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suicide note to my best friend

by ambientblueguitarist1317 1/12/2015

Em,

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on. We need that one person who is always their for us even when it seems like everything we’ve done should turn them against us. And I know you didn’t do much except send out an encouraging text now and then, but you were that person. You were the one who kept me going for this long, who kept me able to get up each morning to face the day. Granted, there were many times when i wanted to die and i could hardly pull myself to my feet and all i could do was lay there, praying for […]

1/12/2015 2 comments

Meet my counsellor…

by theWhispersOfMySins 1/10/2015

written by theWhispersOfMySins

…Charlie Chow Mein. His fees are reasonable…some daily catnip and treats. And food. Lots of food. Fresh water. Belly rubs. Ear rubs. Toys. A $300 cat post(ikr! It was on sale for half price) that reaches the ceiling and takes up most my living room. Attention whenever he wants it. And I have to share my food. He likes deli meat, vegetable crackers and coconut flavoured yogurt. So worth it though. He keeps all my secrets, lets me cry all over him, he feels nice to […]

1/10/2015 7 comments

I’m just gonna say this before I lose my shit

by Moody_91 1/10/2015

written by Moody_91

I’m not feeling very strong today. I want to say so much but who cares enough to listen? And what does it matter anyway? I don’t know how to give my feelings any value anymore. I’m going to try this to see if it helps but in my mind I think I have already made the decision to end my life. There is just too much hatred and shame and I’m tired of all the wanting I have. To many needs never able to be satisfied. This is going to take time to write out so I will start with something short. This.

Maybe this will […]

1/10/2015 1 comment

what to do.. i cant take it anymore

by justinallen 1/9/2015

written by justinallen

Lately my whole life has falling apart. Im 24 in California. Iv been with my gf for 5yrs. Iv left my whole family just to be with her here. (My family is in Michigan). So after 5yrs now she isn’t in love with me anymore. She says she loves me but shes not “in love with me”. She broke up witb me yesterday and now idk what to do.. like wtf iv built my whole life around her. Iv given her everything she ever wanted. I put her before myself and now it means nothing i cant just uproot myself whenever she feels like it. […]

1/9/2015 5 comments

Tired of living in this world

by blooder 1/7/2015

written by blooder

I’am tired of everything, of the night, of the day, of myself, of other people, of things that I have to do, I just wanna end my life, but I fear the pain, I want to find a way to die at minimum pain, I find that there’s nothing in this world that interests my anymore, I’ve seen much things if not all, anyway inside my(in my soul) I feel a void, an emptyness, I can’t feel emoutions anymore, I feel like a zombie, I don’t understand what I’am doing here on this planet earth, I think that it was an error that I was […]

1/7/2015 1 comment

If I just lay here…

by impossible_girl 1/3/2015

written by impossible_girl

Now I’m gonna have that song in my head. I don’t want to die. I just … don’t want to live, either. Can you commit suicide by apathy? What if I just stop taking my meds, stop eating, stop drinking, stop doing anything other than lay in my bed and stare at the wall and remind myself that I’m a cold-hearted monster that breaks everything, that can’t really love, and that no one will ever love back? I hope my cats wait until I’m dead to start nibbling at my body for survival, but, well, c’est la vie. It’s […]

1/3/2015 12 comments

Live, ye awesome motherfuckers!

by Procel 12/29/2014

written by Procel

With a new year approaching I can never help but to ponder. Ponder the years gone by and the year to come. I’ve gotta admit for the most part looking back I feel three emotions above all others. Pride, embarrassment and sadness. Pride at coming this far, despite picking out a go date, more than once, despite getting hold of method after method, most painless and most sure fire. Despite every descision I took that screwed my life up I somehow stayed with it. I’m gonna be proud about that if ye don’t mind. And embarrassed at the way I usto be, way back when. […]

12/29/2014 10 comments

Finally the end of pain

by flipnflap 12/22/2014

written by flipnflap

23rd is my day now guys.. I won’t bore you anymore with my posts. No one can never get used to such condition I’m in. I wish I can say I’m happy now that I finally figured out how to end it but.. I just wish my mom didn’t come back to see this, even she understands that I can’t live for her, she told me that. I’ve been trying lately to sort of make my mom hate me to make it easier for her but it only works for a little while then I feel like an asshole and automatically talk to her. It’s […]

12/22/2014 5 comments

Confused

by woahshar 12/11/2014

written by woahshar

hey guys. My mom and I haven’t been talking for a week now because I did something stupid. I lit a paper using a lighter because I liked the smell of the burning paper. I did it while sitting in the toilet. My mom smelled the smoke and she started yelling at me. She said things like “it’s bad for your heart and your brain.” “That’s probably why you’re so stupid.” And then the next morning, she told my dad and then my dad scolded me and said that I was stupid and that I’m an addict. And also that my brain is probably damaged […]

12/11/2014 9 comments

wed’s

by tc13 12/5/2014

written by tc13

a man died and went to hell. after wandering around for a while, he ran across the devil. the man said ” ya know, devil, ive been here for awhile, and its really boring. do you have anything to do down here?” the devil looked at the man and said “why, of course we do. do you like to drink?” the man said “yes, yes i do like to drink”. the devil replied ” on mondays, we drink as much as we want,from dawn to dark, whatever flavor you want,beer, wine, whiskey.” the devil continued,” do you like to do drugs?” the man said ” […]

12/5/2014 10 comments

Enough is Enough

by Jumper97 12/3/2014

written by Jumper97

I’ve tried to not give up and started living again, but I come back to my dark side. Fuck this, fuck all of this, it’s not gonna get better, no signs of improvement are showing. I’m destined to be alone and a failure, everybody ignores or leaves me and I’m gonna be a fuck up, I have no hopes, no dreams,they all died along time ago, why am I even pushing further, when I don’t have the will or effort to even do it. Enough is enough, I’m gonna kill myself.

12/3/2014 5 comments

its been a while

by E 11/30/2014

written by E

i was gonna do it weeks ago. but something, someone stopped me, canceled out the pain, but now, they’re all i can think about and if im not thinking about them im struck down by stomachaches to the point of nausea, of crying. i know i will never see them again. they dont even know my name. i want to do it, but im just so confused rn idk like i just dont know

11/30/2014 1 comment

by Remnant The Unbroken 11/25/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

Well. I’m afraid I’m going to lose a friend to suicide, no matter how hard I tried to make him see otherwise. It’s ultimately his choice. And I’m not gonna force him to change. But the more I think about why I’m still here myself, is I just don’t have the damn luxury to commit suicide like some of the lucky people do. I just don’t have the luxury. I have too many people to take care of. And if I didn’t have one scrap of love for them, then I’d say fuck off and then hang myself like I always think about. But I […]

11/25/2014 0 comment

You Killing you, Is Killing Me

by 17andDead 11/24/2014

written by 17andDead

My step dad is a drug addict, and yesterday he said he was quiting and then today he has the nerve to come to me and ask for my pills, it’s like if i dont give them to him hes gonna hate me but if i do then i hate me i just want him to get better or get out it’s not fair that i have to live with him let alone my 2 year old sister i mean just fix yourself or leave my house.

11/24/2014 2 comments

why do I try

by bringkenziethehorizon 11/20/2014

written by bringkenziethehorizon

My sister doesn’t know y I sleep so long.. I literally have no reason to get out of bed especially when all she does is make me feel worse accuses me of everything blames me for her nd gordy fighting tells me I’m useless that I’m not shit lik y the fuck would I wanna get up if that’s all that’s gonna happen I’m starting to break Idk Wat to do tbfh Idk how to make my fucking life better

11/20/2014 3 comments

only my life left to lose…

by RealTalk30 11/18/2014

written by RealTalk30

Things haven’t been going well at all…

I just float through life, trying to hold on to something.. seemingly anything there is to try and hold on to. I don’t want to be alone..alone in my life, in how I feel, in how I think and in how I see things from my perspective. I’m not done with this life yet, I don’t want to die like this..

From my wife leaving me, and never even sending so much as a hello via….? Nothing! ..to the sudden realization of mental illness….to constantly losing my job..never being good enough..to being right out used and brutally attacked…and the permanent […]

11/18/2014 9 comments

sorry

by cathy arsis 11/18/2014

written by cathy arsis

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/A-Change-Is-Gonna-Come-Sam-Cooke-1963-from-YouTube-by-Offliberty.mp3

i just cant anymore. today is the last….90 ambien 100 otc sleeping pills….i just can’t……i’m so so sorry.i really did try. but i cant i told you before i was afraid i’ve gone so far afield i was afraid i wouldn’t be able to find myself again….well i cant……i’m so sorry. i know this is gonna leave behind a big hurt and i’m sorry

11/18/2014 9 comments

tears

by neverhappy 11/15/2014

written by neverhappy

Tears taste salty. When you just shed tears, they give a sensation of warmth in the eyes. When they roll down to the cheeks and neck, it feels cold. After crying for about an hour the tears stop rolling no matter how hard you cry inside.Crying all nights gives early morning headaches. These are facts I never thought I would have to acknowledge someday. But, here I am practically experiencing every inch of it. Its not coming to an end. I’m not sure if this tunnel chose me or I chose that, but I am walking through a dark tunnel and I can’t see light. […]

11/15/2014 1 comment

hello everyone,

by keepsurviving 11/14/2014

written by keepsurviving

I am fairly new here. I found this website in my darkest days and I am not sure if it is gonna make everything better or worse but it is good to read people’s experiences and have a chance to help them. I can say that I have survived and strayed from the darkest version of myself. I hope I can help you also! I am here when you need me. I mean it.

11/14/2014 4 comments

Ugly

by Deleted.from.society 11/13/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

You said they made fun of your body
Humiliation in your eyes when you told me
Well I’m gonna find them
Don’t you worry
I’ll make sure
They’re really fucking sorry

You said you’re embarrassed of your body
You told me you think you’re really ugly
Well my love I know you don’t see
What I see

Anything that is beautiful
People want to break
And you are beautiful
I’m afraid

You said you’re ashamed of your body
You’d rather die than show me
But I would love you in any
Form you take

You said […]

11/13/2014 4 comments

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