. Like I said in the last post, I’m reaching to an end, I’m having so much break downs, there’s so much pain, loneliness literally is killing me. But I’m such a coward to make something to change it. I hate myself. I humiliate myself trying to find love where it’s obvious That I’ll never gonna […]

4/6/2015 2 comments

Going on an adventure, anyone want to join me?

by Good Adjective 4/3/2015

written by Good Adjective

So the plan is this. I’m going to keep driving until I don’t know where I am any more. Then I’ll keep driving some more. Then I’ll find a place to park and then the fun can begin because it is at this point that I proceed to get immensely drunk. And if I wake up the next day, then i’ll get more drunk. And so on.

Now if this doesn’t sound like a party worth going to then I don’t know what does. Anybody care to join me?

If you live in (Northern) Ireland then just let me know 😉

4/3/2015 2 comments

i need to know

by me1987 3/30/2015

written by me1987

I need to know if I should. I mean I know that everyone I know would be better off, logically this makes sense. I also know that just by asking I have my answer, but that’s not enough. I am, and have done, what most people would consider unforgiveable. I am not religious. I do believe in reincarnation and genuinly thinkin make a better go if it next time round. I think my eife, friends and family deserve to be able to live their lives without the hassle or having me in them. I especially believe my wife could find true happiness if I wasn’t […]

3/30/2015 1 comment

Reasons to live.

by comomequieranllamar 3/29/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

1. To not hurt my mother and sister.

2. To not abandon my dogs.

3. ?

Can’t find it.

3/29/2015 4 comments

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