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Behind the closed door.

by AmandaBen 2/22/2017

written by AmandaBen

A poem written by me during my darkest moments.

Behind the closed door

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who hides her pain

Buried in so much sorrow

All hope is being drained

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl practicing to smile

To hide the truth from everyone

A mask in which will only stay for a while

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl with cuts that bleed red

From unbearable sadness

She’s only hanging by a thread

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl who could no longer cry

She starts thinking

How will she say goodbye?

Behind the closed door

Lies a girl perfectly still

Who lost all hope

Who lost all will

Behind the closed door

Was where a girl once used […]

2/22/2017 5 comments

Suicide project kik chatroom

by darkwillow 5/26/2016

written by darkwillow

I know a lot of people on here have the kik messaging app. If not, it is free. Just instant messaging.

I feel like it would be nice for a group of us to join a chat room on it though. It would be fun. Let me know if anyone wants to 🙂 I already have 3 peoples kik on here, so it’s a start

my kik is devinx7

5/26/2016 7 comments

Suicide date

by skysie 5/26/2016

written by skysie

I cant do this anymore. I have decided that if things don’t improve by the 1st June, I am going to kill myself. I cant take the pain anymore.

And then finally I can be free of all the pain

5/26/2016 13 comments

To cut or not to cut

by They Call Me Amy 5/25/2016

written by They Call Me Amy

Every 6 months I have a breakdown. Too much stress to handle. I have been six months free, but now something triggered me to cut.

I have a strong feeling my dad is cheating on my mom, and she feels the same way, even tho she doesnt tell me

My dad can’t even take his eyes off other women to talk to me. He is the reason why I am scared of weddings, and the reason why I can’t trust any guy I know.

I am feeling like the stress has been piling up for many months and the fact that my dad is an asshole just made […]

5/25/2016 4 comments

Cordless In Two Views

by Hazy Day Sunflower 5/24/2016

written by Hazy Day Sunflower

You were very kind and composed something for me.

In return I present to you Cordless: Two Views.

Plus french horn, because of COURSE french horn.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BuCcMPKOy8c

Thank you for supporting so many of us here, even in your darkest moments.
feel free totally derail this post in the most disturbing ways possible. I’m headed off to bed.
HDS

5/24/2016 40 comments

@soco

by Hazy Day Sunflower 5/13/2016

written by Hazy Day Sunflower

Thank you for the beautiful drawing from D.A. Feel free to share this on the artist page if you like. A homage to beauty. I see a sunrise where the artist sees shades of grey. Either is beauty.

I have been up until now working in realism, but really fantasy is my comfort zone some nights.

This is “the blush of dawn”.

Love yourself, be kind.

HDS

5/13/2016 6 comments

Giving up

by alyzabelli4 5/12/2016

written by alyzabelli4

Everything is my fault it seems , I can’t be happy for more than a two hours , I’m giving up , I push everyone away so they won’t get hurt when I’m gone , and maybe by making people hate me it won’t be so hard . I’m giving up and I’m counting down the days . I can’t wait to be free from everything I can’t wait to be somewhere where I can be happy . I have given up and I have set my mind . I hope I can help others I hope one day people won’t be so sad that […]

5/12/2016 0 comment

Question for the artists

by Cordless 5/7/2016

written by Cordless

I got a new tablet recently (Samsung Galaxy Tab “S”), and I’m interested in finding an app that will let me try to draw things.

Can any of you recommend a good FREE app for this?

I see a number of options in the app store but don’t know what ones are trash. The ones I’ve tried so far have been disappointing.

All I want to do is sketch things and doodle, then save the picture so I can post it here if it’s not too horrible.

I tried one called “Sketch Guru” but it didn’t work so I uninstalled it.

There was another one called “Sketchbook” by Autodesk which […]

5/7/2016 54 comments

What Do You Think “Aerials” Lyrics Talk About? (Any SOAD Fans?) \m/ ^0^ \m/

by HERE4UOK 4/27/2016

written by HERE4UOK

System of a Down
Aerials

Life is a waterfall,
We’re one in the river,
And one again after the fall.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find it all?

Cause we are the ones that wanna play,
Always wanna go,
But you never wanna stay,

And we are the ones that wanna choose,
Always wanna play,
But you never wanna lose.

Aerials, in the sky,
When you lose small mind,
You free your life.

Life is a waterfall,
We drink from the river,
Then we turn around and put up our walls.

Swimming through the void
We hear the word,
We lose ourselves,
But we find […]

4/27/2016 11 comments

What is a distortion like me called?

by quaero 4/27/2016

written by quaero

Just what exactly does what life want out of me? Why don’t I get out of suffering even when I can? I meditated today after a long time. It was so peaceful and fulfilling. But I, purely consciously and deliberately, right in the middle, crashed it all up, torn it all up. I just couldn’t handle the peace! What the hell is wrong with me? What do I want? Is all this suffering not enough? I must be either mad or the most fucked up crooked donkey of a person on earth. (You know the property of a donkey? He gets fat in winter and starved in spring. That’s because in spring […]

4/27/2016 1 comment

Still alive

by Drowning 4/17/2016

written by Drowning

hay guys I’m still alive iv been trying to keep busy just in case you was wondering how has everyone been holding on I hope we’ll I’m not sure when the next time il post again but if u want to chat feel free to email me new and oldies on here indigojones5@gmail.com

darktide cordless hazy phantom crowbar procel and a few other names iv been thinking of you guys thanks for the support I appreciate that we have met and help each other though some rough dark nights thanks you everyone who is joined to suicide club

drowning hi5 everyone stay stong il be back like […]

4/17/2016 4 comments

by NicoleK 4/11/2016

written by NicoleK

When did this world become so insufferable? So much division and violence and hate. I can’t take it. I had enough of that in my own home growing up, and now I’m forced into this reality with an extremely amplified version of the same thing. And I work this useless job at a filthy, greedy corporation. No free time to even figure out who I am or what I want. No room to live, because I have to pay so much just to exist, let alone try to live. The only people that seem to care about my stupid thoughts are you all…and I don’t […]

4/11/2016 2 comments

Comfort in similarities?

by badcat 4/5/2016

written by badcat

You hear all the time how people find comfort in finding others that are going through the same thing as them. I don’t. To me it makes me loose hope that there’s and end to this crap going on in my head.

There are sooooo many people with at least some sort of depression or mental health issues it seems like that’s just the way it is. That’s being human. I think it’s totally unacceptable for a race (as in human race) to have that as a norm. It also kills all hope to be free of it.

I’m just supposed to accept it because everyone else […]

4/5/2016 8 comments

A part of me thinks it will get better

by blank-clutter 3/31/2016

written by blank-clutter

Is it a good part? Should it be listened to? It’s very unrealistic and naive but it’s hopeful. Last I checked hope was a good thing.

The other part is a realist and knows that history is a good predictor of the past. Being on a downward spiral points further down.

in short, I’m suicidal with a fantasy of breaking free and becoming something great

3/31/2016 5 comments

To Blue Tinker Bell…

by HERE4UOK 3/30/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Hello All –

Sorry I’ve been away for a while.

I just have been dealing with the recent loss of a truly dear friend and member of one of the groups I volunteer at.

She is deeply and terribly missed by all of us left behind and not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought about her. “If only…” thoughts plague my mind and tug down my heart, and as much as I understand that she is now free, that she’s now relieved of all her problems, DAMN IT THIS HURTS SO MUCH..!!!

14.

Too young.

I don’t know if to think she was too young to give up, […]

3/30/2016 2 comments

by Drowning 3/28/2016

written by Drowning

What has changed from a year ago when I starting to be suicidal again nothing apart from me starting to act on it I should have done it a year ago just prolonged my pain and suffering so what is if nothing changes by next year that would be two years of suffering and u happiness would be ideal to swollow something and sleep forever but that ain’t going to happen I need a better method or the courage to follow though with a method I’m not keen on who knows time will tell I guess

il put my email here if anyone what’s to chat […]

3/28/2016 2 comments

Why wait for death when we can strive for something we desire, come with me

by Wanderlost 3/27/2016

written by Wanderlost

Escape. That’s what we desire. Want. Who doesn’t need to be wanted? This is our shot.
The reason we feel so empty and vile about ourselves isn’t our fault, it’s our
environment. We are one and the same and we need to take steps to stay alive. That’s
why I’m leaving to roam the country, feel free and alive again…like I did before and
I’m inviting any of you to join me. All we need is each other. There is unity in who
we are. We may be the black sheep, the broken hearted, the crazy psychos. But we are
also the explorers, the innovators, […]

3/27/2016 12 comments

For everybody who feels alone tonight

by Kirito 3/21/2016

written by Kirito

If you wanna have a talk feel free to add me on skype: phil2921

3/21/2016 20 comments

Into the Wild

by secret me 3/18/2016

written by secret me

i was accepted to Stanford.

everyone is happy.

So why not me?

pressure pressure pressure

I don’t want to go to medical school.

I don’t want to live other people’s expectations, dreams, morals.

left.

Heading towards Oregon and I’ve never felt so free.

Ive been suicidal my whole life.

All I wanted was freedom and it was waiting for me right outside my door this whole time.

I finally listened to my instincts and went against odds.

The only thing I want to say to people who are unhappy- is just to do what’s makes you happy on your our own means.

follow your instincts.

Im free

and so the adventure begins.

3/18/2016 8 comments

I’m done with life

by N0Futur3 3/14/2016

written by N0Futur3

I’ve reached the very end upon which I will endure this existence. Preparations all set…… Going to end it with a drink. I’m done with this shitty world, i’m done dealing with parasitic, materialistic, deceptive people. I’m done dealing with “family” that lies, steals, and treats me like shit. Love does not exist in this ugly, putrid, infected world of racists, murderers, politicians, corruption, prostitutes, and abominations.
I rather be dead then live with the likes of you…. You who see the light in this world are the real freaks, psychopaths, and ones who need help. “chill out, think about the positive” that’s a pitiful […]

3/14/2016 24 comments

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