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Hate

Starr Program

by Starr_Crys 3/9/2015

written by Starr_Crys

I hate it. I got out of my grandma’s house for cutting, and she sent me to a hospital. the hospital was okay, but after I refused to go back with her they put me into a ton of different Starr programs. The sad part is, my middle name is Starr so it’s more depressing than it should be.

I’ve given up on friendships, since I’ll just have to leave in a week. I keep to myself and read my books. I haven’t stopped cutting, even though I really should. I’ve met my soon-to-be foster mother. She’s so sweet, she just has to clean her hose […]

3/9/2015 0 comment

HATE

by HereticBlood 1/30/2015

written by HereticBlood

I HATE night time…. Literally fucking hate it!!!

1/30/2015 1 comment

No more feelings

by RedSmile 1/26/2015

written by RedSmile

I reached a point where all the reasons to leave this world are strongest that the ones to stay. Something brokes in me, I can’t feel anything but hate, and this hate is slowly killing me from the inside, so I’m starting to wonder why shouldn’t I end this myself.

I don’t know what to do. All I asked was love but in my life, I’ve just known the wrong side of it. I was the one who was loving, never the one loved. And a lot of time, I thought that it will be it, that the nightmares will finally end but only false hope […]

1/26/2015 11 comments

Hate.

by CandyCoatedCyanide 1/8/2015

written by CandyCoatedCyanide

Hate is what we possess there is no other way scapegoats got us no where captured as the lies within us we’re trapped nothing in between us go on, come closer follow my soft spoken voice, I dare you I can almost hear you breathing in silence your heart beats touched by the cruel chill of your presence I’m burning, fading into dust of ashes blowing in the wind you’ve ripped me apart covered with pale white shrouds being deprived of your absence has ordered my withdraw I am no longer searching left alone lifeless goodbye my love, I hate you.

1/8/2015 0 comment

chronic physical pain

by deadpuppy 12/24/2014

written by deadpuppy

i’ve been thru so much shit in my life i wouldn’t even know where to begin

then what happens? life throws chronic pain at me…yay! now i’m sitting here wanting to die and in agonizing pain

i’ve had this pain for 2 years now and it’s getting worse every day

the funny thing is that i was suicidal way before i got this pain…now i’m even more suicidal than i was before, which i didn’t think was possible

ughhhhhhh please just KILL ME NOW!!! i fucking HATE my life…

12/24/2014 5 comments

Hate my life so much

by IndigoMasquerade 12/6/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

Employers can’t even f**king be honest about why they’re not hiring me. I’m definitely NOT “overqualified” to babysit someone’s child for two hours for just one day.

12/6/2014 1 comment

I promise one day we’ll be happy as much as we pretend to be…

by club27 11/27/2014

written by club27

11/27/2014 3 comments

A Sign?

by leftforthedead 11/9/2014

written by leftforthedead

I gave myself one week for me to change my mind, and to not execute my plan to attempt suicide. The day that I planned to execute my plan, and end my life was Friday. I told myself that if anyone showed that they actually cared about me, or if someone gave me a reason to live that I wouldn’t end my life. One of my ex-college professors called my cell phone this weekend. He asked if I was okay, and said that I seemed troubled the last time that he talked to me. I immediately tried to reassure him […]

11/9/2014 7 comments

No One Cares!

by Ghost9er 10/30/2014

written by Ghost9er

I should end my life, tomorrow’s the big day after all… No one will miss me, no one will care, Tomorrow is the only day I’ll have to myself, NO ONE WILL TAKE IT AWAY!

Tomorrow, I die!

Sliced wrists, Downed pills, and a rope around my neck! I’m making sure I die this time! GOOD BYE FOREVER YOU HEARTLESS MONSTERS OF THE WORLD!!!

10/30/2014 8 comments

The Unwritten Note

by Ghost9er 10/20/2014

written by Ghost9er

Dear,
Whomever is reading this, I have planned out my demise for nearly a month now, it took careful planning as well and I may add more to it, just to be sure. I cannot fail this time! I already have the items required to finally end my pain, forever. You, the reader of this final note of my existence will know, that I have not only hung myself but, have slashed my arms and drank some pills. I wanted to be sure of my demise. My reason for my untimely death is the pain that I couldn’t handle anymore.
For you see, ever since […]

10/20/2014 2 comments

No More

by Ghost9er 10/16/2014

written by Ghost9er

I have tried endlessly,
failing constantly.
I am a disappointment to my family,
a terrible failure.
No matter how hard I try,
it’s never enough.
I punish myself constantly pushing further,
and still not approved.
I have endured a great deal of suffering,
to please my family,
and still not enough.
Having been burned, bruised, and strictly damaged,
all in the name of making them happy.
But, it is never enough for those fiends.
They take whatever they can out of me,
drain me till I am weakened and broken.
Just to destroy me more,
They have no heart towards me.
Caring not of what […]

10/16/2014 2 comments

Damaged Goods

by Ghost9er 10/16/2014

written by Ghost9er

Dysfunctional in modern society, I do not belong anywhere.
Darkness has consumed my outlook on life,
and I cannot see any hope.
Despair has taken a liking to me, causing pain inside my being.
The suffering tortures me as it flows in my veins,
damaging every molecule and fiber of my existence.
Twitches are the result,
along with violent tremors,
all of which are noticeable.
Names are called upon me,
strong and power they pierce my feelings.
Making my emotions bleed in the shadows of torture.
Endlessly I hope for an end, but no one stops.
Like walking on pins and needles,
there is no […]

10/16/2014 1 comment

My Suicide Note

by Ghost9er 10/14/2014

written by Ghost9er

I tried being perfect for everyone but, always fell short, nothing I did was ever enough, even when I’d drive myself beyond insanity trying to be perfect, it just was never enough. I started realizing that no one will ever love me thanks to my mom having had abandoned me to face my overly abusive father alone, unwanted, and always getting used as a punching bag, I hated myself more and more because, I believed that my suffering was punishment from god, for things I have done and will do. And after years of my father beating into my skull that it was my fault […]

10/14/2014 3 comments

Listen

by RoseDavidson 10/9/2014

written by RoseDavidson

Okay, so few weeks ago I posted about my dad commiting suicide and lot of you were commenting about how you wish for your dads or family to be dead.
Let me tell you that before all this I wanted my dad gone as well. He had done horrible things to me and to my mother. He had been always drunk and had played hazard games, spending all his money. And I hated him, for all the pain he caused. But be careful what you wish for. Once your family is gone. There is no way back. And no matter how bad they are on […]

10/9/2014 3 comments

Pills

by curlylion720 10/8/2014

written by curlylion720

I am a 14 year old teenager, depressed and suicidal. I know this may sound stupid but does anyone know any pills that will make me pass out if I overdose? I am not exactly trying to kill myself, just a way of revealing my pain to my parent without having to actually talk to them, but let’s just say I wouldn’t care if I died overdosing.

I know I will receive lots of “don’t do this” “you don’t deserve life” and “you’re worth it” but I don’t believe any of that. I hate my life and myself so much, I don’t think anything or anyone […]

10/8/2014 9 comments

It Needs To Stop

by hooded_girl 9/23/2014

written by hooded_girl

1 became 2, then 2 to 4. 1 cut every time my heart fell to the floor.
4 became 5, then 5 to 8. 1 cut every time I’ve experienced self-hate.
8 became 9, then 9 to 11. 1 cut every time I wish I was in Heaven.
11 became 12, then 12 to 16. 1 cut every time they were ever mean.
16 became 17, then 17 to 21. 1 last cut before my life was done.
1 cut, 2 cut, 3 cut, 4.
Loss of blood, my mind began to flood, as my life went on no more.
Self-Harm is like a drug […]

9/23/2014 2 comments

Madness

by dropdead_96 9/16/2014

written by dropdead_96

I can’t handle it anymore, i just want to end my life, I’m a mess, and I’m a mean person with everyone I love.

My dad just die in 2011, and it hits me so hard, and I was so angry, because he never was there for me, even after all, I loved him, he’s my dad and I just wanted him with me to protect me.

I almost commit suicide because of that, and it didn’t happen because I was afraid, I’m still afraid.

After three years, now my mom has a boyfriend and he’s a kind person, he has two daughters, the younger one is so […]

9/16/2014 0 comment

I Hate my Mom

by Tara 9/14/2014

written by Tara

You know when somebody says “You shouldn’t be around people who make you unhappy.” There’s only one person that makes me unhappy, and that’s my mom. The worst part is I am forced to be around her. She is emotionally abusive and she claims that she has never said anything bad to me. She says I’m a *****, a drama queen, that I’m crazy, and she hopes I run away. She is the reason i cry so much. I’ve suffered from depression since I was 8, and my mom has always belittled me about it. My older brother at the age of 7 had a […]

9/14/2014 1 comment

Permanent Scars

by KissOfDeath 8/20/2014

written by KissOfDeath

Our eyes met,

and for some reason I just couldn’t resist you,

I fell fast and so did you.

But then the sweet words you called me turned sour,

the touching wasn’t so gentle anymore,

you left bruises and scars,

but somehow it felt better to go through this pain with you,

than without.

I never believed in God,

but I started praying for death,

hoping some greater power could take me out of this misery.

Your mean words became my reality,

and my bruises you left on my body never healed,

they were permanent.

I left you, with swollen eyes and a heavy heart,

never knowing if I would find someone that would make me so miserably happy.

8/20/2014 4 comments

Hate

by DeathDreamer 7/20/2014

written by DeathDreamer

I HATE EVERYONE. This is not a fucking poem. Why am I still here… I feel a distant pain echoing in the caverns of my heart.

This life I am living is not a life at all. Despair and hopelessness, in 3 years I’ll be 30. Nothing to show for it. No stable job, no friends, nothing left but my insanity. I don’t wanna go on. Can’t wait until it’s over and I’m free

7/20/2014 3 comments

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